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[black_23]

How will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?

It wont if anything it will make things worse, Im panicing about tom, can't sleep and need to write this out before I flip.

what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?

It will calm me down, gve me some grounded reason for feeling this way, rather than mad crzy feelings going through my head that don't feel real. Nothing seems to fit together, everythign is so up and down I cnt concentrate, don't have the energy. SI is all i got left right now.

how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?

I want to be calm, I think it will but I know I cant I mustnt

if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?

It will last momentarily I guess, is that long enough to justify it? Guess not...after that it will be bed and trying to hide yet again, and then come the arguments.

what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?

Hopefully Im planning on writing this out, getting some warm tea and going to bed...got inters tom so need to sleep. Don't think this will solve it tom especially if things go wrong.

how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?

Horrible if i do si, like i set myself back. Havent done it for just over 2weeks. At least if i don't i can still have some chance of keeping my b/friend

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?

I have 2 inter tom and meeting with an ex which Im dreading I collapsed at a club very drunk and have a horrible feeling he;s meeting to shout at me for being stupd. Work is crap. They all sound like stupid reasons on their own, but its just too much for me today....

Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?

I always seem to be here, debating seems such riduclous in light. Sleep seems to be the only way at the moment....

Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?

I know I need to give in, talk to someone about what going on just no one irl listens or either knows. So tired of being alone on this....

Do I need to hurt myself?

Need? I guess no....wanting however....just feel so stupid, sorry.

[balletomane]

I am really sorry things are so tough right now. I hope getting some sleep helps.

[black_23]

Thank-you Sleep got me through lst night...but feeling getting worse....sorry to be negative.....