Before... again

[falling...]

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point?


Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with it? How did I feel then?


What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me?


How do I feel right now?
Stressed, im panicing about exams and parents finding out stuff and drs appointments and teachers and everything

How will I feel when I am hurting myself?
Relieved, calm


How will I feel after hurting myself? How will I feel tomorrow morning? i will feel guilty for giving in to the urges, for failing, for letting my friend down, for not being able to cope and being needy, well for pretty much everything


Can I avoid this stressor, or deal with it better in the future?
I cant avoid it, but i have told people i cant cope and maybe going to see a therapist

Do I need to hurt myself?
I will try not to for now, and see how it goes, i really dont wanna, i dont wanna fail
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[plantt]

what else could you do to help relieve the stress?
sounds like there's a lot going on for you... can see why you'd feel stressed & panicked.
maybe find some other things to do for awhile... color. read. run. learn to stand on your head. blow bubbles. curl up with a favorite stuffed animal. watch cartoons. bake cookies.
there's a huge list of distraction ideas on the coping board that might be helpful for you
i think it's great that you might be going to see a therapist

[Wandering]

Hey hun

i will feel guilty for giving in to the urges, for failing, for letting my friend down

i really dont wanna, i dont wanna fail

Just because sometimes you end up giving into urge, it doesn't mean you're a failure. There are a lot of people out there who aren't even trying to stop - the fact that you are shows you're a fighter. Even if you can't fight off that urge forever, you have succeeded in winning for, well, however long since the last time you SI. If thats 2 days, and you normally only go 24hrs between episodes, then that's progress. No one stops completely the first time they try to quit - practically everyone will slip at some point.

Have you tried rewarding yourself for each small step? If you have an urge, and overcome it for 15 minutes, then maybe reward yourself somehow? Also, are there people you can call, and just talk to? Sometimes just talking to a friend makes things seem a little better.

Take care
Andi