Candys Coping Thread

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Post by Candy » Fri Jul 13, 2007 5:08 pm

I had a great night sleep. I went to see my doctor and everything is alright,then I came home and I am doing some cleaning around the apartment.My case-manager will be over around 3pm,and my boy-friend will be over later on. I am doing alright,and I am feeling pretty good. I did not do any SI last night,proud of myself for that.I am having a good day so far. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I am enjoying my day off. I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by Candy » Fri Jul 13, 2007 10:44 pm

I took a nap for awhile,cause I was soo tired.My case-manager never showed up,so I do not know what happen to him,he did not even call me. Then I had a t.v. dinner to eat and I did dishes,then I wrote in my journal which helped me alot. I am watching t.v. and taking it easy,till my boy-friend gets here.I feel pretty good today,just lonely,cause I have been trying call my friends,but there is no answer,and they have not called me either,so I hope everything is going alright and they are not mad at me,but they could be busy,so I am not going to worry about it. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.Otherwise I feel pretty good. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I am going to watch t.v.,till he gets here. I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by one out of none » Sat Jul 14, 2007 12:19 pm

Hi Candy, that's unusual that your case manager didn't arrive, hopefully it has been sorted out. It's hard when you feel a bit lonely, but at least you have your boyfriend to help with it a bit. I'm sure your friends aren't mad at you, it probably is just busyness. I'm glad you're feeling good and I hope you have a good day.

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Post by Candy » Sat Jul 14, 2007 7:15 pm

I had a great night last night,my boy-friend and I just watch t.v.and relax. I did my laundry this morning and when I came home,I took a long nap and had a earlier dinner,that my mother made for me. I am watching t.v.,and taking it easy. I did not do any SI last night and I am proud of myself for that.I have no ideal why my case-manager did not show up,but I will find out this coming Monday,I was not happy about that.You are probably right about my friends,and I am going to enjoy myself. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me.My boy-friend will be over later on.I am going to watch t.v.,and enjoy the day. I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by Candy » Sat Jul 14, 2007 10:46 pm

I had a great dinner,then I took a long nap,I was so tired out today. I did not write in my journal today,cause I was sooo tired. My boy-friend is here and we are going out later on,around 8:30pm,and we will not be home till after 12midnight. I am doing alright. I have not done any SI today and that is a great thing. We are going out to visit some friends tonight. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. We are going to watch t.v.,till we leave.If I do not come back on later on,I will be back on tomorrow.I am feeling pretty good,it is just a raining day,and that is why I am so tired. I am taking care of myself. be back soon :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by Candy » Sun Jul 15, 2007 5:28 am

I had a great night with my boy-friend,we did not stay long at our friends apartment,cause we were getting tired. My boy-friend just left to get some sleep,and I am watching t.v.,for awhile and then I am going to go to bed,I am getting tired. I am doing alright,no SI tonight and I feel great about that.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I will be back on the bus tomorrow. :bcatsmile:
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Post by one out of none » Sun Jul 15, 2007 12:44 pm

Hey Candy, well done for not si-ing, you're doing really well. I hope you had a good nights sleep.

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Post by Candy » Sun Jul 15, 2007 4:05 pm

I had a great night sleep,then I went over to my mother's house to pick up my laundry,and then I came home and wrote in my journal. I was asked from the Mental Health Ass.,in my area to write a article on anything that I wanted,cause I use to write for the Mental Health World.,so I decided to write a article about the day treatment program that I go to. I just could not write any names or the names of the group. It turned out pretty good. My problem that I am having is that I feel good when I do something positive,but I really never feel the good feeling. It really bothers me and I get so angry with myself for it. I do not know if it a system of my illness or what. I hate feeling like this. I have trouble expressing feelings or the positive ones never stay with me.Am I the only one with this problem Anyone can PM or post it here. I feel so numb when that happens. I did not do any SI last night,and that is great.Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me. Any suggestions plese let me know. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I feel numb,and frustrated. I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
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Post by Candy » Sun Jul 15, 2007 8:29 pm

I am doing alright so far. I took a nap,cause I was tired out.Then I did some cleaning and I am waiting for my boy-friend to come over,we are going out for dinner. I am watching t.v.and relaxing.I feel pretty good,just not awake yet. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. The rest of the day I am going to relax and take it easy.I go back to day treatment program tomorrow. I am going to relax and wait till my boy-friend gets here.I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by Chis » Sun Jul 15, 2007 11:24 pm

Just thought I'd step by and say you're doing a great job Candy! Keep going with the good work!

