Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

mephistopheles · Post by **mephistopheles** » Wed Feb 15, 2006 7:26 pm

comments ok (PM)

I pulled a bloke last night. And I always get to the stage where I'm too involved to back out - I feel like I'd disappoint them - but carrying on makes me miserable and feel like a whore.

Reisu · Post by **Reisu** » Fri Feb 17, 2006 12:43 pm

ive been staring at this box for ages trying to articulate what i want to say, but i cant. i dont even know what it is.

story of my life, huh

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Fri Feb 17, 2006 3:51 pm

pm's ok

no matter what people do to show me they won't hurt me I never let myself believe that they really care or that I can really trust them/depend on them to be there.

what makes this worse is that right now i have someone in my life that I really love and who really loves me and I still refuse to let myself believe that he won't hurt me

(*Haven*) · Post by **(*Haven*)** » Sun Feb 19, 2006 5:48 pm

PMs are fine.

When someone asks me how I am, I just one time want to courage to say, "I'm not okay. I want to die."

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Feb 19, 2006 7:54 pm

i feel the need to apologise everyday, because even though i might not have done anything wrong i'm so scared of hurting the people i care about that it's easier to say sorry beforehand

smr89 · Post by **smr89** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 2:49 am

*This is so dumb. I get so mad when I see other people, especially teenagers, and really especially teenage girls, talking to you at all. Even if it is just for a second at church. I HATE that 'she' is spending time with you and your family, well mostly with your kids I guess. I'm paranoid about it. I think she might be babysitting your kids every Wednesday now. ERR!! I'm going to ask you tomorrow if she is or not. I'm trying not to assume until you tell me one way or another. If she is I might (but probably won't) pretend like I don't care but I'm gonna be SO pissed!!!!!!!!!! I really hope you tell me no. I know you know how I feel about this. What is wrong with me?! This is messed up because I shouldn't care who talks to you or spends time with you but I do.
*I hate being numb but sometimes I am and I can't change it. Ugh.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 6:57 am

I want to tell her so bad.

but i can't bear the thought of hurting her. and besides, i'm too much of a coward to tell anyone.

*su trigs*

i looked in the sink, and wondered if i could drown myself in it.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 6:00 pm

I think about suicide everyday, because i want to plan my own to perfection so that when I get to that point nothing and no one can stop me....not even myself.

And i don't care that doing this makes me a bad person.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 6:23 pm

i despise the amounts i eat. yet i continue to do it everyday. and i hate myself for it.
i want to be thin. i don't think it'd make things better, and i don't think it'd make anyone love me more. it's purely selfish, i'd be doing it for myself

one half of me trusts him with all my heart. the other is afraid he would never care about me as much as i care about him. and i love him so so much. i want him to never ever ever leave me.

i have been attracted to another guy while in a relationship. only vaguely and i'm not interested in anything coming from it. not at all. but i feel guilty all the same.

pms are welcome

Copasetic · Post by **Copasetic** » Mon Feb 20, 2006 10:52 pm

I'm thinking of hanging myself at the end of the semester.

~BrokenGlass~ · Post by **~BrokenGlass~** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 12:04 am

I get incredibly sad when i think about how i tried to commit suicide because i failed.

black_23 · Post by **black_23** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 12:16 am

I tried it od several times but no one cared but still it didnt work.

I thought i killed my unborn mums child, even tough it wasnt my fault. Nw i see her all the time.

I think she's a girl even though she was never born

Im scared of the future and what will happen if i can cope.

Im frightned of trying again and being in that sad place.

I wish i could pass out and fade away - i try, im trying for 1st time in a while.

I wonder if it will ever go away, and whether it will be used against me

~bluehaze~ · Post by **~bluehaze~** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 7:35 pm

Pm's okay

I know that I have issues with food even though I blatantly deny it when people mention it.
I worry that one day you'll see me as I really am and you won't love me anymore.

~starblaze~ · Post by **~starblaze~** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 10:55 pm

PMs okay

i am a bit nervous about you being on here even though ive said im not.

I want my food issues to get worse because i feel im not doing well enough in them and i like it when people do things to put me off my food. In fact some of the time i make up that people have done something so that i can justify me not wanting to eat.

I really dont see what you see in me, i still think im dreaming

~bluehaze~ · Post by **~bluehaze~** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 11:26 pm

There are times I wish I had a real eating disorder.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Feb 21, 2006 11:28 pm

pm's ok

i don't want to get better...but giving in to Darren and letting him be what he wants to be in my life means that I have to get better, but i don't see how I can if i don't want to. and i feel like a terrible person for not wanting to.

~bluehaze~ · Post by **~bluehaze~** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 12:04 am

I kinda feel su tonight

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Wed Feb 22, 2006 8:08 pm

the fact that i can't do anything to make this better, the fact that i can't solve it/take it away kills me inside...and i would give anything to be able to because you are one of the three people who mean the world to me right now

HSUgirl · Post by **HSUgirl** » Thu Feb 23, 2006 2:16 am

You can comment

I am affraid to admit that the part of the reason I am so depressed is because I am so affraid that my father really did molest me as child. I know that sounds so foolish.

red umbrellas · Post by **red umbrellas** » Thu Feb 23, 2006 5:10 pm

i'm not as ok as i tell everyone
i'm not functioning and my work is suffering and so are my relationships
and i can't seem to control my thoughts

bus

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