Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Quiet little Angel » Mon Oct 23, 2006 4:43 pm

you said you love me... but i don't care! you were drunk and you pissed me off you can't take it back by claiming you love me... you don't want to be my friend if i take away the possibility that we might be together... once that's gone you'll be gone too... yeah that pissed me off... it's the truth and i asked to hear it long ago... it pisses me off that you had to be drunk and i had to pressure you into telling me what's really going on... i though we had a special friendship... i even seriously considered making more of it... even with you going off to war in a couple of months... but now? i'm not so sure... i still see you as a friend, a very dear one... and i would hate for you to go and get killed if i wasn't there to say goodbye... but i can't be forced to love you... and i wont... i don't think... i might if i felt you were ever really there for me... like you used to be... but now all i hear is how you'd very much like to shag me and quite frankly it will not happen again... ever! not as long as there are no strings... and neither of us want strings... so either you be my friend, you try to love me without sex or you get the hell out of my life! i don't need you to keep messing with my head i can manage that quite well on my own... thank you...

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Post by Callisto » Mon Oct 23, 2006 7:50 pm

so I'm a bitch for having an opinion am i? thanks for that

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Post by Guest » Tue Oct 24, 2006 9:33 am

I'm not allowed to feel?
I'm not worthy of feeling?
And if I do feel I'm a complete bitch.
Look at yourself.
I hate you.
I wish I could tell you that.

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Post by Guest » Tue Oct 24, 2006 6:12 pm

Tell me. Please. You're not being fair - leaving me dangling like this. I need to know where I stand with you. Please. I'm sorry. I told you I'm sorry. You told me not to say sorry. So what am I supposed to do? I am sorry. I should've listened - I didn't. Yeah, I'm a bitch, a selfish cow, I know all that. I'm sorry. So sorry. Just let me know where you are with me. Please.

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Post by Guest » Tue Oct 24, 2006 7:54 pm

The above was to G, as is this

I hate you.
You're not a friend, a fake, a liar.
Why can't I tell you what I think of you?

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Post by ViolinPlayingGoat » Wed Oct 25, 2006 10:20 pm

how? how can you just let him off? he's just going to go and do the same fucking thing again, but it'll get worse. how can you just think we are all lying?
why would we put ourselves through that awful experience, get stressed for weeks, just cos we had a grudge against him?

we were telling the truth. we are telling the truth.
why don't you believe us?
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Post by MusicalMorphine » Thu Oct 26, 2006 11:11 am

I wish I could help you, it hurts me to see this. I want to say something but I don't know how or what I could say.


You have a way of making me feel like shit everyday. Why does everything have to turn into an arguement? And it's always my fault isn't it?

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Post by _MessedUp_ » Thu Oct 26, 2006 11:42 am

I miss you :cry:
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Post by Guest » Thu Oct 26, 2006 2:55 pm

I love you. :(

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Post by Anistasia » Thu Oct 26, 2006 5:08 pm

All you had to say was "Dont go".

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Post by fuyumi » Thu Oct 26, 2006 9:12 pm

all you have to do is listen and reply once in a while, instead of just ignoring me all the time. that's all. so yeah, it IS your fault that i turned out this way.


...although i'll probably say the opposite tomorrow.

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Post by lollypop » Thu Oct 26, 2006 9:44 pm

Please just acknowledge me and send me a text or email. I know you're wrapped up in work and hate being abroad, but its not much fun being left here on my own all the time either.
I feel like I live alone and you just come back from time to time. I know that's not fair, but that's how I feel right now. Like I'm your slave who works her arse off to please you, but never be acknowledged.
I want to know you think I'm important and mean something to you
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Post by red umbrellas » Fri Oct 27, 2006 12:46 am

i'm sorry. i really am.
i didn't know i mattered so much. i really didn't.
it scares me that i do though. everything scares me
i thought i'd made the right decision. i still think i have.
but i didn't want to hurt you.

ah fuck. i'm sorry i'm sorry.
but why do i have to give things up for you? why do you expect that?
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Peege » Fri Oct 27, 2006 1:28 am

i'm really sorry that my wanting to die freaks you out, but y'know, it kinda freaks me out too. and by the way, suicidal people arent the best people to make others feel better. so fuck off and leave me alone.

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Post by Guest » Fri Oct 27, 2006 10:15 am

I'm so sorry.
I would change time if I could
I wouldn't do this to you
You don't deserve me being a burden to you

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Post by ViolinPlayingGoat » Fri Oct 27, 2006 10:16 pm

how could you go and defend him? that makes me sick.
i wanted to hit you last night. seriously.
you helped him get away with it.
and you're pleased with yourself, pleased with the result.
you must know that there was something wrong going on. you're not stupid.
'cos i am a rocket on fire[[alone on its journey, home to the quickening ground with no-one there to catch it]]
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you do it to yourself, just you, you and no-one else
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Post by Aly » Fri Oct 27, 2006 10:39 pm

I miss you, man. I miss you so very much...
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


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Post by Aly » Fri Oct 27, 2006 11:12 pm

Frankly...I find you beyond annoying. You are entirely self centered. There is never a conversation that doesn't centre around you. Friendship is a two way street. I am not here for your use. I have wants and needs to. Just I know that you will never fulfill them. You're a nice person but...get your head into the real world. Other people exist and their problems matter too. It cannot always be about you. And as mean as it sounds, you're problems are not that big. They are certainly not as big as you make them. And I am so so tired of hearing you whinge on and on about this one thing. I get to the point where I want to scream at you. I know the answer when I ask you how you are. And because of it, I never ask you. But you tell me anyway. You don't seem to get it. I. Dont. Care. Anymore. I don't want to hear. I have far more important things on my hands. And not only do you entirely waste my time by telling me your problems, listening to my advice (which I gave you yesterday, they day before, the day before that, the day before that and further and further back) and then NOT taking it and asking for it again, you drag me down. I dont mind listening to my friends tell me their problems. I really don't. I am glad when they come to me. But I cannot deal with it every single day when it is the same, tiny little problem that has been blown out of proportion...

Go away, get a life, get over yourself and come back when you have. You could have it all if you just stopped being so....self absorbed and stopped making such a mountain out of the smallest of molehills!
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


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Post by Aly » Fri Oct 27, 2006 11:13 pm

I want you back...And if you asked me, I'd be there in an instant....
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.


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Post by Spidey » Fri Oct 27, 2006 11:17 pm

What happened last weekend was not your fault. You had absolutely nothing to do with it - it was just that memories had caught up to me and affected me in a bad way. I had no right to treat you the way I did - I should have told you plainly what was going on inside zee cranium, but instead I lashed out like a coward.
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