Bitch Fest / Things Left Unsaid II *LA*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by nirvana » Sun May 30, 2004 3:39 am

w: i love you. i'm sorry.
b: i'll leave you alone now. i'm sorry for everything; you didn't ever deserve any of it.
d: i'll leave you alone too. i am a stuck up bitch.

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Post by Mistress » Mon May 31, 2004 8:32 pm

Dad: I'm sorry, I do mean it and I accept that I have no right to expect your forgiveness or your love any more. I will never scream at you or hit you again, and I will not touch you and pretend everything's fine. I will not blame everything on you, impose restrictions on you even though you are an adult and then scream and bawl when you try to discuss them with me. I will attempt to be a reasonable facsimilie of a human being and not to inflict my problems on you.

Yeah :sob: right.

Mum: I will not act like everything is your fault when your father shouts at you. I will stick up for you instead of moaning that it makes me feel worse. I will not tell you to "live with it" or "stay out of his way". I will pay for your uni fees instead of leaving you broke (HA!). I will allow you to do what you wish with your life. I won't force you to show me your arms. I'll leave you alone.

i wish...
so here's us, on the raggedy edge...

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Post by pretty » Fri Jun 04, 2004 5:06 pm

x - i'm sorry for what i did to you. i was stupid and it was wrong, i'm sorry that i did that. i'm sorry that i hurt you so badly.

d - i'm sorry i've done so much to hurt you. i'll support you all i can.

m - i'm leaving him. it's over. i'm strong and well enough, and i'm tired of putting up with this.

a - i love you so much. everything's going to be alright, i promise.
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"if I don't let myself be happy now, then when?"' - jimmy eat world

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Post by kurdt_kobain » Thu Jul 15, 2004 2:29 am

I love you. You're worthwhile.
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but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
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Post by XclippedXwingsX » Sat Jul 17, 2004 1:17 am

Chris - Chels... I'm planning to go to college closer around here so I can stay here with you.

Chris - I love you, Chels.

Mom - Chelsea you are the best daughter in the world and I take back every horrible thing I ever said or did to you...

Sean - I'll WILL never leave you

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Post by snowangel_03 » Mon Jul 19, 2004 8:34 pm

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Post by say » Tue Jul 20, 2004 3:46 pm

I just need someone to say, "I will love you forever, no matter what." I just need to know I won't end up all alone.

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Post by deadrockstar » Tue Jul 20, 2004 10:50 pm

I love you, I'm sorry, forgive me huh?

I'll stand by you forever Jen, becasue i know you're always there for me...

i'll leave you alone if you want me to.


thants all i need to hear right now, off 3 different people, because if i do it'll make it all okay
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Post by the_grouch » Wed Jul 21, 2004 7:52 am

J: I'm not mad at you, I forgive you. Please don't hate yourself, I love you. And last night I realized that I feel the same for you as you do for me. I'm sorry for hurting you and making you cry. And I'll forget the drunken, rude emails you sent to me. I understand that you were not in your right mind. I will tell you what I feel from now on, because I also understand that it's creepy when I hold things in and pretend to hold no grudges ever. I like you more than K and A. I promise not to leave you everytime my phone rings.

P: I won't joke about killing myself anymore. I know it makes you uncomfortable because you can't do anything about it. and I understand that you do care about me even if you arent romantically interested in me.

W: I'm sorry for being mean to the boy you love, and I won't anymore. I'm going to apologize to him ASAP. I do think of him as a friend and I didn't mean to hurt him.

G: It was all a dream. you can wake up now, and everything will be normal again. Nice again. It was all a bad, bad dream.
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Post by Christina » Thu Jul 22, 2004 10:58 pm

To Aimee: I really miss you. Sorry I fucked up our friendship. Maybe we can repair things someday. I would really like that.

Mom: There are things you don't understand. Please stop complaining so much.

Nick: I wish we could be better friends.
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Post by tattybluetrees » Sun Jul 25, 2004 3:00 pm

My family:
We see what you've done and the sacrifices you've made and we'll stop treating you like an object. We see how much pain you are in and how alone you feel and we will try and care for you a littel bit. We are truly, truly sorry that we have never helped or intervened before, that we always turned a blind eye. Well done for still being alive. You don't have to do it alone any more.

Any member of my family:
hi, how was your day?

Anyone at all:
Its okay. Its going to be okay. You're safe, no one is going to get you, no one is coming to get you. Its okay. It going to be alright. Promise.

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Post by PaperDoll » Sun Jul 25, 2004 5:37 pm

Ex: Why do you have to shove it in my face? Why do you have to be like him? Please, I don't need you to do this now. You know I read. You know I do. You know. You know.

Him: I hope you're fucking happy. I hope you had fun. I hope you're better now. Don't you dare complain to me. You fucking used me. Pushed me to the fucking edge. Don't ask my opinion. Like I give a fucking shit. Your mess. Your problem. You think you can hurt me and then expect my help. I cared for you. I fucking loved you. I loved you. So much it hurt to breathe. And you threw it in my face. Which is why you will never. Ever. Know this.

Her: Stop it. Leave me alone. I'm begging you. Please. Don't go. I love you. I love you. Just stop. Don't do this to me anymore. Please. I can't cope with it. And I don't want the fucking CBT therapy. Just give me the medication. Anything. Make it go away. Make her go away. But I don't want her to. And I do. Just don't hurt me anymore. Please.

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Post by Junebug44 » Tue Jul 27, 2004 8:00 am

my dad: it wasn't your fault, it was mine. you didn't do anything wrong.

my mom: i'm sorry i was so critical of you. i can see you're a very special person and i wish i could hold you.

J: i understand, mom.

M: i love you mom.

Jn: I think you're special 'just the way you are.'

S: i'm lucky to have you working here. I admire your creativity and your gentleness with the patients. You're a good worker.

God: I love you and care very deeply for you. I want the very best for you. Come climb into my lap and rest.
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Post by kurdt_kobain » Fri Aug 06, 2004 3:33 am

You're a special, worthwhile person.
trying to follow in the footsteps of the masters,
but it's a lot harder than it looks because even though
they had the same size feet as us, they weren't looking
down the whole time while they walked to make sure
they were doing it right.
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Post by Lyndsie » Fri Aug 06, 2004 7:20 pm

I think i've said things
maybe not in ways you understand
we're still friends
it's just hard
Cause you know where i am
I love you, I tell you that alot
I miss you, sorry i don't tell you that alot anymore
Please don't hurt yourself or do anything stupid
I'll be out soon
Things will be fine
You'll see

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Post by nirvana » Tue Aug 17, 2004 2:12 am

bill - i love you. and i'm right here listening, even if you can't talk. this isn't you bitching, this is you trusting me enough to let things out. and you need this, and i'm sorry. i need you.

ben - i'm sorry.

gaelen - we can't be friends again. not after what you did to me. i know you're sorry; that doesn't take it back. have fun with him.

anyone - i love you.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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Post by pistachio » Tue Aug 17, 2004 2:15 am

jamie-stay. its not enough to have tony. no one else knows us liek you do. we will all stumble and fall without you here to catch us...

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Post by nirvana » Sun Aug 29, 2004 3:31 am

somebody please... "i love you."

because i don't love me.
i thought i was a fool for no one, but baby i'm a fool for you.

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Post by Prymael » Wed Sep 01, 2004 12:50 am

Anyone who believes - It doesn't matter how you think you look, I believe that you are beautiful to me and that I want you by my side forever...I love you and don't leave me.
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