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Post by 5th section » Sat Nov 04, 2006 4:04 pm

I wish you wouldn't say things like "I'm not worried about you" and "I know you can take it". I know you mean well with stuff like that but it makes me feel like there's no-one I can rely on. I might not be around all the time but I'm going through the same as you.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
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Post by Abba's Girl » Sat Nov 04, 2006 7:15 pm

To my whole family - why can't you tell me you love me? I tell you I love you whenever I talk to you, and I mean it from the bottom of my broken heart. I hold on because I don't want to hurt you, yet you hurt me everytime you say "you too", rather than actually saying those three simple words. What have I done that's so wrong that you can't tell me you love me? I want you to know how much I need you, how much I love you - and yet you just ignore those needs. You say I love you to others - whether you mean it or not, I don't know - but that's all I want from you. I don't care about money, I'd live on my own for the rest of my life, if only you'd tell me you love me. I don't want to die knowing that my own parents and brother didn't think enough of me to say they loved me.
But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within. Unveil me, completely. I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask my frailty, because you see - the real me. And you love me, just as I am.

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Post by Callisto » Sun Nov 05, 2006 4:11 pm

i'm not picking on you.

im sorry.

i miss you.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Sun Nov 05, 2006 6:56 pm

thank you so much for reminding me that i don't need him... being with you made me see that he's not the only possibility... i don't need his dysfunktional ways... there are alternatives... thank you for showing me...
i know it was probably a one night thing... but still... thank you... maybe this was what i needed to get out of this thing...
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Post by 5th section » Sun Nov 05, 2006 9:31 pm

I don't want to sound aggressive by saying this because that's not how I feel. But isn't it my business who I tell about what's worrying me? I know it's for the best reasons but you have to trust me a bit. I know what I'm doing.
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)

son of ultimate starshine / brother of Eisa & Sprink / Birdie's ornithologist / married to Mande / Chey's uncle
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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...

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Post by Abba's Girl » Sun Nov 05, 2006 9:48 pm

I've never felt like I fit in with ya'll. You all have your own cliques and though you 'let' me hang out with you, you never really care for what I think or what I'd like to do. I only keep hanging out with you because it's what everybody expects me to do. I wish you all could see me for who I am and what I have to offer you.
But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within. Unveil me, completely. I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask my frailty, because you see - the real me. And you love me, just as I am.

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Post by red umbrellas » Mon Nov 06, 2006 12:50 am

i hate the way you're making me feel. you make me feel small, worthless and unnecessary. more so than i do.
if i want to feel that way, you're not the person i should be turning too.
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Mon Nov 06, 2006 5:29 pm

When you made up with her part of me was slightly disappointed because it gave us more time together. I know it's selfish and I do want you to be happy, but I feel like you have a closer bond with them than me and I'm scared you are telling them more than you tell me.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Mon Nov 06, 2006 8:50 pm

shut up and leave me alone! you don't love me... you say you do but you don't... you're only around for one thing... you make me feel guilty about telling you no... you're never here when i'm down! you don't even want to hear it... i don't need you anymore... i've moved on... for real this time... if you're going to be in my life it'll be on my premisses and only if i say so... i'll not be used by you again...
i know i've told you before... but this time it's actually true... i'm not just trying to make it true... i'm over it...
/May

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Post by tattybluetrees » Mon Nov 06, 2006 9:19 pm

I love you. If you asked me I would marry you tomorrow and have your babies.

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Post by Windswept Thumb » Mon Nov 06, 2006 11:18 pm

I love you and I will miss your presence in my life forever. I feel like a piece of my soul died today.
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Post by RainyDays » Tue Nov 07, 2006 5:48 am

If you had replied that night, I wouldn't have OD'd. I'm sorry.

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Post by Abba's Girl » Tue Nov 07, 2006 5:57 am

Why do you insist on hurting me everytime you see me? Can you not say something nice - or at least just not say something mean? I know I'm not perfect - believe me I know. But I don't need you to remind me all of the time. If you only knew how much every word you say cut me to the core - then maybe you would understand why I do this to myself. But you don't bother to see.
But you see the real me, hiding in my skin, broken from within. Unveil me, completely. I'm loosening my grasp, there's no need to mask my frailty, because you see - the real me. And you love me, just as I am.

<img src="http://www.toxin.org/cgi-bin/count_hugs ... =AbbasGirl" height="40" width="240" title="HUGS">
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Post by k h » Tue Nov 07, 2006 12:42 pm

you think that decidion was easy for me, well maybe we will all find out how uneasy it was soon
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Post by April » Tue Nov 07, 2006 1:12 pm

I'm so nervous. I haven't seen you in months. I have no idea what you want from me. Or what I want from you.
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Post by Kaleb » Tue Nov 07, 2006 11:11 pm

sometimes i wish i knew what i did to make you hate me
i mean for goodness sake i have a name ok .......and its not THING or IT sometimes i wish you could see that when you call me that it hurts me more than anything i could ever do to me

so i have a question

Why do you hate me what did i do wrong ??
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Post by sockr28 » Wed Nov 08, 2006 3:29 am

i am so glad that you finally broke up with her. it was tearing me apart seeing you with her and the things that she did to you. you deserve better. i am sorry that i never said how i feel. i just didnt have the strength. i just want you to be happy!

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Post by (*Haven*) » Wed Nov 08, 2006 5:46 am

D ~ The only reason I haven't attempted is because of you. Thank you for being there even though you didn't know I needed you.

K ~ Fuck off. You think you fucking know everything but truthfully, I don't believe half the crap you say.
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Post by lotus » Wed Nov 08, 2006 5:54 am

i miss you daddy. i know you'd understand. you should be here. why didn't you fight harder to be? why did you leave this for me to deal with alone? i need you. my daddy.
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Post by Peege » Thu Nov 09, 2006 1:53 am

occasionally you are the one reason to live that i can see, when i want to.
and when you go, which i know you will, i will be left with nothing and no reason to carry on.

part of me wants to cling to you. a bigger part wants you to go now.

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