write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself:
how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
it'll go worse coz i'm not supposed to harm myself but i'll feel relieved
what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
as i said things would go worse coz i commited to not si but i dunno what else to do to get rid of this emotional pain i'm going thru
how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
farther of course i know si is the worst option available but it's also the only one i wish i didnt feel guilty about doing it like i used to but i cant anymore
if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
it'll last till i fall asleep and wake up in the morning if any what will i do then? i have no idea, i guess get up and do what i'm supposed to do, go to school and stuff
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
i could make myself cry or write everything down in my journal it'll last the same till i fall asleep and wake up and i would pretend nothing happened
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
on one hand i'll feel very guilty coz i promised to fight but on the other hand i would feel relieved and proud of myself because something inside me tells me this is where i belong
what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
i wanna cry a lot. i wanna feel ok and actually enjoy it. i wanna get rid of the guilt trip i'm going thru
i have never understood the second part of this question
