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Post by treasure » Thu Oct 12, 2006 3:16 am

not sure if i want to stop the urges or just give in. it is very hot today and my scars are all showing. i think that is making me feel anxious, tho i just thought of it... i am anxious about money - my rent will go up soon, i have a convention in a few months and haven't organised accomodation. i feel useless for not being in control of my money... i also have been really isolated recenlty. my only close friend will be moving away in a few months. i feel like talking to my dr or counsellor will make me feel worse...

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i'm going to stay inside online for a while. i can cool down and hopefully relax. i just briefly talked to an aquaintance, i feel a bit more confident about myself... might try and contact someone about the group i was part of and see if i can meet up with them. i guess money problems can't change if i worry more. i will try and find out about loans or about selling some things i don't need...

being alone now, i feel a lot less anxious... i have other distraction too. later i will possibly be anxious but i guess i have plenty of time to plan how to deal with going home in the heat.

slightly useless post? being on bus long enough to type it was enough to stop the urge.
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Post by Smeagol » Thu Oct 12, 2006 8:30 am

Hi

Sounds like you have a good handle on the situation. You identified what was worrying you and took steps to handle that. :)

Have you looked up self-soothing techniques in coping? That could help for when you don't get the chance to just go home.

Hope you got through.
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