Strike Back of Secrets! [The Secrets Thread - Read 1st Post]

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by amyfairy » Tue Oct 09, 2007 12:15 am

so many talented ppl
i feel useless in comparison.

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Post by rawhead » Tue Oct 09, 2007 3:48 am

the only reason i post on this website, s because i think maybe there will be just one person, that can save me.


so far, noone even replies.
i would just rather die anymore.
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Post by Li'lRuby » Tue Oct 09, 2007 4:14 am

So many secrets. Where to start?
The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by wilson » Wed Oct 10, 2007 4:33 pm

i know what i need to do to get out of this loop. but im too afraid to do it.
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
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im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by powdahchica » Wed Oct 10, 2007 7:13 pm

I really care about you. I do. But I worry that if she really wanted to try and make something work, I'd have to go back to her. She was my first, and I don't know how to have her hold less power in my imagination.
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Post by fadingbutterfly » Wed Oct 10, 2007 8:56 pm

I'm heading for a complete breakdown

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Post by mephistopheles » Thu Oct 11, 2007 2:14 am

sometimes i wish i was straight :-?

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please call me.
please. otherwise idk how i;ll get through tonight
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Post by Scatterbrain » Thu Oct 11, 2007 2:26 am

I dont know, dammit. I'm sorry. But I have no fucking clue whats going on with me right now.

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Post by Arcana » Thu Oct 11, 2007 2:48 am

I still like you way too much for my own good, you know.
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Post by Beasty » Fri Oct 12, 2007 2:02 am

As much as I say that I don't like her anymore, it's probably not true. When she bit me today, I remember how much I wanted to kiss her.
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Post by Li'lRuby » Fri Oct 12, 2007 2:31 am

I cut again. Second slip.
So sorry.
So angry.
So depressed.
So ashamed.
It's not worth it. Why do I keep going back, though?
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The old grey donkey, Eeyore stood by himself in a thistly corner of the Forest, his front feet well apart, his head on one side, and thought about things. Sometimes he thought sadly to himself, "Why?" and sometimes he thought, "Wherefore?" and sometimes he thought, "Inasmuch as which?" and sometimes he didn't quite know what he was thinking about.
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Post by Callisto » Fri Oct 12, 2007 9:15 pm

i deserved to be raped. it was pay back for being the child my mother never wanted.

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Post by amyfairy » Fri Oct 12, 2007 11:07 pm

i really want to stop eating
but i won't
i did years ago and i am unable to do so again
i eat loads
serously

and i get angry with people with ed's
cause they can't see what they're doing
so self-focused (i know, i'm a bitch)
look around at the world!!
they have everything, and so much more.

but i think i maybe get annoyed cause i'm jealous??
and i want it to be me
so i find a way of breaking it down
(cognitive dissonance, whoop go psych student :roll: )

i'm not that nice a person really, am i.

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Post by wilson » Sat Oct 13, 2007 10:06 am

i dont know how to stop living this way
<center>R.I.P. 23/07/89 - 05/11/01
R.I.P. 1953-2008

counting stars

im over existing in limbo
im over the myths and placebos
i dont really mind if i just fade away
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Post by vampirelover » Sat Oct 13, 2007 11:24 am

I think I deserved everything thats happend to me.

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Post by Spidey » Sat Oct 13, 2007 7:14 pm

i've been reading back through the last couple pages of this thread.

i want to remind people that you are wanted, loved, and cared for, at least by ONE person in this world.

so before you write secrets about how you wish ill about yourself, bear that in mind. the world sucks, but not everything about it has to.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
-marya hornbacher

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(spidey ever onward)

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Post by Beasty » Sat Oct 13, 2007 8:35 pm

The only way I've made it through today is by being stoned off my ass. How wonderful.
"No boom today. Boom tomorrow. There’s always a boom tomorrow. What? Look, somebody’s got to have some damn perspective around here. Boom, sooner or later. BOOM!" - Susan Ivanova

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Post by fadingbutterfly » Sat Oct 13, 2007 9:14 pm

It's been 5 years since you left and I do still think of you. I really hope you are at peace now.

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Post by Callisto » Sun Oct 14, 2007 12:43 am

i think that i am most probably not ok right now.

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Post by me12323 » Sun Oct 14, 2007 12:35 pm

I am angry because he told me in front of the t that he doesn't love me anymore. Not when I am this way. It was 4 years ago and I still cannot get over it.

I am so pathetic

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