last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......
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because holy shit i've got 1,000 days clean.
because i'm trying to get away from punishing myself that way.
because i don't want to deal with the wounds afterwards.
edited to add the stupidest reason ever:
because it'll look nice to have three silver "one year" medals in my sig here, come december.
because i'm trying to get away from punishing myself that way.
because i don't want to deal with the wounds afterwards.
edited to add the stupidest reason ever:
because it'll look nice to have three silver "one year" medals in my sig here, come december.
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I couldn't face the mess
(it sounds daft but sometimes thinking of something like that makes a difference...maybe I do feel like SIing but do I really want to clean up the bloodstains afterwards? what the hell, it stopped me!)
(it sounds daft but sometimes thinking of something like that makes a difference...maybe I do feel like SIing but do I really want to clean up the bloodstains afterwards? what the hell, it stopped me!)
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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I didn't want to disappoint her. I don't want to see the look on her face when she finds out that I'm breaking like china
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Because he asked me not to.
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http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=110034
I went to the family and friends section and read how hurt and confused people are as they're trying to understand why someone they love would hurt themselves.
However, I tried it again today and it made me feel even worse about myself for being a person who can hurt someone.
However, I tried it again today and it made me feel even worse about myself for being a person who can hurt someone.
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there was no where left on my arms.
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I phoned my friend, am also terrified of feeling guilty and having to tell my mom and see the look on her face....dont want to cause more scaring than i already have- my arms look shocking!
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