Things Left Unsaid - Version 3.0 *Language*
- kittyfever
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I am f-ing sick of you. I'm sick of feeling like I love you more, I'm sick of your non-care, I'm sick of your attitudes, I'm sick of feeling like everything is a lie. I'm fed up with you going to the office even if it's only 2 days a week, it don't think it's fair and I am going to find my own things to do because I'm sick of being jealous of you, and you not giving a sh*t..I can move on too.
I wish you had never even applied to my school, I don't think this is going to end well. How can it when I don't even feel loved? Ugh angry!
I wish you had never even applied to my school, I don't think this is going to end well. How can it when I don't even feel loved? Ugh angry!
- disastercake
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i'm so lost right now i don't even know who this is to, it's awful. i just want SOMEONE to care to be there, and to help me feel better even tho I don't think it's fair to burden others with my problems
you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards,
for there you have been,
and there you long to return..."
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- cheyenne danae
- one of us
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mom~Quit saying you care, if you did you'd have forced me to move to virginia with you, no matter how upset I was. All the shit I've gone through would never have happened if you hadn't let me stay here with my aunt and uncle. I love them, but I've spent the past 11 years of my life wondering what it would have been like if I lived with you...I can garantee I wouldn't feel so depressed/unloved/unwanted/unimportant etc if you'd have cared enough to force me to live with you...
dad~go live with your new family and leave me alone. You chose them over your real kids when you married that biatch 5 years ago. You knew how we felt about her and her kids and yet you still went along with it...as far as I'm concerned you don't exsist so take a hint and get the fuck out of my life!
A.M.W~you're my best friend, I've been depressed for about a year and a half now, why haven't you noticed how different I act? Or how unhappy I am 90% of the time? You've asked what's wrong but you don't seem to truly care....Please think about my actions/moods/feelings and put two and two together...I'm depressed and your clueless!!
M.D.~Dude what the hell? You say you love me one minute then the next all you wanna do is fool around. You said the distance wouldn't affect "us" but apperently you're just like every other mofo I've been with. I'm done...If you love me tell me, if not give me some hint that we can't be together....Quit playing your fuckin games and tell me the truth. I'd rather you break my heart so I can move on then deal with this shit any longer...honestly I don't know which would hurt more...losing you forever or not knowing how you truly feel...
dad~go live with your new family and leave me alone. You chose them over your real kids when you married that biatch 5 years ago. You knew how we felt about her and her kids and yet you still went along with it...as far as I'm concerned you don't exsist so take a hint and get the fuck out of my life!
A.M.W~you're my best friend, I've been depressed for about a year and a half now, why haven't you noticed how different I act? Or how unhappy I am 90% of the time? You've asked what's wrong but you don't seem to truly care....Please think about my actions/moods/feelings and put two and two together...I'm depressed and your clueless!!
M.D.~Dude what the hell? You say you love me one minute then the next all you wanna do is fool around. You said the distance wouldn't affect "us" but apperently you're just like every other mofo I've been with. I'm done...If you love me tell me, if not give me some hint that we can't be together....Quit playing your fuckin games and tell me the truth. I'd rather you break my heart so I can move on then deal with this shit any longer...honestly I don't know which would hurt more...losing you forever or not knowing how you truly feel...
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last date of SI~april 1st 2008 (and I plan to keep it that way)
1,803 miles away from my true love *sigh*
"When the rich wage war, it's the poor who die"~Hands Held High by Linkin Park
"'And so the lion fell in love with the lamb,' he murmured.
I looked away, hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the word.
'What a stupid lamb', I sighed
'What a sick, masochistic lion'
He stared into the dark forest for a long moment, and I wondered where his thoughts had taken him."~Twilight pg 274
1,803 miles away from my true love *sigh*
"When the rich wage war, it's the poor who die"~Hands Held High by Linkin Park
"'And so the lion fell in love with the lamb,' he murmured.
I looked away, hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the word.
'What a stupid lamb', I sighed
'What a sick, masochistic lion'
He stared into the dark forest for a long moment, and I wondered where his thoughts had taken him."~Twilight pg 274
- VowsOfSadness
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im sorry i asked for help
im sorry I worried you
I dont know what I was thinking.
can we just be real friends first. I mean you always call me "best friend" anyway. can you just spend some time with me.
wow im so weird for even writing that too.
oh my god okay whatever
im sorry I worried you
I dont know what I was thinking.
can we just be real friends first. I mean you always call me "best friend" anyway. can you just spend some time with me.
wow im so weird for even writing that too.
oh my god okay whatever
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a
I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
I always love a
Drop by my place & say hi
Ask me anything!!!
