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Post by PaperDoll » Tue Jul 27, 2004 6:18 pm

I. Hate. You.

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Post by mallie » Wed Jul 28, 2004 4:48 pm

J, i miss you. Part of me hates you, and i really want to hate you, but i can't. How much i miss you overrides that. Nothing has been right in my life since things weren't right with you.

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Post by Guest » Fri Jul 30, 2004 4:12 pm

Bitchy and pointless, deleted.
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Post by Strange_And_Beautiful » Tue Aug 03, 2004 9:48 pm

Tara Sheehan--Me and Ashley miss you so much. It does't feel like you passed away. If I could have one wish, I'd wish you'd come back and finish your senior year. You were so young, dying at 16 years old. I hope you are happier in heaven with Stephanie.
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Post by nirvana » Tue Aug 03, 2004 9:52 pm

bill: no i wasn't 'fine'. and i'm not. don't comment on them, you know i'm self conscious. don't make the jokes, nothing. give me a break until i get the shit at school. fucker, it hurts don't you realize that? if it didn't hurt, why would i have showed you the word slut? the one i CUT INTO MYSELF?

ben: fuck all this. i shouldn't be talking to you. leave me alone, i hate myself.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Wed Aug 04, 2004 3:20 am

[size=0]I feel like another self-obessed teenager, and I'm scared to let myself get close to you. You've never seen me besides a few pictures, and you don't know that I'm stupid, a liar and a bitch and not at all beautiful, but I love pretending I am with you, because sometimes you say things that are just like magic, and I think I'm falling for the image that you project on the lit up screen on my desk. I'm scared that you'll see who I really am. I'm scared you won't like me. Because I think I've already fallen for you quite a bit and I don't ever want you to know this because I might never meet you or talk to you and you're a long way away.
I hate it that you make me feel like I could be a good person, or that I've put up with something because a truth in the world I live in is that I'm not a good person. At all. I wish.
I wish a lot of things.
But I might give my soul to have to by my side, and to fall asleep with you beside me.

Yeah. I'm a loser like that.[/size]
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
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Post by Calluna vulgaris » Wed Aug 04, 2004 4:24 am

Charlie: I don't want to go to your stupid party. Simple.

Dave: I hate you. I hate everyone else, too. But for some reason, I hate you the most, and I'm not sure why.

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Thu Aug 05, 2004 3:08 am

I hate myself. I hate myself so bad right now, and it's mostly because you're so great and I'm not.

I'm sorry.
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
[story people]

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Post by butterflydust » Thu Aug 05, 2004 7:10 am

SIOBHAN: screw you. i'm not okay i never was. yet you all ignored me and went running to joanna. and i sat there as my usual wallflower self...

KRISTIN: you hurt me, okay? DO YOU EVEN CARE??? do you ever sit there at night and wonder, what happened to her? well my ED didn't go away, and you could have helped me, you still can, but i'm too afraid to say these words to you because i'm so scared you won't even listen, and so i continue in my ED hell.

SAM: you are so stupid and blind to not realize that i love you and to go out with a freaking whore blue-eyed dragon who is a great friend but will always screw you over as a girlfriend

JOANNA: i'm not the rock you think i am. i'm so so sorry i can't be your rock and your example like kristin was mine, but i can't because i'm not better yet the way she was. i try so hard to be like her but i just can't, not yet, cuz right now i'm in that same boat as you, the one with the hole in the bottom in the middle of the ocean, sinking fast

EVERYONE: i am NOT okay!!! i know i freaking act like it, i know i act like a freaking rock and like i'm freaking fine, but i'm freaking not!!! freaking okay? well i still SI and i still have an ED and i'm still SU, and if anyone bothered to freaking look at me or talk to me instead of treating me like a piece of furniture that only comes to life when you need me, maybe you'd see that!!! SO... SCREW YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MYSELF: can't you get a frickin handle on life? what the heck is wrong with you?????


wow that felt really, really, REALLY good.
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Post by nirvana » Fri Aug 06, 2004 2:37 am

hold on to this... this feeling.

it's good.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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Post by nirvana » Fri Aug 06, 2004 3:05 am

i don't want to know.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Fri Aug 06, 2004 3:28 am

love me please. :-X
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
[story people]

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Fri Aug 06, 2004 3:34 am

You're sorry you didn't tell me that my friends were calling? You're sorry??? So I've been sitting at home this summer wondering why they didn't call, and they did. They did. So I have wasted a whole summer, a whole two months, and it's all your fault.

Fuck you. Thanks, die.
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
[story people]

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Post by Lyndsie » Fri Aug 06, 2004 7:10 pm

This was a great post idea!


anyway, here my yelling!

I wana yell at you but i can't!
You feel the same as me
Except your locked up in a cage




How could you
Don't you realize I miss him too
Stop burdening
I've moved on
Now why can't you



You never wanted me
Then you neglected me
Soon i kicked you out of my life
Did you know their was a point i wanted to kill you
But why waist my life on you
When you sure as hell didn't waist your life on me

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Post by SpoolGirl » Mon Aug 09, 2004 2:28 am

You just don't understand. I've tried to help you understand but it doesn't work. I wish you wanted to understand and didn't just spout out advice. Eveything is not always so black and white.

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Post by Ketchup » Mon Aug 09, 2004 3:37 am

Noah- I didn't know you. I didn't know you at all. But I wish I had. Your mom tells me about how awesome you were. She misses you so much. You wanna know how she described it? A longing that never goes away. It is never going to go away. She sent me a picture of you. I keep it in a notebook that I wrote poems in. For not knowing you, I miss you an awful lot. Nowhere near as much and your mom and dad though. But why?! Why'd you have to go and do that, huh?! Why the fuck would anyone hurt a great person like your mom??? Your mom helps me a lot. Sometimes I feel like I am burdening her though. I'm trying to keep my stuff quiet around this time. I know the anniversary is coming up. I wrote a poem about it. Maybe I will show it to her. You know what? I wrote a letter to you after you did what you did. It went on for like, three pages. Paulina told me not to get too attatched to you. But I think it's too late for that. Yeah, I have a crush on you and I've heard so much about you that I think it's okay. Well...I don't know what to say except, you really shouldnt've done what you did. She misses you.
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Post by nirvana » Mon Aug 09, 2004 3:55 am

i'm sorry. i've been hurting since this started. that wasn't the way it was supposed to work. i let you hurt me. over and over, i took that shit. and i'm still here. because i'm weak. i know it dammit.

leave me alone.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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Post by Guest » Mon Aug 09, 2004 12:36 pm

Please don't worry. I am more than capable of saying no when I want to and yes when I want to. You do not have to take responsibility for everything. It was fantastic. You can DEFINITELY do those things again.

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Post by amyfairy » Mon Aug 09, 2004 5:37 pm

fucking bastard. do you see what you’ve done to this family? to your wife, do you see what you’ve done too her? you’re a bastard. i hate you. you’re a bastard. i love you too. can you not talk? can I now know why you’re walking out on us? i’m sorry i’m not perfect, okay? i’m fucking sorry. can you just leave her alone now, please? stop taking things out on her, because you can’t talk about things, in your stubborn manner. she did nothing wrong. you can’t make me choose. i love you both.

when i say i’m giving up; i mean it.

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Post by nirvana » Tue Aug 10, 2004 8:01 pm

don't bother. i'm way too far gone to hear you.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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