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what had happened just before?
just the thought of another day was more than i could take.
what were you thinking and feeling?
I was thinking how did i get here? what happened to my life? i feel lost and alone and scared and ashamed.
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
because it's the quickest and easiest. final straw? dealing with an abusive alcoholic husbands rants...again.
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
i could have not taken his phone call and dealt with him. i should have known better.
were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
there wasn't time to try anything else. i have to go to the ofc. i have a life to take care of...obligations to fulfill...meetings to attend.
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
I feel worse about it. it's not resolved but maybe now i can make it through my day or at least my morning.
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
sadly, yes. it never leaves me.
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
1) call my pastor
2) journal
3) surround myself with people
hmm...i didn't think i could come up with three
What made that opportunity more appealing than any other?
i was alone and needed to feel alive and okay
Did you make an opportunity or was it there for the taking?
opportunities are always there.
What would you have done if there was no opportunity, how would you have handled your urge?
i probably would have freaked out inside and left to find opportunity.
If there had been no opportunity would your urge to self-harm have increased or decreased?
decreased.
What consitutes opportunity for you? Being alone? having new tools? waiting for the right feeling?
usually being alone but i have done it with others in the next room. that's unusual for me. usually being alone.
If your opportunties were taken away, how would you feel?
OMG! trapped.
