Candys Coping Thread
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night sleep,and I am getting ready for program,after I get out I have to go to the dentist,fun wow,but I will get through it. I am doing ok,not awake yet. When I get home I am going to take a nap,and push myself to write in my journal. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am hanging in there. I am feeling pretty so far. I will be back on the bus later on
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Re: Candy's Coping Thread
Good for you Candy that you're doing okay. I hope you'll be doing fine today.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great day at program,the groups went well. Then I went to the dentist,had to have two cavities filled,not so great,my mouth is so numb,glad that is over.I am going to go lay down for awhile,tired out,my mouth is sore. I am doing alright and I am hanging in there.Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me,it made me feel better.My boy-friend will be over later on. I am going to take care of myself. I will be back on later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great nap,and I feel alot better now. My mouth feels alot better,since I woke up. My boy-friend came over and we went to Walmart and now we are going to watch t.v. I wrote in my journal and that helped me alot. I am glad that I did write. I have day treatment program tomorrow, and I am looking forward to going. I did not do any SI today,that is so great!!!!!!!! I feel pretty good today,and I feel calm as well. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. After my boy-friend leaves I will be going to bed,cause I have to get up early. I am taking care of myself. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night sleep,and no SI either. I am getting ready for day treatment program,and I will also see my therapist as well. I am doing alright,and I feel pretty good too. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am hanging in there. I will be back on later on
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great day at program today,and I also had a great talk with my therapist. When I got home I took a nap,cause I was tired out. My boy-friend is coming over in a little while and I not sure what we are doing. I am watching t.v.,and keeping myself busy till he gets here. I have not done any SI so far,that is great!!!!. I am going out for lunch with a friend tomorrow,and that will be nice. I am doing alright and I am feeling pretty good. The thoughts of doine SI are still there,but I keep fighting them and trying to keep my mind focus on the here and now,I have problems with that as well. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.If I do not come back on later on,it means I went out with my boy-friend and it will be late when I get home. I will be alright and taking care of myself. Be back on later on.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night with my boy-friend,he just left to go home and get some sleep. I will be going to bed real soon as well. We went out for awhile to do some shopping and then we came back here. I am doing pretty good and I am feeling alright. I had a great day today,even though the thoughts of SI are there,and they can bother me sometime,I fight very hard not to do any form of SI. I will be alright. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am going to watch t.v.,for awhile and go to bed. I will be back on the bus tomorrow.hanging in there
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a rough time last night cause, I slip with SI last night,and I am not feeling good about myself right now. I feel like Shit for what happen,it happen when I was in my bedroom,I was doing so good and now I feel like a faliure,I know that I should not say though things about myself,but it is how I feel inside. I am trying to keep myself busy and trying not to think about it. I am reading and coloring by numbers,my boy-friend is very understanding and supportive, I love him for it.I feel so sad inside 
. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be fine,just feel guilty inside.I hate myself and this behavior so much. I will be back on later.
. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be fine,just feel guilty inside.I hate myself and this behavior so much. I will be back on later. I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I kept myself busy today,even though I am not feeling great about what happen last night. I went out for lunch with a friend,and of course my boy-friend is here with me,cause he knows that I had a rough night last night. I have been coloring by numbers,reading,did not write in my journal today,but I will tomorrow. I have been keeping myself busy by doing other positive things which is helping me alot. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be alright,even though I am not happy with myself for what happen. I will be back on sometime later
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Hi Candy, I hope things start getting better for you soon. Try not to feel too bad for what happened, you've been doing really good with the si recently and a slip doesn't take that achievement away from you. You are not a failure. I'm glad that you have such a supportive boyfriend, that always makes a situation easier, when there is someone who you can rely on if needs be.
Take care of yourself, and remember that this time will pass.
Take care of yourself, and remember that this time will pass.
Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages,it made me feel better. I know that I should not feel like a faliure,but I thought that I had that part of the SI behavior stopped for good. I need to pick myself up and try again. My boy-friend and I are going out for awhile,we have some stores to go to and then we are going to visit some friends,not sure when I will be home.I will be back on the bus if it is not to late,or I can not sleep. I will be alright and I will take care of myself. If I do not get back on tonight,I will get back on tomorrow after I do laundry. Again thanks for the nice messages. I will be fine. Be back on later. taking care of myself
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night so far,I feel somewhat better than I did earlier today. My boy-friend and I went out to visit some friends and we just got back home. He is getting ready to leave to go home and get some sleep. I will be going to bed real soon. I did some positive things today,even though I did not get to my journal,there is always tomorrow to do so. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be alright,still not feeling that great about what happen,but I will be alright. If I find that I can not sleep,I will be back on,if not I will be back tomorrow sometime. hanging in there and taking care of myself.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I had a great night sleep and no SI at all. Then I went to my mother's to do laundry and boy she was very verbally abusive to me,this is all getting to me,so when I got home I wrote in my journal instead to get my feelings out that were bothering me. It is not my weekend at all. I am doing alright,and I am going to take care of myself today,and later on be with my my boy-friend. I have alot of positive things to do here to keep my mind focus on other stuff,just had enough of it all,but I will be alright. I am gong to go lay down for awhile and do some coloring later on. I am going to take care of myself. I will be back on later
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Hi Candy, I'm sorry that your mother was verbally abusive to you, you do not deserve that. Writing a journal is a great way to vent feelings though, I do that as well, and I find things can seem a bit clearer after writing everything down that's bothering me. I know that things can be really hard, but they can also be good, though I know it's hard to remember that sometimes. I hope the rest of your day goes ok.
Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages,it made me feel better. I have not really talked to my mother that much today,after want happen,cause I was soo hurt by what she said to me. I took a nap,cause I was not feeling good,due to my period. My boy-friend will be over later on. I am doing alright,and I will be alright. I am hanging in there.I am going to watch t.v.,and maybe do some coloring,that will keep my mind busy.I am taking care of myself right now. Thanks again. I will be back on later
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing alright. My boy-friend and I went out for awhile and we are going to stay here tonight and watch some movies we rented. I do not feel like going out and visiting anyone,cause I have cramps and I am worn out. I did not do any SI today,so far,so good. I am watching t.v.,and then I am going to go lay down for awhile and take it easy. I hope my mother is in a better mood tomorrow,I do not deserve to be treated like that at all. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I did alot of positive things today, I wrote in my journal,colored and took a nap,which I really needed earlier,so I am proud of what I did do today.I am going to enjoy the rest of the night,and get a good night sleep also. I will be back on the bus sometime tomorrow
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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Candy's Coping Thread
Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me. I had a great night sleep,no SI either. I went to my mother's this morning,to drop off my car so my dad can work on it,my mother seem alot,what hurts is she never says she is sorry for the way she treats me,that hurts alot. I am doing alright otherwise,I am going to watch t.v.,for awhile and then do some coloring,and keep myself busy today,by doing positive things for myself. The cramps are not that bad,just tired out. I am doing alright and I will take care of myself. I will be back on the bus later
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am doing pretty good so far. My mother is being alright to me. My boy-friend is coming over around 4pm and he is bring me dinner. I have been coloring most of the day,and I am finding out that it helps to keep my mind focus on what I am doing,and it is not wandering where I am thinking negative thoughts, I am just focusing on what I am doing. I am feeling better,and I am watching t.v., right now. I have not done any SI so far,that is great. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be fine. I will be back on the bus later.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
Candy's Coping Thread
I am having a good night so far,my boy-friend and I are watching movies and taking it easy. I did not write in my journal today,but I will tomorrow,I did alot of other positive things also. I am feeling pretty good. I have day treatment program tomorrow,and I am looking forward to it. After my boy-friend leaves, I will be going to bed,cause I have to get up early. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am taking care of myself and enjoying my night. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening.
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
To find yourself,think of yourself first.
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