It wont change the situation but i'll feel better if I SI I can turn the words into real pain which is less painful.
what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation?
It'll make the comments from my parents less painful, it'll make me feel in control and like I can actually control a part of my life.
how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way?
It'll get me further from feeling this way which is what I want
if hurting myself seems like my best option right now, how long will the relief it brings last? what will i do then?
It'll last until my mother speaks to me again
what is something i could do now instead of hurting myself? how will it change the situation i'm in? how long will that change last, and what will i do then?
Theres nothing else I can do other than wait for the urges to go. It'll make me feel better until the fights start again.
how will i feel tomorrow if i hurt myself? how will i feel tomorrow if i do the other thing i came up with?
Tomorrow i'll just be sore and probaly numb. If I sit it out i'll still feel horrible and the urges will be worse next time.
what do i really want to do right now? how can i best honor the self-protective instinct that has me wanting to self-injure right now?
What I really want to do right now is run away or SU or both anything to get me away from here.
