Secrets Thread - Read first post!

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Welcome back to Version 3.0 of the Secrets Thread.

Inspired by postsecret.com, this is a place where everyone can come and post a secret.

GUIDELINES:

- Secrets can often be painful and negative. That is okay. But that doesn't mean this thread can be used as a loophole to get around BUS rules.

- No attacks on other members. If you have a beef with another member, take it up with them.

- No suicide notes, and nothing that is pro-suicide.

- Nothing that is pro-SI or pro-ED - we understand that everyone here is in different stages of recovery, but there are places on the board where you can work out / through those feelings.

- No manipulative comments that you intend someone else to find and have a reaction to.

- You cannot post that you ARE hurting yourself, WILL WITHOUT DOUBT hurt yourself or HAVE hurt yourself if you need and don't intend to get medical help. "Hurting yourself" includes SI, SU, OD's, destructive eating disorder behaviour like purging or starving, as well as putting yourself in dangerous situations like approaching/ contacting an abuser. This stuff is either against BUS rules or belongs in the B&A forum, or somewhere you can get constructive feedback like main or some of the more "analysis-y" coping threads.


Can say:

I want to hurt myself.
I feel like I don't deserve to eat.
I feel like being skinny will solve my problems.
I want to die.
I feel fat.
I hurt myself.
Suicide feels like a good option.
I am scared to get help.

Can't say:

I have a blade in my hand and I'm cutting now.
Tomorrow at uni I'm going to hurt myself.
I've taken an OD and don't want anyone to know.
My friend wants to die and I think it's a good idea for him.
I'm not eating anything today because I don't deserve it.
I want to know how to purge better.
I'm going to kill myself next week.
Life sucks, so long y'all.



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- As with anywhere else on the board, you must use spoilers if and when they are necessary.

WARNING

If this thread is not used constructively and continues to go against the spirit of the coping forum (as the old one did), it will be locked and it will stay that way.

Also, any person who continually uses this thread for unconstructive purposes (meaning, they violate the guidelines set above continually), will risk having their posting priveliges in this revoked.

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[stripysocks4christ]

i feel guilty, but i also feel like i need to keep things together for everyone else....

[Beasty]

I don't actually need the help. At least, I hope not.

[breathing]

I am ashamed of everything that I am. I wish that I could truly escape myself for a short while, and come back and find myself 'happy'.

[BigJetPlane]

i lie far too much

[Eisa]

I feel like I'm a step away from falling apart. Completely. And I don't know if I can pick up the pieces if I do.

[stripysocks4christ]

i cant believe i just did that!! im scared now....

[Eisa]

I feel like I'm unimaginably disgusting right now, and I can't believe I did that...omg eisa what is wrong with you????

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

I feel so guilty & ashamed at the way I feel. There are bigger problems in the world, there are people with much worse problems then mine. I don't feel I deserve to feel anything. I should be happy but I just can't.

[breathing]

You are a terrible employee. I couldn't even blame the district if you got fired, even though I'd be pissed... but you ruin kids' self esteem all of the fucking time. If I had told you that a school employee said the same shit that you say to kids ALL of the time, you would report them. If I had a lesser soul, I would report you, myself - or perhaps I don't report you because of my own selfishness.

[Chaocontrol6]

I love my parents to bits, but I really hope they come round sooner or later with my "Being Gay" stuff. I'm sick to death of having to tip toe on eggshells. I just want to be 100% accepted again.

[mephistopheles]

I'm happy with my sexuality.
I'm not happy with your world.

[Eisa]

I'm not nearly as put together as I pretend to be.

[SplinteredGirl]

when you said i was doing so much better, allthough true, i didnt tell you i resorted to SI earlier this week. its easier for me that way.. You love me and i love you but hurting you hurts me even more then you can imagine. sorry

[breathing]

I know I'm shutting myself off from the world and I know it's bad but I can't seem to stop this cycle.

[Stawberry_Lollipops]

She is lying to me. I know deep down she is. But I won't say anything. I'll just keep on pretending that she's not. I'll keep letting myself get hurt. I'm not stronger enough to turn my back on her.

[Snow Belle1986]

If you had asked me to leave with you I would have.

I wish I wasn't there with G cuz maybe that's why you didn't ask.

[Forget Me]

With my history of depression, every time I get PMS I'm terrified it's all coming back... only to have it all go away after a week or so. I had hoped the emotional rollercoaster would go away when I recovered, and I feel like my body is betraying me every month.

Another part of me somehow misses the pain... I wish I understood myself.

[elizabethpoe31]

I don't know if I can handle college. I can't let everyone down. If everything doesn't work out, I'm terrified of what everyone will think.

[strider 151]

i dont have nightmeres about you anymore