I will feel better at least in the imediate.how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself?
it may snap me out of this depression a bitwhat will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
it will be something I have to hide from people and espessially my husband which I don't like.
I want to feel that. I'm not sure I'm not good with feelings right now.how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
Until the wound heals over fairly well. Or maybe only until tomorow. It's been a while so it's hard to predict how long the relief will last. It is a temporary fix, I understand that.if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
fill this outwhat is something i could do now instead of hurting myself?
start a new journal
read
but I'm having trouble concentrating so I need something that requires little concentration, reading is really no good. Sew some beanbags for the beanbag game for my son's party perhaps, or add another layer to his pinata.
Well working on things for his party would be good from a practical standpoint. Though the change in me and my mood are not likely to last much past the point where I am actively doing them.how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
Not sure, again having trouble with feelings right now- predicting them, naming them etchow will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
I want to be a completely different person. Well not a completely different person, a completely different version of myself.what do i really want to do right now?
I don't know.how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
I'm depressed, I'm hating myself, I want to feel something.Why do I feel I need to hurt myself?
Nothing in particular that I can tell. Just depressed.What has brought me to this point?
Yep.Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?
cut. didn't cut. burned, didn't. attempted suicide. Didn't. etc.
listened to music, showered, got out of the house, did fun stuff with my husband, washed dishes (yes that is actually a comforting activity for me ) read to my son, played with my kids, planted a small herb garden with my kids, visited with my SIL and BIL and our neighbors, tried to take a nap.What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?
I could sleep if it was quiet and if my kiddos were asleep.
numb, depressedHow do I feel right now?
betterHow will I feel when I am hurting myself?
feel, feel, feel. I haven't got a clue.How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning?
Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
no, yes. (then again I could probably deal with it worse too.)
not sure.Do I need to hurt myself?