After. Sorry.

[Stripe]

Questions to Answer After A Slip
slips are chances to learn. you figure out what stresses are still too hard for you and you can work on how you'll deal with them next time you run into them. so instead of beating yourself up, take action.

• have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.
  I can't take care of them right now. I will try later.
• what had happened just before?
  Nothing. Stuff has happened today, but just before I was "okay"
• what were you thinking and feeling?
  I need someone, I need him back. i need to be safe. get out of my fucking head.
• why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
  Speaking to Helen this morning. he tracked me down on the internet, scared me. then now, bad thoughts and sudden flashbak
• how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
  i could have fought the thoughts
• were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
  very little sleep
  need to speak about meds
• what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
  writing - didnt work
  tried to call t but not there
• in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
  could ahve talked to people
• name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
  talk to t if poss
  tell a friend
• how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
  i cant
  
  have to wait
  
• are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
  i will be back here, i can tell by how i feel
  
• what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.

Talking to T
Talking to friend
writing

[caged bird]

hey, sorry that you SIied, you don't need to apologise on here for doing it though.

you're going through a lot right now and it seems like you did try and take some really positive steps towards staying safe (trying to get in touch with T etc) sometimes it seems that everyhting conspires against us even when we're trying out best. did you hold out from last ngiht and just SI now, if so then you've held on a really long tiime considering how bad you felt last night.

maybe you could have a backup of someone to talk to if you can't get hold of T, another source of support that you could try.

please tae care of yourself, and your wounds

*k*

[Stripe]

I cut last night as well

I just couldn't fill in an after then - no internet access

I just feel so weak. left my laptop for 5 minutes and cut.

I am apologising to myself.

I only got the news from Helen that I expected, no decision, but probably he will be allowed back to work, but I also found out that he had found a different website I use

IDK

I jsut want to get away.


Spoke to J last night though, that helped.

I will try and clean them later.

Would majorly trigger me seeing them right now.