Candys Coping Thread

angelic212 · Post by **angelic212** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 6:48 am

hi Candy:

im sorry that you are struggling with urges to Si.

i was also struggling earlier but i watched the movie aquamarine
actually i watched 3 movies today.

and i made a colorful beaded bracelet.
im going to take a picture of it and im going to post it.

im wearing 3 lovely beaded bracelets and if i do anything negative i have to take all of my 3 bracelets off,

have you considered this alternative?
you buy yourself some pretty bracelets or you can make them yourself any way you want. and you can wear them all the time but if you slip and si you have to take them off.
i m going to use this as an alternative.

i hope that you have a good night.

feel free to email me or pm me okay candy?
i know that fighting Si urges is hard.
but remember , you have your coping place if you feel urgy you can post here instead of acting on your urges. i will do the same , i will post in my coping space instead of doing negative ed behaviors.

hope that you have a good night

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 6:55 am

Hi
I am glad that you are doing good.That sounds like a great ideal with the bracelet,I hope that I spell that right. I took my medications and I am starting to feel tired,I think I am going to try that with the bracelets,cause I did not think of that,thanks for the suggetions. You are also weclome to pm me if you feel like it anytime or post on bus. I feel better then I did before,but I just know that I have to cope and deal with the urges as well with my illness Borderline Personality Disorder and it is not easy,but I am glad that I have my coping thread to post on. I hope you have a great night and I will be going to bed pretty soon.

I am just taking it one minute at a time. I will be ok.Thanks again

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 4:13 pm

I got through the night without doing any SI,and I am just feeling stressed out,the way I cope with is by listening to relaxation tapes and trying to keep myself busy. When I get confused I try to take a deep breath and get my thougths back on track,it takes me a while to do it.
I cleaned my aparment today which was something positive that I did

I am going to do something positive for myself today and I wish I could raise my self-esteem,if anyone has any information that would be helpful to me,could you please post it here. I would be very grateful. I have been struggling with SI for a long time and it is so hard to stop,but so far I am doing good,even though I am afraid of slipping up. My problem is that I am having trouble finding information to post here,and that is where I am getting frustrated. I am going to take it easy today and keep myself busy,if you feel like pm me or write to me on the bus here,that would be great. I will be back on later,that is a promise. I hope everyone is doing great,I wish I could feel better though. Be back soon

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 10:01 pm

I feel real bad right now,cause I am feeling anxious and I slip with SI,I hate the fact that I slip again,I was doing soo good,and know I mess up. I feel terrible inside for what happen, I need to get back in control and everytime, I feel like I have control,my anxiety level gets real hard. I did not even right in my journal today like I planned and I feel bad about that. I could use some hugs right now and to know that someone cares about me here. I feel terrible inside for what happen I feel depressed and I do not know why. I feel anxious and I just want to relax. I hope that I get through the night and I will post on the bus through out the night,if I need to, I just feel quilty for what I did. I hate this illness that I have which is Borderline Personality Disorder and the symptoms that come with it!!!!!!!!!. I am going to do something to get my mind off this,but I will be back on the bus real soon. I feel terrible inside

angelic212 · Post by **angelic212** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 10:18 pm

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sorry to hear that you are struggling candy.
im sorry that you slipped today i also slipped today.
we have to make a committment to not hurt ourselves.

im having a tough time too. and tomorrow is my birthday and im struggling with my eating disorder.

i hope that you willl be okay. and if you need to feel free to pm me /

angelic212 · Post by **angelic212** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 10:25 pm

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Tue Feb 20, 2007 11:54 pm

I called my therapist and she helped me alot.I wrote in my journal and that helps me alot to get everything out of me,like my feelings and emotions,even more so the uncomfortable ones that trigger it,which was my anxiety,it was so high that it was a full blow panic attack, I am starting to calm down and relaxing. I am going to relax tonight and use my coping box,cause I need to use it.Thanks for sending me the pictures and I am going to print them off.I can go two weeks without doing any SI,and then I slip,which it might happen due to my illness Borderline Personality Disorder.I am getting so tired of hurting myself and I want to stop,it is never easy,but I am trying. I need to make a commitment to stop hurting myself,and I do agree with what you wrote. I am feeling somewhat better. This is for you:

Thanks for the picture and the support. There are two things that I like about myself:
1) I am a worthwhile person

2) I am a thoughtful person

There are two things that I am good at:
1) I am a good cook

2) I am a good cleaner

Three positive things that I did today were:
1) I cleaned my apartment

2) I wrote in my journal

3) I posted on the Bus.
I am going to watch t.v and I will be back on soon.Again thanks for the pictures.It made me feel better. Thanks.

angelic212 · Post by **angelic212** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 2:01 am

glad you feel better Candy!

im also feeling a bit better too!
here are some more pictures for you

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Candy · Post by **Candy** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 2:08 am

I am feeling better, I am just worn out and going to take it easy,Thanks alot for the pictures,they are real nice. I am relaxing and watching t.v. I am glad that I have a coping thread here it has helped me alot and I will be posting more coping things on it when I get some. It was just a rough day for me,and I know that you are having a rough day as well and I am glad that we are here for each other,and others are welcome to post here as well. I will be ok and I will be back on the bus later.Thanks again.I am taking it one minute at a time and staying safe.

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 4:23 am

I am feeling alot better now,the anxiety level is going down, I took my medicatons and I relaxing,watching a movie on Lifetime,it is a comedy. I also wrote out positive affirmations for myself.

