who are you right now? *lang trigs*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Scatterbrain
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Post by Scatterbrain » Mon Feb 12, 2007 7:54 am

i am...
-smart
-responsible
-funny
-helpful

i am not...
-dumb
-worthless
-unfunny

i feel...
-tired
-lonely
-generally blah

i want...
-my life to work itself out
-to go to GU next year, but I will probably end up at WWU because of $
-to go to sleep

i need...
-to go to sleep soon
-a hug
-to do my homework

i have...
-a loving family who mean well
-a warm cozy bed that I should go visit

i love...
-Lucy (my cat, not the tv show :tongue: )
-my friends
-my fellow bussers

i hate...
-ignorant people
-people who are judgemental

~Megan
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"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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I am...

Post by lonelykoalabb » Tue Mar 27, 2007 9:26 pm

i am...lonely, angry, frustrated,

i am not...happy, smart, beautiful

i feel...Depressed, sad, lonely, frustrated, and stress.

i want...to be hold tight, be loved

i need...love,

i have...a wonderful therapist

i love...my teddybear. My therapist.

i hate...[/b]my life

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Post by Porcelain_Doll » Tue Mar 27, 2007 9:36 pm

i am... Short. Loved. Wanted. Stronger than i look.

i am not... Beautiful. Thin. Confidant. Able to make it alone.

i feel... Calm. Determined.

i want... To be okay.

i need... A passion.

i have... Someone to catch me when i fall.

i love... My bass. Sunny spring days. Music.

i hate... Not knowing who i am. Being afraid. Being alone. Not being taken seriously.
Never to suffer would never to have been blessed.
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Post by zombiepeople » Tue Mar 27, 2007 11:33 pm

I am...alive, loved by someone, good with animals, a good friend

I am not...dead, thin enough, pretty, happy, normal

I feel...disurbed, sick, hateful, angry at the world, dead

I want...to be normal, away from all the drama, to kill the people who hurt me, to forget...to remember

I need...to be able to calm down, to stop screwing around with my meds

I have...friends who love me, nice pets that love me, a good sense of humor

I love...my friends, my pets, my music, art,

I hate...the people that have hurt me, life, close-minded people, homophobes and racist people, people that throw thier religions in my face, having my hands sticky, being yelled at for being different...oh there are so many things...

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Post by heliotropes » Wed Mar 28, 2007 2:12 am

i am... physically healthy, relatively safe, cut-free, cared for

i am not... dead or dying, evil, hurting people anymore

i feel... sad, empty

i want... someone other than my mum to hold me and let me cry and tell me it will all be okay

i need... to give up giving up, eventually

i have... a future, if I dare to seize it

i love... my mum, my dad, my brother, my friends, my teachers, the mental health professionals who have helped me keep myself alive thus far

i hate.. the old feelings; the guilt, the shame, the unbearable sadness

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Post by cinitrom » Wed Mar 28, 2007 3:31 am

i am...
shit. fat. worthless. hopeless. lazy. selfish. stupid. stupid. stupid.

i am not...
worth your time. worth your effort. funny. pretty. interesting. nice. smart.

i feel...
tired. helpless. headachey. vaguely sick. urgey. sad?

i want...
to hurt. to bleed. to cut. to die.

i need...
to get over this. a hug. new meds. more sleep. self-control. hope.

i have...
a razor upstairs.

i love...
my computer. music. you.

i hate...
me. myself. everything.

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Post by styled_wrong » Thu Mar 29, 2007 10:31 pm

i am ... fat, ugly, struggling, hurting, more than i show.

i am not ... who i want to be or where i want to be.

i feel ... frustrated, angry, confused, upset

i want ... this to stop for me to get my arse in gear and sort myself out

i need ... a break

i have ... means for od, si, poss su

i love ... music, my parents, my friends

i hate ... me, food
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life sucks!

Post by rollerskatinglover » Fri Mar 30, 2007 2:13 am

im having issues with everything in my life! knowing when im coming or going! who to trust and who not to! i dont know if im bisexual or just desperate! i dono if im loved i feel like every day i wanna be dead! :bawl:
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Post by rainbow66 » Fri Mar 30, 2007 5:02 am

I am
Fat
Lonely
Worthless
A mom of 3
A wife
I am not
Happy
A good wife
Healthy
Borderline (i have bpd)
I feel
Sad
Like cutting
Like drinking
Like Quitting therapy
All alone
I want
To be a good wife
To be a good mom
My 2 other kids to live with me
My dad to not be dead
My mom healthy again
Therapy 5 days a week
I need
Sleep
To take my meds every day
My T back from vacation
People to understand me
To lose weight
I have
A family
A good T
A place to live
3 great kids
A husband who loves me
I love
My 3 kids
Most of my family
My husband ( most of the time)
My T
I hate
ME
My therapist not being here for me
Being needy
Wanting to cut
Many people
Being paranoid
Being poor
People expecting me to work

