Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Thu May 31, 2007 7:52 pm

I found a proxy that works to get on bus at school! I'm on it right now.

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I'm afraid to go talk to him.

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I think something happened to me when I was younger... but still dont know what it is.


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Post by marshmallowfluff » Thu May 31, 2007 8:28 pm

have had enough now. i want to sleep until it has all gone away.

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jun 02, 2007 3:50 pm

we broke up.
and its killing me inside.
i fucked everything up and now i've lost the one thing that mattered.

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Post by starcatuk » Sat Jun 02, 2007 5:19 pm

i did it again last night

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Post by recovering4me » Sun Jun 03, 2007 1:46 am

pms ok.

im not ok. im not. im pretending that i am. the thoughts of si and su are here again. i just want someone to notise me. notise that everything isn't ok. why doesnt anyone ever notise??
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Sun Jun 03, 2007 6:57 pm

i *hate* his motorbike. i'm terrified he's gonna die on it.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Mon Jun 04, 2007 2:48 am

When I eat with people... I wait to take a bite until I know nobody is watching me.

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Post by heidi4battle » Tue Jun 05, 2007 12:05 am

my secret is that I am scared that I will find out who I am and it will not be someone that is great.

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Post by anewyearsealedwithlove » Tue Jun 05, 2007 3:30 am

I haven't stopped

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Post by steady hands » Tue Jun 05, 2007 8:36 am

I'm afraid of trying to be sober because I'm not sure I'd be able to cope without having something extra in my system.




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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Thu Jun 07, 2007 12:47 am

I think I love him, but it's not true love. It's not that "I'd do anything for you love." It might just be that I love the way he makes me feel.

PMs okay.
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Post by starcatuk » Fri Jun 08, 2007 6:14 pm

i did it again. i want to stop but cant.

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Post by Brit » Sat Jun 09, 2007 7:09 pm

I feel like I wont be myself if i stop SIing. That is what defines me. Its been my life for so long.

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Sat Jun 09, 2007 7:48 pm

I'm so scared that it is coming back, or that it will soon. I can kinda feel it inside, and part of me thinks it feels good, it feels familiar. But I don't want to be that person anymore. Especially not now.

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Post by daisy_chain » Sun Jun 10, 2007 7:30 pm

I dont really know who i am.
I'm just dreaming out loud.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sun Jun 10, 2007 10:19 pm

i don't dare to tell my biggest secret... not even on bus... i've posted it a million times only to delete it before anyone reads it... i wish i could just tell it without being scared... but it feels like as long as i don't say it out loud it can still turn out not to be true...

pm's ok...
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Post by HakunaMatata » Mon Jun 11, 2007 12:21 am

Edited cause I put the post in the wrong place. 2nd time round.
I still think I like her and it tears me apart knowing that I can never tell her.
I also think I l*ve him. And I never say that word, but now I'm scared I've lost him anyway.


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Post by Callisto » Mon Jun 11, 2007 1:03 am

i think im developing a crush on someone, but i feel bad about it because i know you're still in love with me

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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Jun 11, 2007 4:56 am

i'm bloody terrified.
why did i book this?
argh
i don't wanna go
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Post by powdahchica » Mon Jun 11, 2007 5:27 am

I love her. And she doesn't give a shit about me. I can't stop loving her.

pm's welcome
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