last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by Glockenspiel » Mon Oct 29, 2007 5:08 pm

I realized the urge would pass, and that even if the urges came again, they'd pass too.

So :tongue: to my urges.
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Post by kendra » Tue Oct 30, 2007 4:53 am

I filled out the before/after
I was too tired
I have a doc appointment and don't want fresh wounds
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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Tue Oct 30, 2007 1:05 pm

I finally realised that I have one friend who really does care, knowing that he was there was enough to stop me.
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Post by Roxi » Tue Oct 30, 2007 5:35 pm

I want to get better :)
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Post by southsider » Tue Oct 30, 2007 6:03 pm

I don't want to give up after so much time going without.
I don't want to explain the wounds to the kids I babysit.
I'm stronger than I think.
I promised someone I wouldn't.
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Post by bellamuerte » Tue Oct 30, 2007 8:29 pm

...i don't want the guy i'm obsessed with to see...but he barely knows i exist so lets see how long that one will hold me...
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Post by Roxi » Tue Oct 30, 2007 9:16 pm

was rather tired and am determined not to hurt myself today!
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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Thu Nov 01, 2007 11:01 pm

I didn't want to use up one of my 5 days I've limited myself to on my first day, wasn't that desperate either thank goodness :)
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Post by Chaocontrol6 » Sun Nov 04, 2007 11:00 am

Although I was having a shit time with my parents, I'm having too much of a good time with my friends to SI :)
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Post by Li'lRuby » Sun Nov 04, 2007 5:34 pm

I gave my tools away.
Last night I prayed and God gave me strength to not hunt down another knife or call my T out of bed for my tools.
The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by pelagic » Mon Nov 05, 2007 4:35 am

Last time I wanted to SI, I didn't, because I knew when I had a big shiny 1 Week SI-Free badge the next day, it'd be all worth it. :) (Sorry, really tired, not sure if my grammer is well)
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Post by one out of none » Mon Nov 05, 2007 9:16 pm

I don't want to break the contract I made with my T. Or disappoint the people that I've made the promise not to si to.
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Post by kittyfever » Wed Nov 07, 2007 7:11 am

I took a nap
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Post by missmollie » Wed Nov 07, 2007 7:16 am

I took a bath.
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Post by pelagic » Wed Nov 07, 2007 7:58 am

I made vegetable soup :)
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Post by southsider » Wed Nov 07, 2007 8:59 am

I took the dog for a walk.

I talked it out with my roommate.
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Post by poisontongue » Fri Nov 09, 2007 5:08 am

I can't find it, I can't find it!!!

Now I need it more than ever, and it's gone still! My knife, I've torn up my whole room and it's as good as gone. I need it today, now.
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Post by Rae Rae Badfingers » Fri Nov 09, 2007 9:32 pm

I took a nice long walk in the rain.
<center>See you dance away
all this bitter pain
See you move in ways
beyond our days
In devotion I linger
And with drained veins
I falter again


Some deranged and some devour to haunt me down in my darkest hour</center>
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Post by pelagic » Sat Nov 10, 2007 6:32 am

I took in a deep breath, half closed my eyes, looked away from the triggering book cover and picked up a new Anne Rice novel, which I shall start reading tonight :)
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Post by southsider » Sat Nov 10, 2007 6:56 am

because i knew doing so would make the urges worse.
because i knew i'd do serious damage, and I didn't want to have to go to the ER.
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