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[Neviah]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

I will feel better, relieved. I won't feel this shitty

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

Hurting myself will bring peace and quiet and will relieve me of all this stuff thats in my head. It will take away the bad feelings so that i can be ok again

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

i want to feel anything but this, hurting myself will get me there

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

a couple of hours, maybe a day, then i'll do it again.


what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

Sleep, read, cross stitch, call kris. it will prevent me from doing it, it will last untill tomorrow morning if im lucky. then ill feel bad again

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

i will feel silly but better if i hurt myself, it will mount up if i do the other thing and the next urge will be worse


what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?

i don't know..

[mallie]

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

I will feel better, relieved. I won't feel this shitty

Why do you feel shitty? Will the reasons you're feeling shitty be gone if you SI?

I'm sorry you're hurting Neviah

[Neviah]

im feeling shitty cause the urges want me to si. if i si, then the urges will go