I'll feel less un-focused...like my hearts not about to burst with all the pressure
what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It'll bring a kind of calm peace I guess...something better to focus on.
What will it take away...nothing other than the feeling of being pressed in on at all sides
how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
I want to be brave enough to face it and know that I made it through the stuff I sometimes think will crush me...not sure what cutting changes long term
if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
I'll be ok once I've slept until I next leave it this long without cutting...I've done so good...11days - but sometimes it doesnt feel worth that effort. I cried in front of people...I hate that.
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
my instead is being online...so as long as I try to keep busy...maybe till I'm falling asleep.
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
When I cut the next day I am ok...I live with it. It makes me think that I might need the self harm for a long time to come - which isn't nice really.
I'll be shattered if I dont sleep much...I've kina played that wild card one time too many recently.
what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
I want to cut. I don't know what I should do but I know what I want to do....
