Yes cos the slip happened on Wednesday
what had happened just before?
Not much. Worked. Ate dinner...regualr stuff really
what were you thinking and feeling?
That I just HAD to do it. Felt desperate and uncontrollable. Compulsive.
why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it?
I had been thinking about it for a few days and it just got to the point where I couldn't hold off any longer.
how did the situation get to the final straw stage? trace it back through the events that led up to the last event. look for some point at which you could have made a different decision and not arrived at the final straw.
I went out on my lunch break and bought more blades...WHY??? That made me want to even more. I had a weird weekend and the week before was stressful...If I hadn't gone out at lunch I don't think it would've happened. I'm so dissapointed in myself
were there outside factors like drugs, alsohol, being off your meds, lack of sleep, etc? can you address those in the future? how?
Stress I guess is the only thing I can think of. Drinking has been reasonable lately, not on meds and don't even do weed now...
what other ways of coping did you try besides self-harm? how well did they work?
The old elastic band around the wrist, ice cube etc..all in vain this time.
in retrospect, are there coping methods that you now realize might have helped? what were they?
Could've watched a bit of a DVD before my mate got to my house or phoned her and asked her to pick me up earlier so I wouldn't have had the chance to do it
name at least two things you will do to help yourself remember those coping methods if you end up in this situation again.
Remind myself how crap I felt the next day and how guilty I felt talking to my bf on the phone saying about how I am fine and everythings good...
how do you feel about the situation that led to self-harm now? is it resolved? if not, what are some steps you might take toward resolution?
There wasn't anything specific that set me off but I still feel urgy now but trying to distract myself as much as possible. Maybe I'll write it down or answer the Before questions too!
are you likely to be in that emotional place again? how will you recognize it when you're in that situation?
I still feel like I'm in it now so...! I'm hoping things will ease and I'll be able to distract myself long enough to tide me over before I go to sleep
what will you try before you resort to self-harm if you're in that situation again? list three specific things you will commit to trying.
Watch a DVD (already done this eve and it worked!)
Come on BUS and make myself think about why I let the urges take over (doing that now!)
Immerse myself in my work cos it makes me happy