Secrets(inspired by PostSecret)-Please Stay Safe!

Nazgul · Post by **Nazgul** » Wed Jan 04, 2006 3:15 am

when I was little I was cruel to animals ( a friend's cat). nobody IRL knows this. NOBODY.

sometimes people make me so mad I really want to kill them but I act like I'm just joking. I'm scared if I get psychotic again what I might do.

I think I might be masochistic.

Every time I think a girl looks pretty I get scared that I might be bi. Even though I don't want that kind of relationship with a woman.

I'm scared to have sex, even after I find "the right guy" and get married. This is because I was SAed, even though not r*ped.

I'm embarrassed that I'm making this post.

PMs or posts in my Place (sorry I don't know how to link) are welcome

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Wed Jan 04, 2006 10:29 am

(Double post.)

jaded melody · Post by **jaded melody** » Wed Jan 04, 2006 10:29 am

If i get diagnosed with EDNOS i think i will kill myself because it will mean that im not good enough at losing weight/being thin to be anorexic.

PMs welcome.

marshmallowfluff · Post by **marshmallowfluff** » Wed Jan 04, 2006 4:28 pm

i dont want to get better yet. i'm not ready.

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Thu Jan 05, 2006 2:04 am

I haven't SIed in three days, I'm scared I won't want to again.
I'm a sick, horrible person, I shouldn't want to keep SIing.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Jan 07, 2006 5:14 pm

PM's are fine

- i think i'm falling in love
- i'm scared of screwing it up again though
- i'm scared that because i'm so far away at uni that you'll stop loving me
- i'd be lost without you
- i don't know if i could take it if you did stop loving me
- i'm trying to trust you, i know that i can, but part of me still tells me that i shouldn't. that i'll get hurt if i do.

Not_what · Post by **Not_what** » Sat Jan 07, 2006 5:23 pm

I'm fed up of taking the blame, although it's probably my fault.
I wish I had the strength to SI
I wish I had the control to not eat ever again
I'm a fraud

Replies/whatever are welcome

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sat Jan 07, 2006 8:01 pm

one phone call has made me feel so much better and less lonely.

but its also made me want to run back home and see him again.

oneWayOneLifeOneLove · Post by **oneWayOneLifeOneLove** » Sun Jan 08, 2006 5:18 am

PMs are fine

I completely hate myself

I I lie to my parents and ppl all the time

i have no idea of who i actually am

i have no idea of y ppl hate me so much

sometimes i wish i could just be sent away so i wouldn't have to deal with certain things any more

it seams that latlely i havnt been able to stand my family at all

im afride to talk 2 any one any more bc im gonna end up anying them or there gonna hate my for what ever it is im telling them

i think theres verry few ppl i havent ever lied 2

i kind of what someone to help me and make me all better but im 2 afride 2 tell any1 everthing to make me better

Catylyx · Post by **Catylyx** » Sun Jan 08, 2006 5:42 am

pm's are good...

Even though i know it wasn't my fault...i still feel like it was when i was sa'ed the first time. My cousin molested me...

i was too young to know what was going on....all i knew was that it wasn't right.....

i was molested by a stranger when i was 10/11 ...i was walking through my apt complex and he just grabbed me....

i tried to kill myself...but i hadn't eaten anything for weeks so i started throwing up...my step dad was right there and he never knew.

Nick kissed my wrist when i showed him my cuts. .....i never told anyone that....but it made me feel more loved than i ever had been.

i've stopped eating again...and nobody's noticing.

i hate sleep.

.......

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Sun Jan 08, 2006 2:07 pm

replies ok

i convince myself that people hate me so that i feel less guilty about pushing them away.

steady hands · Post by **steady hands** » Tue Jan 10, 2006 6:57 am

*everything ok*

I can feel myself going slowly downhill again.

I want to swallow the entire new bottle of tylenol just to see what it feels like and if it'll kill me.

god, i'm so ashamed.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Tue Jan 10, 2006 2:13 pm

pm's ok

im scared of ever really getting better so i deliberately mess it up everytime i try

VowsOfSadness · Post by **VowsOfSadness** » Wed Jan 11, 2006 7:40 pm

Im at the end
on the verge

I have been giving my friends little hints and clues but they havent noticed or they dont care or havent done anything.

I just try to release these feelings but nothing ever goes away.

I guess there is something wrong with someone who has so many friends who dont want her. I am an invisible friend.

And yes I'm mean and push them away because they are leaving me. I said I hate all my friends and want them to die but I guess I'm just so hurt and pain makes you say things, but it doesnt matter cause its as if they dont care either way.

all of them togather w/o me

PMS very VERY welcome

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Thu Jan 12, 2006 3:21 am

*replies welcome*

i'm still in love with him. he cheated on me for seven months, with his ex-girlfriend. and i took him back.

i don't trust him.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Jan 12, 2006 4:34 am

i want to purge so bad

i plan to starve myself tomorrow

flipflopfetish · Post by **flipflopfetish** » Thu Jan 12, 2006 4:41 am

I really want to go to the concert, but I don't know if it's worth being in the car with my mom.

Callisto · Post by **Callisto** » Thu Jan 12, 2006 2:51 pm

i only believe that people love me if they tell me everyday because im so insecure

glass angel · Post by **glass angel** » Fri Jan 13, 2006 6:20 pm

he stops me from self-harming and i resent him for it

ghoulie13 · Post by **ghoulie13** » Fri Jan 13, 2006 7:28 pm

today's secret..

i love over-alls and i buy them. i never wear them

bus

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