After :-(

[black_23]

Have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait.

All done

What had happened just before?

Had been out for leaving drinks for two friends at work and had drinks and dancing.

what were you thinking and feeling?

That I wasn't good enough, that I'd never compare to any pf them, that I was socially inept and how the hell was I gong ot cope with new work and resposnibilities when I can even talk to people.

Why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?

I'm not sure, the thoughts hae been there, but ignored them for 3months and now messed up big style. Im supposed to be responsible, we both had a night out and I messed up how stupid and pathetic am i!? Just cos I can't cope with social situations and be me, feel so bottled up and uptight, but i cant' let go if i do and drink all will explode and then be horrible.

How did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.

If my b/f had been here would have been ok, just gone to bed, but not back yet, its opportunity, images and flashes, .

were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?

Alcohol def though did try and be good had coke and water in between though not eaten much and lack of sleep as always now help. meds? I wish i had the guts to ask for helps!

what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?

Listen to music on way home and read my book, but nothing worked

in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?

Distractions, making tea, calming down. Just snapped and it wasn;t me.

name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.

Call someone, do something nice for me first

Are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?

With the stress of next few weeks probably, but I don't want to be, my emotional state usally big indictor now great wth change.

what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.

Talk, write, calm

[Proximity]

Hi,
I know this is a bit after-the-fact, but I hope it's alright that I'm replying anyway.


There's a lot to be said for learning to calm yourself down when you're in a bad place. Do you think that the social anxiety that you were having earlier in the evening was part of what happened when you got home?

When you think about not being good enough, or not comparing to other people, can you separate out what's actually true from what's just anxiety and putting yourself down?
Do you think that other people have similar feelings of not being good enough, and what would you say to them if you knew?
Can you reassure yourself in a similar way?
How can you calm yourself down when you're in a difficult social situation?

What can you do to prevent the build-up of bad feelings that you were talking about from happening again? (You said that the thoughts had been there but you ignored them for 3 months.)
Is there a way besides self-injury to release the tension and bad feelings, or at least to acknowledge them instead of pretending they're not there?



What would it take for you to find "the courage to ask for help"?

prox.
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