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Post by Candy » Mon Jul 16, 2007 12:04 am

Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me. My boy-friend and I went out for dinner,and we had a great time. We are sitting here watching t.v.,and taking it easy. As I mention before I wrote in my journal and did other things.I am feeling pretty good tonight. The day treatment program that I am going to,is having a picnic tuesday down at Wide Water park,so I am looking forward to that,so my boy-friend and I will be going,I just do not want it to rain that day. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I am hanging in there. Be back later :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Mon Jul 16, 2007 4:24 am

I had a great evening with my boy-friend,we just watch t.v.,and relax. He just left to go home to get some sleep. I will be going to bed real soon.I am doing alright,just feel tired. I did not do any SI today,that is great. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I had a better day today,cause I was able to get things done that I wanted to get done,and that made me feel good inside. I have day treatment program tomorrow,so I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening.It was a peaceful day for me,and I had no anxiety at all which helped me alot. I will be going to bed soon. Be back on tomorrow.taking care of myself :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Mon Jul 16, 2007 1:25 pm

I just want to say Hi to everyone, :wavey: before I leave to go to program. I did not do any SI last night.which I was proud of myself for. I am going to have a great day today.I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
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Post by one out of none » Mon Jul 16, 2007 7:23 pm

:wavey:
Good for you for not si-ing! Hope program went well for you, did you have your picnic today?

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Post by Candy » Mon Jul 16, 2007 8:28 pm

:wavey: I had a great day at program and I enjoy myself.Thanks for the nice messages that you sent me.We are having our picnic tomorrow,and I am looking forward to it,and so is my boy-friend. He is sleeping over tonight,hopefully. I just hope it does not rain,so we can enjoy ourselves tomorow. I am going to lay down for awhile and take it easy.I am feeling pretty good. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Tue Jul 17, 2007 4:36 am

I am doing pretty good tonight.My boy-friend and I are watching t.v.,and he is sleeping over.The picnic is tomorrow for our day treatment program,and we are both looking forward to it. I did not do any SI tonight and that is great.When I get home tomorrow,my nurse is coming over to do my medication,instead of the morning,cause I will not be here.I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am going to enjoy myself tomorrow. I will be going to bed real soon. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening.taking care of myself :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

To find yourself,think of yourself first.

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Post by Candy » Wed Jul 18, 2007 5:17 am

I am soo glad to hear that you have posted,I have missed seeing you on the bus. I am doing alright,my boy-friend and I went to visit some friends tonight.We are doing alright. I am hanging in there. My doctor gave me a new diagnosis,called it Personality Disorder NOS,and put me on a new medication called Clompiramine,something like that,I am not sure of the spelling.I still have my slips with SI and it is hard for me alot of times. I have not moved in to my new apartment yet,cause they have not finished remodeling them,but I will always be on the bus,let everyone know when I am going to be moving. I am always here for you,and you can PM me anytime you want. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.My boy-friend left I will be going to bed real soon. I will be back on the bus tomorrow evening sometime. Hanging in there :bcatsmile:
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Post by Candy » Thu Jul 19, 2007 2:11 am

I had a great day today. I went to program and the groups went great.Then I came home and took a nap,cause I was tired.Then my boy-friend came over and we watched t.v.I have not written in my journal for awhile,about a week,and I know that I need to do so,I just have to push myself more.We are watching t.v.,and relaxing. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing.I was on the computer last night,cause I started to feel myself dissocated,not sure if I spell that word right.I kept myself busy till the feelings pass and then I went to bed. I did not do any SI at all,that is great.I have program tomorrow,and I am looking forward to that. I am hanging in there and doing the best I can. I will be back on the bus later on. :bcatsmile:
I am in a dark place like a turtle afraid to deal with the pain that I do not want to feel,but eventually I will slowly face my pain,like the turtle when he comes out of his shell.

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Post by one out of none » Thu Jul 19, 2007 3:28 pm

Hi Candy, you're doing great with not si-ing. As regards the disassociation (sp?) computers can often make it worse so that was a really good idea to keep yourself busy. I hope you had a good day today.

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