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arg! triggers and urges *SI* *LA*

Post by Artemisia » Wed Aug 12, 2009 12:10 pm

Been trying to avoid SI-ing but the urges are getting uber powerful. ARRRRRRRRRGGGGG!!!! and now i've just seen a mate of mine, also a friend of my ex's, and she's got plasters on her fingers from punching a wall. Concerned for her :( also more desperate than before seeing how good it looks.... itchy itchy itch. FUCK. this is difficult. don't want to be constructive, don't want to be well-behaved, fed up of doing the right thing.ARGGGG. and i've semi-left therapy...not syure what's happening. sob. :cry:
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Post by badgirl22 » Thu Aug 13, 2009 12:56 am

wow that sounds hard. I am sort of in the same place. Really wanting not to do the right thing and just give in to urges. I dono what to say except don't give up on therapy. It might help you.
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Post by Artemisia » Thu Aug 13, 2009 8:16 am

moo :( thanks love, probably gonna try sort something out...itch itch itch. so on the verge right now... :bad-words: hope you feel better too :1hug:
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Post by LoverlyLaurie » Thu Aug 13, 2009 3:44 pm

hi art, don't really know what to say right now as i am struggling too...but i can give hugs. :)

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Post by Artemisia » Fri Aug 14, 2009 8:47 am

:) thanks love, hugs to you too :1hug:
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Post by Spidey » Sat Aug 15, 2009 1:35 am

Can you chain the events that have occurred that are triggering - from "semi"-leaving therapy until now? Can you notice a pattern?
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Post by Artemisia » Sat Aug 15, 2009 9:44 am

hmmm. good question... i think the first thing was a stuipd convo with my bf which upset me, but didn't want him to feel guilty about being honest, and don't want him to feel that every convo will set me off so bottled stuff up. then left therapy because so frustrated at not being able to speak at an emotional level; can talk about anything intellectual but never feel what i'm saying, i'm too scared so i thought it'd be best to not waste his time or mine and go to therapy later in life. but going back now, have a different approach. arg. (grrr) then felt sorta lonely, felt like no one cared, and well, SI gets that response without me having to ask cos i'm too embarassed. :oops: hmmm, this is a good exercise... maybe i should just ask someone to care/chat... *considers the awkwardness and cringes* thanks Prophet for useful technique, will try this more often :) thanks everyone for listening and support :1hug:
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Post by secretpain » Mon Aug 17, 2009 10:19 pm

i hope things work out be safe :1hug:
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Post by Artemisia » Tue Aug 18, 2009 10:31 am

thankee :1love:

off to gym to burn the crap outta this urgy feeling. i've decided; if i still feel urgy afterwards, i'm not gonna bother arguing with my head anymore. i suck. sob.
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Post by Roxi » Tue Sep 01, 2009 7:36 pm

off to gym to burn the crap outta this urgy feeling.
Did gym help ? I find it's a really effective way to channel energy and emotions and endoprhins never did anyone any harm :)
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Post by Artemisia » Thu Sep 03, 2009 11:06 am

hmmm...i can't remember - i think it did at least for that day, but i think i ended up SIing a couple days later anyway cos stuff happened, but certainly for that time it did...
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