last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

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Post by Its all a blur » Thu Feb 10, 2005 1:52 am

this is hopefully gonna be true of the next few weeks... next time i wanna si i'm gonna try not to cos i have a bal coming up in just under a month and i want to wear a pretty pink spotty dress and scars will clash horribly! i hope that stops me next time i feel the need...

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Post by FairydustSparkles » Thu Feb 10, 2005 3:20 pm

Because I know there's people who believe in me, and I know when i do it I'm not just hurting me, I'm hurting them too. And as much as I wanna hurt myself I don't wanna put them through it.

And because 6 weeks is the longest I've ever been free, I'm on 3weeks now and I wanna keep going.
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Post by GLaDOS » Sun Feb 13, 2005 12:31 am

...I had no time...

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Post by balletomane » Wed Feb 16, 2005 12:40 am

The last time I wanted to SI but didn't, I cut up old pictures of myself. I didn't because I don't want new scars when I go to ballet.

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Post by swanfaerie » Wed Feb 16, 2005 8:07 am

i took time to let the urge pass. i psoted in before & after and realized it wasn't worth it. i don't want the lady i'm dating to see fresh wounds. i don't want dhs to see a mom w/si wounds. and i'm just too tired.
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Post by Never Again » Fri Feb 18, 2005 1:11 am

because i have a contract with my tdoc and pdoc that i will call them before si. i didn't really have a choice. it's either this or ip.

BUT IT'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAAAAAAAAAAARD. I WANT TO CUT SOOOOOOOO BAD!

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Post by pretty » Fri Feb 18, 2005 10:52 am

I didn't have access to first aid stuff, so I told myself I had to wait til I got home and could take care of whatever I did. Of course, by the time I got home I felt better and didn't.
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Post by marylou » Fri Feb 18, 2005 1:12 pm

I sat on my hands and made myself fall asleep. When I woke up again I didn't want to anymore.
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Post by Thunder_chey » Fri Feb 25, 2005 8:16 am

because im saving my mony for a new camera :D


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Post by Moi » Fri Feb 25, 2005 12:03 pm

The last time I wanted to si and it was all I could think about I couldn't take it. So I threw away my blades and went for a chat with my teacher about my coursework. It was boring as hell, but it helped.
The time before that tho, I was at home and went to see my grandmother. she's had her arm amputated, and it made me realise how lucky I was to have an arm to cut in the first place. So it stopped me from wanting to do it. Wierd but true.
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Post by Thunder_chey » Sat Feb 26, 2005 1:08 am

Oh and summer is comming and I dont want to have to explain the new batch of scars. Specialy since my little cosin notices everything. Told her lastyear they were burns from work. (not true) I dont like to lie to my little cosin. So im not going to phisicaly harm myself but I do send myself on emotional rollercosters several times a day and some days the urge is strong. But I think I would miss my friend Belinda too much. I would miss my little cosin. I would miss my friend Krys too.

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Post by dark_aura » Sat Feb 26, 2005 12:44 pm

Me and my brother had got into a fight...But instead of SI-ing,I thought of a friend (who doesn't know) mind you,and what she would say if she knew...She's really cool so I dunno..And she's leaving school soon so that piece of a reason will be lost soon...I know it's dumb,but when I talk to her I feel a good bit better...And I didn't need to SI to do it....

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Post by angel1 » Sat Feb 26, 2005 4:48 pm

I thought about my gf and how much it hurts her when I si. I don't want to hurt her anymore to I didn't si.
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Post by dark_aura » Sun Feb 27, 2005 2:48 pm

because i refused to give in..21 days without a slip..Maybe I'll get to 1 year...Maybe.

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Post by VowsOfSadness » Sun Feb 27, 2005 3:19 pm

I was with friends something stopped me but I could have but I didnt I want to get those damn stickers.
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Post by defensive_spikey » Mon Feb 28, 2005 11:09 am

when i want to hurt myself i think about my boyfriend who would be upset and disappointed. he helps me to stay strong.

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Post by Twitter Mouse » Mon Feb 28, 2005 4:48 pm

I thought of my dog, and bought gourmet dog cookies with the money I had with me for tools.
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by dark_aura » Tue Mar 01, 2005 8:59 pm

I didn't because I again thought of this person and the expression on her face...

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Post by demidivine » Tue Mar 01, 2005 10:03 pm

i thought, i'll see what happens in the next ten minutes. if it's still sh*t, i will. and it wasn't. it was better.

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Post by soul sista » Tue Mar 01, 2005 10:35 pm

i thought about my religion and my friends and how i hav come this far why let it slip away again

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