I feel bad that I slip up with SI,but I have to keep trying and using my coping skills and keep posting on the bus.I never had a panic attack like that before and it was so scary. I will be going to my day treatment program tomorrow and I will be on the bus in the evening and hopefully I will have some coping skills to post. This was a rough evening for me and I feel tired,worn out mentally,physically and emtionally.I never had panic attacks before and this is new to me. I will be back on the bus,before I go to bed,going to watch some t.v for awhile and relax. I need a hug from someone,my boy-friend gave me one. I feel alot better,but I still do not feel so great right now. I am taking it one minute at a time and that is all I can do for myself. I will be back on real soon,before I go to bed.

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 5:57 am

I am starting to feel tired and I will be going to bed real soon,my medications are starting to work. I have day treatment program in the morning and I will be posting sometime in the evening,before my boy-friend left,I started to cry,cause I did not want him to leave,cause I was not relax yet,and I did not feel safe,but staying on the bus,has helped me alot and I feel alot better. I am going to be ok and hopefully I will have some coping skills to post on the bus.Everyone thanks for the information that you sent me tonight and if you feel that it will help me,you can put it on my coping thread. I will be back on tomorrow evening. I am taking it one minute at a time and I will be alright. Have a good night.

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 9:01 pm

I had a rough time at program today, I could not relax,my heart was beating so fast,and I was splitting with is part of my Borderline Personality Disorder,and I was started to dissociate,if I spell that word right,I felt like I was there,but in side of my body. I never had a rough day like that before. I told my therapist about it and they were going to mention it to the doctor about my panic attacks,but nothing was ever said. I never had panic attacks before and last night was the worst for me,due to the slip I had.There are times I get so frustrated with myself that I feel like I will never get well.I am not happy with the way things went at program,and I was so upset;plus I was so tired out. Has anyone had these experiences before? How do I cope. I am really sorry that I could not get any information on the bus to put here today,I just had a real rough day there and I also started to

,I just did not feel like I was getting any support,they told me to use my coping skills,I understand that,but when I was feeling so out of it and due to the panic attacks,it did not help. I hope everyone here is doing ok, I am personally tired and out of it,it was a rough day for me. I will be back on the bus later on,I am going to lay down for awhile and get some rest. I am taking it one minute at a time that is all that I can do for myself right now. I am hanging in there.

plantt · Post by **plantt** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 10:46 pm

it's one thing to notice & recognize behaviors & thoughts... & quite often that's a good thing.
to blame it all on a diagnosis isn't particularly helpful...
what are you doing to change those things Candy?
a diagnosis is just a label. you don't have to continue to live as if you *were* that label.

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Wed Feb 21, 2007 11:56 pm

I am sorry that it was wrotten that way, I did not mean it that way, I am trying to change my behavior and thougts,and I am working on it,by using my coping skills. I know that mental labels are not who I am,I should of made it clearly,and I should not of wrote that,it was the systems that I was talking about. Again I am sorry

plantt · Post by **plantt** » Thu Feb 22, 2007 12:07 am

did you get some rest?

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Thu Feb 22, 2007 2:56 am

Yes, I got some rest,which I needed,but the panic attacks are so bad,every night and my doctor does not seem to think I need a medication change, It is scary for me and I feel like I am having a heart attack,and it is really starting to wear me out. I feel so mentally,emotionally and physically tired and I do not know what to do to help myself,my chest is so tight and I feel like

.I feel like I can not do anything when this is happening. I feel so alone and scared,any suggestions. I really tired out from this and I am having trouble relaxing and even though I am here physically, I do not feel like it,if you know what I mean. I am taking it one minute at a time. I am feel so alone right now and scared/

plantt · Post by **plantt** » Thu Feb 22, 2007 3:09 am

what has your therapist been doing to help lessen/stop/cope with panic attacks & anxiety?

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Thu Feb 22, 2007 3:40 am

My therapist has not been doing anything to help me lower my anxiety or panic attacks and it is starting to get to me,and I need help from here. Last night it was so bad,that my neck was stiff,that I had to put something on it to help my muscles,cause they were so tight in the neck. I want to list two good things about myself:
1) I am a friendly person

2) I am a strong person

Two things that I am good at:
1) I am good at budgeting my money

2) I am a good listerner.

Three things that I did positive today:
1) I posted on the bus

2) I took a nap

3) I used my coping skills

I copied them off after I post them here. I wish I was feeling better and I am watching t.v,it is a comedy on lifetime. I am still trying to get help from my therapist,but she wants me to find things on the internet on panic attacks to help me. I am not happy with her. Thank you for being there for me, I hate this feeling and it is scary,and the problem is that I do not know what triggers them,they just come on me so fast. I am glad to be here tonight. I will be back on later.Thanks for caring.

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Thu Feb 22, 2007 5:58 am

I feel alot better now, I was playing checkers on line and it got my mind off of everything and the anxiety has gone down alot. I am glad that I am here and even though I did not write in my journal, I found different things to keep myself busy. It has been one day since I have done any SI,and for me it is easy to take it one minute at a time,so I do not get overwhelmed. I hope everyone is doing ok tonight. I am going to try to find different coping things to post here tomorrow,cause I have day treatment program tomorrow,if not I will find something anyway to post. I am doing good,and I feel more relax,just tired. I will be back on later,before I go to bed,going to watch t.v for awhile. Taking care of myself.

Candy · Post by **Candy** » Thu Feb 22, 2007 6:32 am

I just want to say tonight to everyone and I hope you all sleep well. I took my medications and I am getting tired. I feel more calmer than I did before,and I will be on the post tomorrow evening when I get home from program.I will be back on the bus tomorrow and I am getting my thoughts together and that is what I needed. Just wanted to say Hi and I will be back on soon take care. I am doing good.

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