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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by caged bird » Thu Nov 13, 2008 6:05 pm

why didn't you ask me why it had been so long, convince me to go, to change things.

i wish you understood me better sometimes
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Post by joho » Thu Nov 13, 2008 10:02 pm

WHY DO YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE HATE ME? WHAT DID I DO. God i love. what's wrong with me, preps. why? why did u torture me tease mehate me why what the fuck i hate you you suck bitches kill fuck you all i wish i could wrap a cord around your necks get rid of you all i'm sorry to say but YOU HAVE RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE. i can't live. can't work function hate myself hate you. God I love. what's wrong with me why why[/b]

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Post by Inthebox » Fri Nov 14, 2008 7:28 am

I just need to stay away from you or I will need you too much
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Post by PLAIN JANE » Fri Nov 14, 2008 9:04 am

I want to help..........don't know how

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Post by 5th section » Sat Nov 15, 2008 3:23 pm

I'm trying! Give me a chance!
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Sat Nov 15, 2008 9:28 pm

i really hope i didnt do anything to make you feel bad and if i did i hope you tell me cause i feel bad that i did and i want to know but i dont want to ask incase its nothing to do with me

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Post by caged bird » Sat Nov 15, 2008 9:47 pm

i, just can't anymore, i'm sorry
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly

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Post by joho » Sun Nov 16, 2008 6:44 am

God. i hate myself. i hate you for it. bitch i hate you suck i can't stand this. Repeat, I CAN'T STAND THIS. I can no longer take this. i hate you. hate.

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Post by 5th section » Sun Nov 16, 2008 8:25 pm

Get yourself sorted! I've put a shitload of work into this & what precisely have you done?
...then one day I realised that the people you see in waiting rooms and car parks and on trains are really far more interesting. That they all have whole novels inside them, a fabric of scar tissues, photos and memories. They are comedies and tragedies and - more often - both at the same time.
- Anna James (1984-2007)

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- my band (or more accurately, the band of which I am the bassist) some SI/SU triggers in lyrics...proceed with caution...

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Post by WildChild101 » Mon Nov 17, 2008 12:20 am

im trying to be angry with you cos its easier than hurting so muchh
i love you. i probs always will, but you have no idea what your doing to me. i cant look at you. i cant even cry at the moment. my heart isnt healing as well as i thought it would and i want to punch your face in but i just want you to hug me and say your sorry and you loved me all along and youve made a big mistake.
but its not going to happen is it?
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Post by gravity_defiant » Mon Nov 17, 2008 12:22 am

No, I'm not OK. But thanks for asking.

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Post by WildChild101 » Mon Nov 17, 2008 1:15 am

when you ask if im okay and i say yes, ask me if im sure.

i feel so completely alone.
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Post by Pissenlit » Mon Nov 17, 2008 3:06 am

Fuck you. Fuck you fuck you fuck you I don't understand people. Why are people assholes? Why are people mean? Why doesn't anybody give a shit? What did I do wrong? I'm too slow to figure it out by myself. I don't care. I give up. Fuck you all. I may be slow socially, but at least I don't treat everyone like shit. Fuck you.
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Post by Ruby Tuesday » Mon Nov 17, 2008 7:56 am

When I wake up feeling shitty and anxious, I really don't need the suggestion that I've purposefully made you feel shitty too. :-?
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Post by Stefani140 » Mon Nov 17, 2008 8:21 pm

Why do you think its ok to say "I have an important question for you" then say you'll ask me later and leave? You know how paranoid I get. How could you not know I'd sit here until you come back and bite my nails and worry about that question? That's what I do every other time, maybe your trying to torture me.
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Post by daisy_chain » Tue Nov 18, 2008 1:11 am

I was afraid that you would judge me if i told you. Thats why i didnt. Im not sure if that is just paranoia on my part, or whether there is some truth in that. I desperately want to reach out, but i dont know if i can trust you- even if not explaining makes you think i am just a bit strange. I'm torn.
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Post by myfriendscallmeerika » Tue Nov 18, 2008 4:58 am

to d- i know that you si...or at least that you used to. and you know that i do... or at least that i used to. so could we talk about it please? cuz i've never talked to anyone irl about my si and i would really like to.

to c- you know what you did and i know what you did and i fucking hated you for a long fucking time because of it. and it fucked up my life for a long time. but i dont hate you anymore because that hate just turned me ugly inside and its not fucking up my life anymore because im not letting it. but i still think you're a sorry piece of shit.

gosh that feels good just to write it.

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Post by ambivalent red » Tue Nov 18, 2008 4:20 pm

Dr G- I'm SU and need major help. I cant keep going on- but I cant let my husband go threw my SU. It would break his heart.
Please help me get past this. Whatever I need to do I will do.

H- I'm sorry you have a fucked wife. I wish i could change. If I could I would have your babies and be the best wife in the world. But my mind wont let me do it. I'm sorry, you got some damaged goods here.
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Post by WildChild101 » Tue Nov 18, 2008 10:39 pm

i dont care about you
i dont care about you
i dont care about you
i dont care about you
i dont care about you

i keep trying to tell myself. it isnt working.
i dont know whats happening to me. ive given up.
i love you to the end

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Post by DecemberLivy » Tue Nov 18, 2008 11:08 pm

stop fucking telling people the dog is dying. I'm fucking sick of your defeatist attitude, anything happens and thats it- you give up and say 'oh its inevitable'. How dare you tell people the dog is dying when the dog is merely sick, how fucking dare you! I can't believe that at your age you haven't worked out that one setback does not mean failure. Your negative attitude towards this is bringing me down and not creating a positive healing atmosphere for the dog. He doesn't need you to give up on him, he needs you to have faith. It's nice to know that you love him so much that at the first sign of trouble you give up. You are over twice my age, you should be ashamed of yourself. Grow the fuck up.
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