Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by mephistopheles » Thu Mar 23, 2006 9:43 pm

Stop calling me a whore. I know you're joking but really, I know it's true. So please stop saying it.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”
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Post by kittyinthemiddle » Fri Mar 24, 2006 11:33 pm

i want him to stop telling me off for all my faults but at the same time i know it's all true. I hate him for hating me, but how can I feel that way when I hate myself too?
*nothing in this life for me, tonight
but nothing ever seemed so bright*
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Post by shadowavenger » Sat Mar 25, 2006 7:28 pm

I'm terrified I'm falling again, but I won't admit it to myself because they'll just tell me to go back into therapy, although I don't want to and it isn't helpful.
Another lonely highway in the black of night
There's hope in the darkness, you know you're going to make it

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Post by flipflopfetish » Sat Mar 25, 2006 10:12 pm

i don't think people take me seriously. i guess it's my fault because i don't tell people things, but it still makes me sad.

i feel like such a loser saying that
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Post by ioa » Sun Mar 26, 2006 3:34 am

Everyone thinks I am very funny.
It's gotten to the point where people don't take anything I say seriously anymore, because I am always joking.

The truth is - humor is my method of pushing people away from me.
I don't think I've really connected with someone in years.
I'm so alone it makes me sick...

And here I am - your clown.
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Post by maenad » Sun Mar 26, 2006 12:04 pm

I hate her. I can't help it and I don't think I should have to try. And I resent people who deny how selfish and wrapped up in her horrible talentless self she is.

And I hate myself for feeling like this.
I can kill you with my brain...
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Post by frances » Sun Mar 26, 2006 5:11 pm

*Sometimes I think I've made up my ex-boyfriend, or at least convinced myself that I was more important to him than I really was....



*I think I'm attracted to girls, but I don't have a clue how to go about it because I've spent so long validating myself with men
everything i do is judged
and they mostly get it wrong
but oh well
- Joyful Girl, Ani Difranco

*I don't want to die without scars* Fight Club

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Post by falling... » Sun Mar 26, 2006 7:56 pm

comments welcome- PM

SA








he wont stop touching me
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Post by _MessedUp_ » Sun Mar 26, 2006 11:07 pm

:star: I'm addicted to SI

:star: I use my pst to excuse the bad things i do in my present
:star: "Life is like a beautiful melody only the lyrics are messed up" :star:
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Post by Greta_Chan » Mon Mar 27, 2006 4:14 am

*Comments welcomed-PM*

-Everyone thinks my DID is gone, but I know better. The others still bother me and take me over, but I never tell a soul just because it isn't as bad as it used to be and I don't want the stigma of having DID.

-I get nauseous when I see heterosexual love scenes in movies or anywhere else.

-I cut tonight just because I found a sterilized tool.

-My parents know I was sexually abused, but they don't know that I was raped.
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- Excerpt from V's introduction speech to Evey when they first meet in the movie, V for Vendetta.

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Post by namaste » Mon Mar 27, 2006 6:59 pm

Comments ok - PM

* I hate myself. Completely.
*I suspect I may be a lesbian but I dont' want to be and I dont' want to know
*I want to harm the girl who has my job - I'm really jealous of her
*I'm scared
*I wish I had killed myself
Every time I close the door on reality
it comes in through the windows

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comment ok - PM

Post by kittyinthemiddle » Tue Mar 28, 2006 7:15 am

SA







no one knows what he did. they called me a slut behind my back and he's a hero.
now i'm not sure myself.
*nothing in this life for me, tonight
but nothing ever seemed so bright*
– badly drawn boy -
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Post by Aly » Fri Mar 31, 2006 10:14 pm

Even though Im not SU - I still need those pills - just in case it gets too much...and I panic when Mummy puts them away....

I have a panic attack when my door is left open, even if it's only for 5 minutes...

I cant seem to stop lying to people irl...


Im not going to tell anyone about it this time...
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.

If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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Post by Peege » Sat Apr 01, 2006 2:07 am

*PMs ok*

i od almost every night. not a lot, just enough to make me dopey enough to get to sleep. i love the fact that its messing with my body. it's getting to the point where i dont think i could stop if i wanted to. and i dont want to.

And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold

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Post by lyakuku » Sat Apr 01, 2006 2:50 am

- i'm afraid of the dark
- i'm terrified of being left alone... i'm really clingy
- i have this huge crush on my guy friend
so i SI.. shh. it's socially unacceptable that i express pain.

So that is it.
I'm shutting my doors & putting my walls back up.
I'm closing my curtains & removing the welcome mat.
I'm blocking everything out again, because it's so much easier than feeling something
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Post by kittyinthemiddle » Sun Apr 02, 2006 1:22 pm

i had a dream about us the other night. i know i shouldn't have and i shouldn't have even thought about us, but i did.
*nothing in this life for me, tonight
but nothing ever seemed so bright*
– badly drawn boy -
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Post by wish » Sun Apr 02, 2006 1:47 pm

i want to run a million miles from everything im supposed to love
i hate myself a bit more each day
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Post by shadowavenger » Sun Apr 02, 2006 6:55 pm

My friends think I've stopped SI. They don't know about hitting myself or purging or restricting my eating.

Sometimes I think I deserve everything my mum did to me. She's a saint and I am a horrible worthless person. Sometimes I hate her and then I feel guilty, so I can't win.
Another lonely highway in the black of night
There's hope in the darkness, you know you're going to make it

"This must be Thursday. I could never get the hang of Thursdays." - Arthur Dent

"You're just wearing on the outside what the rest of us wear on the inside." - Sean McNamara, Nip/Tuck
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Post by xanemicroyaltyx » Sun Apr 02, 2006 11:56 pm

i'm in love.
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Post by Aly » Mon Apr 03, 2006 11:41 am

I still love TIm, even though Im now with Ollie - Im only going out with him in the hopes that either a) I will get over TIm or b) Tim will get jealous and want me back....

I have to be the worst girlfriend ever. I still flirt with everyone, and have ultra dirty conversations about what I would do to people....

I dont want to hurt Ollie, Im obviously going to though :(
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.

If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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