Envisioning SI in your mind...

Copasetic · Post by **Copasetic** » Tue Jan 11, 2005 1:38 pm

Does anyone else do this?

I am becoming seriously determined to finally end my SI problem, and I haven't had much urge so far... except that sometimes I can vividly picture myself self-injuring in my mind, and it's making things difficult.

This especially happens if I am intoxicated in any way (which I am fairly regularly).

Am I completely insane for having these visions, or is it a normal part of addiction and such?

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Tue Jan 11, 2005 2:43 pm

You're not alone. I do that too, and normally it makes me SI because i can imagine how it will feel. The only advice I can offer is to distract yourself if you start picturing it. Good luck with ending your SI problem.

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Tue Jan 11, 2005 2:46 pm

I don't know whether you're insane or not, but if you are then I am too! I can often get really vivid pictures in my head where I'm SHing and where I'm bleeding etc. It's weird. I was gonna post about it too, so thanks for bringing it up

The only thing I notice is that you said that it's difficult for you when you have the visions, and that it often happens when you're intoxicated. Hmm... maybe you could try cutting down how much time you spend intoxicated? I know for me anything that helps me not to SH is worth trying.

Priceless · Post by **Priceless** » Tue Jan 11, 2005 4:36 pm

Yore not alone i do that too, and it makes it damn hard not too.
I just wanted to say you are not alone.
take gentle care
xxxx

empty soul · Post by **empty soul** » Tue Jan 11, 2005 8:33 pm

hiya

i get that too, its like when i'm not doing it i'm constantly imagining i am which makes it difficult.

i hope you are ok, if you ever want to talk, PM me

kate xXx

Copasetic · Post by **Copasetic** » Wed Jan 12, 2005 9:39 pm

marylou wrote:The only thing I notice is that you said that it's difficult for you when you have the visions, and that it often happens when you're intoxicated. Hmm... maybe you could try cutting down how much time you spend intoxicated? I know for me anything that helps me not to SH is worth trying.

I'm actually trying to limit how often I drink or do drugs for that reason. It's just not good for me, and I know that.

I'm glad I'm not alone in this. It makes me feel better knowing that I'm not the only one who does this. Yay!

marylou · Post by **marylou** » Thu Jan 13, 2005 2:35 pm

That's really cool that you are trying to cut down. I worried you'd be annoyed and I didn't want to sound like my mum (argh!), but that's cool that you see that and are doing something about it. I know that when I've been drinking I tend to feel alot more self-destructive and stuff. So, yeah. Cool!

Wandering · Post by **Wandering** » Sun Jan 23, 2005 7:18 pm

Happens to me too. Problem is when I'm imagining doing it, it makes me really want to do it, which doesn't help with not cutting! No helpful suggestions other than what you're doing already - sorry!

magebaby · Post by **magebaby** » Sun Jan 23, 2005 7:36 pm

i get that too, and find it really difficult. the only thing i have found that helps me deal with very vivid mental images of SI is art. i paint what i would like to do to myself -- and that way i'm channelling what i would like to see into expressing myself. usually the effort of concentrating so much tires me out and then i can nap for a bit, which interrupts the urge. i may wake up a bit down, but at least not seriously triggered.

take care all,
mage

ShellyT · Post by **ShellyT** » Fri Jan 28, 2005 2:54 am

yeah. that happens to me a lot, and it brings me a lot closer to SI every time. I just remember how it feels, and it's so tempting

pink_flower · Post by **pink_flower** » Tue Feb 01, 2005 1:13 pm

yeah that happens to me aswell. Sometimes the images are quite graphic and can be a bit upsetting

but i usually manage to ignore them
xxx

say · Post by **say** » Tue Feb 08, 2005 3:43 pm

I have "visions", too.

I think I have the opposite reaction to them, though... Picturing SI, planning it, imagining every detail, actually sometimes alleviates the need for me to actually do it.

Alcohol definitely makes it more likely that I'll SI.

GLaDOS · Post by **GLaDOS** » Tue Feb 08, 2005 8:50 pm

I do it all the time...

Sometimes it helps, sometimes not... Thankfully I'm unable to carry out most of the things I imagine doing to myself.

save_me_from_myself · Post by **save_me_from_myself** » Thu Feb 10, 2005 7:31 pm

ur def not insane. i do it to, and it looks like in not the only one

RubyBlue · Post by **RubyBlue** » Sun Feb 20, 2005 1:12 am

Wow, I thought i was the only one who did that. I can see vivid images of harming myself, down to every detail. It usually just makes the urge stronger, but it's hard for me to move onto another thought because of my obsessive thoughts. it's like my mind is on repeat. The things I imagine are a lot more severe than i think i could ever do to myself.

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