tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.
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I Tried To Be Perfect
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by I Tried To Be Perfect » Wed Jan 26, 2005 3:04 am
I hate this feeling. So empty, I knew I shouldn't have gotten close to someone. Let someone see who I was. See my scars. It opened me up so much and left me with so many scars when he left. He gave me faith that for once in my life I (of all people) was worth it. That I was too strong to keep giving up, but if I was so wonderful why did he leave? I'm so sorry to sound like one of those girls who just need to move on.
Love is not my friend, all right? I'm not cut out for it. I'm not soft enough or needy enough. Oh, I'm needy in a way that makes most men weary. The quickest way for me to lose someone is to actually tell me that I care about him.
I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it...
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by Spellcaster » Wed Jan 26, 2005 2:47 pm
hey hun
i just want you to know that you are soo not alone, and its perfectly ok for you to express how you feel. I went through the same thing about two years ago. I was soo depressed. On the bright side, i hae healed (maybe not completely, but enough) so that i am giving love another try.
I'm sorry that i don't have much advice. What i did to make me feel better was to just talk and talk and talk with one of my friends, and write in a journal, and most of all...cry.
I hope you feel better and realize that he's a jerk and you deserve someone who really loves you for who you are.
Love always,
Brianna
"What doesn't kill us, makes us stronger."
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by limestone » Fri Jan 28, 2005 11:45 am
hey,
I'm sorry you're hurting. It's hard when things don't go how you expect them to. Trusting another is difficult. But I was thinking about this part of your post:
I Tried To Be Perfect wrote:...He gave me faith that for once in my life I (of all people) was worth it. ...
and was wondering if perhaps one way might be to develop an inner faith of yourself so that you know that whatever happens, you're worth it. I reckon that might sound a bit silly and not what you're looking for, but I just thought that only from what you've written, it sounds as if your strength is coming from outwards. When it comes from outwards it's less in your control so you get hurt more easily. I hope one day you'll feel that you are worth it.
take care,
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by Spellcaster » Fri Jan 28, 2005 2:41 pm
Limestone,
i just wanted to say that was a great suggestion.
I was reading it over and over and then i realized that it applied to me as well!!!
I think i know what to do now, but i'm not sure how.
Can you help me? Teach me how to find the inner strength to love myself, and to be strong?!?
Thanks a bunch!
Love always,
Brianna
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