I'm fully Recovered!
- MusicalMorphine
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I care so much for you, I only wish you could feel the same. I wanted so much for you to like me, when I would talk to you I would think carefully before I replied because I didn't want to screw up. I miss talking to you, I know we were never close, I tried but I guess I was never good enough for you. But I can never let it go. I'll keep trying in the hope that one day we can be proper friends.
- funkymusic
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Why do you do this to me? I can't understand why you are so obsessed with hurting me? Why do you feel the need to hurt me?? Both of you!
I'm acting angry.
In truth... I'm depressed. No motivation, hopeless, etc. I don't even have the motivation to cut (!!) let alone eat, sleep, do work, talk to someone.
Oh for fuck's sake! All I want is for someone to care about me! That's all I want!
Apparently, it's too much to ask.
I've lost it all. I'm going under. Again.
I'm acting angry.
In truth... I'm depressed. No motivation, hopeless, etc. I don't even have the motivation to cut (!!) let alone eat, sleep, do work, talk to someone.
Oh for fuck's sake! All I want is for someone to care about me! That's all I want!
Apparently, it's too much to ask.
I've lost it all. I'm going under. Again.
- mephistopheles
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- disastercake
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No, i don't know what i'm doing and maybe i am sort of a failure but i don't think so. i'm fine i'm surviving and i'm in school getting good grades on my way to a masters degree. give me some credit
you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards,
for there you have been,
and there you long to return..."
- Leonardo da Vinci
- MusicalMorphine
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- caged bird
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i love woring with you, i feel like you trust me and that i get on well with you, but it hurts so much when you make these comments, i *know* they're not meant, but i can't help wondering if they are, i'm so much less secure then i look.
Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
- powdahchica
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I love you. And I know you're not going to leave N, but I really want to tell you that I love you anyway.
We're two months in, and I think if you let yourself admit it, you really care about me, too. But you won't.
I can't be the only one to risk being vulnerable.
I love you.
We're two months in, and I think if you let yourself admit it, you really care about me, too. But you won't.
I can't be the only one to risk being vulnerable.
I love you.
<a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=121893">Love must be as much a light as it is a flame.</a>
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- disastercake
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hello, i'm not here to babysit your child. you're out there playing video games when you can do that tomorrow before you go to work. i'm leaving for florida nd i wont' see you for a week. thanks that makes me feel great
you will walk the earth with your eyes turned skywards,
for there you have been,
and there you long to return..."
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- funkymusic
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- Licentia Poetica
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I wish you would just do it already instead of just ignoring me.
It's not hard.
"I don't want to see you anymore."
"I just want to be friends"
God, I'd even appreciate a "fuck off!"
I could take it as an affirmation of my worthlessness and sink into depression and it would all be normal again.
Instead, I'm waiting around for the calls that never come, leaving my msn on all the time and chainsmoking at busstops hoping to accidentally on purpose run into you and it's fucking PATHETIC.
It's not hard.
"I don't want to see you anymore."
"I just want to be friends"
God, I'd even appreciate a "fuck off!"
I could take it as an affirmation of my worthlessness and sink into depression and it would all be normal again.
Instead, I'm waiting around for the calls that never come, leaving my msn on all the time and chainsmoking at busstops hoping to accidentally on purpose run into you and it's fucking PATHETIC.
- funkymusic
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- DecemberLivy
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god, I love you so much
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"My life's a mess"
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
"My life's a mess"
"That's the way it's supposed to be" - soap -
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I think I'll paint roads
on my front room walls
to convince myself
that I'm going places.
- caged bird
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when you said you sometimes find it easier to talk to people who've been there i wanted so much to let you know i could relate, that i've been that low, that i've wanted everyone to just leave me alone too, but i can't becasue my job says it doesn't work like that.
i hope you understood anyway
i hope you understood anyway
Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
Thieves and Kings: Volume Two by Mark Oakly
The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
Running with scissors - Augusten Burroughs
I love you so much. I think you're depressed, and I want to help you get help. You deserve so much to be happy.
<center>"You were
water to me
deep and bold and fathoming....
You were
sunrise to me
rise and warm and streaming....
<b>Go to your wide futures, you said.</b>"
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."
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water to me
deep and bold and fathoming....
You were
sunrise to me
rise and warm and streaming....
<b>Go to your wide futures, you said.</b>"
"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."
<b><a href="http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=122444"> My Place!</a></b>
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