I can not believe that I got through the night without doing any SH,it was not easy,but being on the bus is helping me alot,and I need to add things to my coping box and I am working on that,even though I am having a hard time. My anxiety level is still high and the thought of doing SH,is there,the urge is hard to deal with sometimes. I want to thank everyone there who has been very supportive to me,and I will continue to write on the bus web board. I am still having problems of finding pictures to color,like Hello Kitty,cats,butterflies and dolphins,if anyone knows of a good website,please let me know. It has been real hard for me and I am get soo tired of it,but I am trying to be strong.It is hard when my parents do not understands my illness,my boy-friend is trying to help,but I know that he gets frustrated,cause he does not know what to do to help me,and that makes me feel bad inside,cause I know that it is hard for him as well.There are times that I have to take it one minute at a time and other days are better then other.I get so angry with myself,cause I am trying so hard and I just want the anxiety to go away and the urge to do SH,but I know that it takes times. I just wanted to let you know that I got through the night,and I am proud of myself for that.It is so hard for me.You are weclome to Pm if you like,or write on the bus.Hanging in there
I am giving myself a Doing the best I can.
Got through the night
Got through the night
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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well done Candy! a night without SI can be incredibly hard, expecially if you're going through a hard time which you seem to be at the moment. I'm sorry you're feeling bad but I hope you realise what a great achievement that was. It takes real strength.
ditto...((((((((((have one if you want!))))))))))I hope it's not out of line to give you a hug
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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- Anna James (1984-2007)
son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...
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