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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by skram » Mon May 10, 2010 5:47 am

i thought that joining the army would help me figure out things and love myself
but in reality i am so much more alone lost and confused

i ignore reality because the world is to much of an evil sin-filled dark place
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Post by strider 151 » Mon May 10, 2010 7:17 am

i dont want a bf because i'm scared of commitment, scared to loose, scared of choices, and scared that it will rip me apart. i have seen what it did to my family, i dont want that. i have experianced love, and it hurt. maybe i will become a nun....
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Post by ForgottenMemories » Tue May 11, 2010 6:29 am

I think I'm in love with my best friend. I think I have been for years.
You can have peace or you can have freedom. Don't ever count on having both at once.
There's a drive in me that won't allow me to do certain things that are easy.
This was freedom. Losing all hope was freedom.
I just don't want to die without a few scars.
One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.
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You've got to burn me. Make me bleed. Turn my pain into fantasy. And if I scream it's only just, love can hurt much more than lust.
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Mon May 17, 2010 12:27 pm

I thought last night was a one off but i feel just as shitty today. I try to be positive but deep down I'm still that self conscious kid who feels like she'll never be good enough.
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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sat May 22, 2010 1:26 pm

I cant do it again
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Post by capricorn » Sat May 29, 2010 5:46 pm

I used to invent characters in my head and 'become' them. And truly believe I was them. Until I was sixteen.
And I miss those days. Things felt easier.
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Post by strider 151 » Sun May 30, 2010 10:20 pm

i look at porn and i know i shouldnt, i look at thinspos and i know i shouldnt, sometimes i couldnt care less how you feel
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

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Post by MusicalMorphine » Tue Jun 01, 2010 3:26 pm

I'm so scared, I don't want to fail. I need help, I need to get things moving now.
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Post by Peege » Wed Jun 02, 2010 10:28 pm

I've just realised I'm a terrible mother.

And the birds up on the wires and the telegraph poles
They can always fly away from this rain and this cold

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Jun 08, 2010 1:30 am

Peege wrote:I've just realised I'm a terrible mother.
No you're not :(

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I think I'm making it up.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Tue Jun 08, 2010 8:40 pm

im getting seriously worried now :(
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
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"Let Go and Let God"
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Post by Twinky » Tue Jun 08, 2010 8:54 pm

I wish people treated their children better. I don't like being hated for doing what's right and what I have to do
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Post by Sprinklez » Wed Jun 09, 2010 7:50 pm

I'm done trying to heal him. I've finally realized, only he can help himself.
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Post by Twinky » Thu Jun 10, 2010 12:04 am

This really hurts
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Post by Geordie » Tue Jun 29, 2010 4:22 pm

I need you, Matt. You were my world. It wasn't about love - not the romantic kind. I wasn't - I'm NOT - in love with you. But I need you. You were the only person, the only person in my entire life to make me feel like I was okay, like I wasn't bad, like there isn't something intrinsically WRONG with me. But I scared you away, and now I know I am. There is something wrong with me. I could have shared you with her; I didn't want from you what your girlfriend had. I just wanted your friendship. Losing you is what drove me to self-harm, to needing theropy, to three suicide attempts. That feeling of connection - losing it was like someone took away my air. Its been two years since we were really friends. I'd still give up everything in my life for you. I'd die for one more day with you as my best friend. I love you Matt. I love you and I need you and I don't think I can do this without you. But I have to because I screwed it up and you're not coming back.

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Post by xPeggiePatchx » Tue Jun 29, 2010 5:04 pm

Anyone who knows me, knows I'm incredibly perceptive.
I notice things about people, thing everyone else is blind too.
I know when people aren't okay. I see all the little tricks they have to mask their insecurities and pain.

I see this stuff, becuase I live it.
And I'm desperate for someone to look at me, and see what I see when I look at everyone else.
I want somebody to notice that I'm not okay.
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Post by volta » Tue Jun 29, 2010 5:51 pm

i know my family's dysfunctional.
they all think we're normal.
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Thu Jul 01, 2010 6:11 pm

I can't do life alone. I don't know what to fucking do anymore, I feel like I'm losing myself again. I hate this. I just want to have a life, I want to have people who love me.
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Post by strider 151 » Sun Jul 04, 2010 9:54 am

i'm letting ED into my life, i welcome it with open arms. i want it to take control of me.
PBH, Telling my parents, My place - All welcome [hugs, stars, challenges, questions are all ok :gooddeal: :Fade-color

In the end, it doesnt matter where you have been or who you were,
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