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It sounds like you really have a handle on this. You are recognizing the urge but finding ways not to act on it. That takes a lot of strength and you should be proud of yourself for that.
Sometimes when I am feeling panicky and feel like I need to SI to releave some of that chest tightness, I do an activity that is meditative for me. My big one is knitting, but anything simple and repetetive helps me. Sometimes I just shuffle cards. I find it helps to keep my hands busy. Do you do anything like that? Just a thought.
Write. Write and write and write until everything is out of you. Until it's all down on a page instead. Then perhaps destroy that page? Burn it or tear it up or something to symbolize destroying the feelings and beating the urges.
Hang in there. I'm proud of you for recognizing that you don't want to SI to feel better.
Love,
Stevie
Sometimes when I am feeling panicky and feel like I need to SI to releave some of that chest tightness, I do an activity that is meditative for me. My big one is knitting, but anything simple and repetetive helps me. Sometimes I just shuffle cards. I find it helps to keep my hands busy. Do you do anything like that? Just a thought.
Write. Write and write and write until everything is out of you. Until it's all down on a page instead. Then perhaps destroy that page? Burn it or tear it up or something to symbolize destroying the feelings and beating the urges.
Hang in there. I'm proud of you for recognizing that you don't want to SI to feel better.
Love,
Stevie
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And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then you catch your breath and winter starts again, and everyone else was springbound. And when I chose to live, there was no joy, it's just a line I crossed. I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found....But when you live in a world, well, it gets in to who you th ought you'd be. And now I laugh at how the world changed me. I think life chose me after all.
--Dar Williams
And it felt like a winter machine that you go through and then you catch your breath and winter starts again, and everyone else was springbound. And when I chose to live, there was no joy, it's just a line I crossed. I wasn't worth the pain my death would cost, so I was not lost or found....But when you live in a world, well, it gets in to who you th ought you'd be. And now I laugh at how the world changed me. I think life chose me after all.
--Dar Williams
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