Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

Nursing_girl · Post by **Nursing_girl** » Sat Dec 15, 2007 6:26 am

I'm afraid that I'll never be happy.

xStarBright · Post by **xStarBright** » Sat Dec 15, 2007 3:25 pm

I cheated on my ex two years ago. I CHEATED ON MY EX GODDAMIT! I'm scared that I'll always bunk out of a commitment, that I'll always be afraid.. Even when I need it so much..

[PMs are OK. And appreciated..]

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Sat Dec 15, 2007 10:21 pm

I want his arms to wrap around me and keep me safe.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Dec 16, 2007 12:41 am

being single makes me feel like a freak. everyone i know IRL is attached, some of them are even engaged to be married already.....i feel like a freak, a loser, a reject for being single.....i feel like the reason im single is because there's something wrong with me.

acdcrocker1909 · Post by **acdcrocker1909** » Tue Dec 18, 2007 2:20 am

I'm scared I'll never find someone who makes me feel like he does... and that he's my person.. the one I'm supposed to go have some fun with.. and that.. we'll never get to have that kinda relationship.. that I'll always have to love him like a close friend...

recovering4me · Post by **recovering4me** » Thu Dec 20, 2007 1:52 am

i feel like a frightened little kitten. i want my therapist back

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Thu Dec 20, 2007 2:38 am

I'm afraid she'll die tonight.

I'm afraid she'll die without being able to recognize anyone.
I'm afraid she'll die without knowing it was me who told her that I love her.

Silent_Tears · Post by **Silent_Tears** » Thu Dec 20, 2007 3:20 am

su trigs
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I'm really afraid my friend is going to commit suicide. And there's nothing I can do about it. And I'm scared. I don't know what I would do without her. I am happy everytime I talk to her... I'm sad when I don't get to talk to her. I can talk to her about anything. She understands things that other people can't comphrend. She's a very special friend... and I'm just so scared...

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Dec 20, 2007 10:24 pm

i gave up university for you because you couldn't deal with me being away and living in a mixed gender flat. you made me feel cheap and nasty and worthless for being there and not being with you so i gave it all up to save "us". and in the end all you did was throw it back in my face.

Beasty · Post by **Beasty** » Fri Dec 21, 2007 4:16 am

I'm terrified of letting someone into my life again. I'm scared that if someone gets close to me, they won't like what they find and leave. I'm not sure I could handle that.
I hope I'm not making a huge mistake.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Sat Dec 22, 2007 12:54 am

I can't believe you're gone.

Blazergal3 · Post by **Blazergal3** » Sat Dec 22, 2007 7:04 am

I didn't do well in school this semester. I couldn't hear everyone tell me how proud they were of me again. Proud of what? If they only knew, there is nothing to be proud of. I have hidden in my college classes so I don't have to face free time. Time to think, always keep busy!

Post by **Spidey** » Sat Dec 22, 2007 5:50 pm

when i am angry at my co-workers, i take a dump at work and clog the toilet.

Nursing_girl · Post by **Nursing_girl** » Sat Dec 22, 2007 7:46 pm

*** SU

I am petrified that my best friend is going to attempt suicide again. I cant say anything, though...because I found out by accident and he hasnt told anyone/no one is supposed to know. I'm terrified that I'll get a phone call this week while I'm visiting family saying that he died or something. SO scared..........

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sun Dec 23, 2007 1:13 pm

nursing_girl488 wrote:*** SU

I am petrified that my best friend is going to attempt suicide again. I cant say anything, though...because I found out by accident and he hasnt told anyone/no one is supposed to know. I'm terrified that I'll get a phone call this week while I'm visiting family saying that he died or something. SO scared..........

If you really think it's a possibility that your friend will die, it's okay to tell someone. Even if you're not supposed to know - you could be saving your friend's life.

Stripe · Post by **Stripe** » Sun Dec 23, 2007 1:48 pm

i'm scared you matter too much to me

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Sun Dec 23, 2007 2:31 pm

It feels like these meds are my last chance.
I don't know anymore whether I'm waiting for them to work, or to not work.

xStarBright · Post by **xStarBright** » Sun Dec 23, 2007 4:12 pm

I'm scared that this is 'just a phase'.

breathing · Post by **breathing** » Mon Dec 24, 2007 12:21 am

i want to get a T and pdoc but i'm scared to tell my mother.

[i'm scared that she'll stereotype me again]

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Mon Dec 24, 2007 4:16 am

Routine quoting of rules

Pink Spider wrote:GUIDELINES:

- Secrets can often be painful and negative. That is okay. But that doesn't mean this thread can be used as a loophole to get around BUS rules.

- No attacks on other members. If you have a beef with another member, take it up with them.

- No suicide notes, and nothing that is pro-suicide.

- Nothing that is pro-SI or pro-ED - we understand that everyone here is in different stages of recovery, but there are places on the board where you can work out / through those feelings.

- No manipulative comments that you intend someone else to find and have a reaction to.

- You cannot post that you ARE hurting yourself, WILL WITHOUT DOUBT hurt yourself or HAVE hurt yourself if you need and don't intend to get medical help. "Hurting yourself" includes SI, SU, OD's, destructive eating disorder behaviour like purging or starving, as well as putting yourself in dangerous situations like approaching/ contacting an abuser. This stuff is either against BUS rules or belongs in the B&A forum, or somewhere you can get constructive feedback like main or some of the more "analys-y" coping threads.

Examples wrote:Can say:

I want to hurt myself.
I feel like I don't deserve to eat.
I feel like being skinny will solve my problems.
I want to die.
I feel fat.
I hurt myself.
Suicide feels like a good option.
I am scared to get help.

Can't say:

I have a blade in my hand and I'm cutting now.
Tomorrow at uni I'm going to hurt myself.
I've taken an OD and don't want anyone to know.
My friend wants to die and I think it's a good idea for him.
I'm not eating anything today because I don't deserve it.
I want to know how to purge better.
I'm going to kill myself next week.
Life sucks, so long y'all.

- You can ask for PM's/ comments, but if you really want replies, please don't be hesitant to go over to nest, or somewhere you'll know without doubt that you've been heard.

- As with anywhere else on the board, you must use spoilers if and when they are necessary.

WARNING

If this thread is not used constructively and continues to go against the spirit of the coping forum (as the old one did), it will be locked and it will stay that way.

Also, any person who continually uses this thread for unconstructive purposes (meaning, they violate the guidelines set above continually), will risk having their posting priveliges in this revoked.

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