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Post by PassingCloud » Fri Mar 30, 2007 5:45 pm

i am...
intelligent
caring

i am not...
hateful
spiteful
evil.

i feel...
sad
overwhelmed
angry

i want...
someone to hold me
to tell my story. really TELL it. but ican't

i need...
love
affection
safety.

i have...
love
affection
and some safety. but not from my head.

i love...
my gf
my dog
my cat
her dog
her cats
my rats


i hate...
this headache. it's killing me :lol:
my uncles. and sometimes some other people, too.
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[I'm talking about form, I'm talking about content.][I'm talking about inter-relationships.]
[I'm talking about God, the Devil, Hell, Heaven!]
[Do you understand?]
[Finally?]
(one flew over the cuckoo's nest)

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Post by caged bird » Sat Mar 31, 2007 8:57 pm

i am...
hurting
missing my emotions
panicking about work
frightened
Lonely
triggered

i am not...
able to talk to people
going to give into urges
incapable


i feel...
numb
frustrated
upset

i want...
to cry
to cut (although i don't really)
to have someone i can tell everyhting to who will be there for me unconditionally

i need...
someone to support me
to motivate myself to get some work done
to trigger myself into crying so i can get this out of me in a healthy way

i have...
more strength than i give myself credit for
an amazing compassionate nature
a desire to do anything to make the world better for others

i love...
spending time with my friends
feeling happy
being active and involved
feeling free
living
seeing the sunshine

i hate...
feeling depressed
having to fight urges
ignoring my friends
having work to do
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Being almost devastated is horrible because it lingers. But total devastation brings a kind of peace. It lets you give up.
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The line between normal and crazy seemed impossibly thin. A person would have to be an expert tightrope walker in order not to fall.
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Post by balletomane » Fri Apr 06, 2007 1:27 am

i am...
a student
a hard worker
human

i am not...
perfect
stupid

i feel...
tired
worn out

i want...
school to be over

i need...
rest
study time

i have...
homework

i love...
sleep

i hate...
stress

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Post by strmdncr » Sun Apr 08, 2007 7:28 am

i am...
-strong
-caring
-intelligent
-a hard worker

i am not...
-stupid
-a negative influence
-perfect

i feel...
-tired
-achy
-cared for
-scared
-uncertain
-angry

i want...
-to see my sis and her children
-to be anxiety free
-to not need meds
-an email response
-education (bachelors or possibly even masters degree)
-dogs that listen when there are distractions

i need...
-love

i have...
-a family
-my animals
-my values and beliefs
-my strengths

i love...
-my family
-my animals
-my h
-afternoon naps
-dancing in storms
-my stepdaughter
-my friends
-having found bus

i hate...
-myself (sometimes)
-getting angry
-anxiety
-too many diagnosis and yet none at all
-finding my voice = increased stress and discomfort
-having psoriasis
-anger
-feeling overwhelmed
A friend is someone who believes in you even when you've ceased to believe in yourself. (unknown)

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Post by ++Jigsaw++ » Mon Apr 16, 2007 2:47 am

I AM...
Hurting, abused, young, human

I AM NOT...
Okay, your property, afraid of you anymore

I FEEL...
So tired and drained emotionally

I WANT...
To be free

I NEED...
To be free, to sleep

I HAVE...
Good friends, something to hold on for

I LOVE...
My friends, the freedom of the water

I HATE...
him for what he has done to me and her for letting it happen
'Now blow the candle out my dear and make your wish come true...'

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Post by wilson » Mon Apr 16, 2007 4:03 pm

i am...
valued
loved
alive
i am not...
worthless
alone
invisable
hated
i feel...
numb
i want...
to do what is on my mind
i need...
to do what is on my mind
i have...
the power to fulfil what is on my mind
i love...
that i have that power
i hate...
that the power is overwhelming
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im over the myths and placebos
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Post by miffy » Mon Apr 16, 2007 4:45 pm

i am...

kind, caring, sad, lonely, shy

i am not...

intimidiating, rude, attractive, self confident

i feel...


ready to change, optimisitc, scared, intimidated

i want...

to be loved, to be needed, to change, to be happy

i need...


to love myself more

i have...

the chance

i love...

a sunny day, clouds, trees, birds, animals, walking in the hills, so many things

i hate...

myself


Miffy

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Post by FangKing » Fri Apr 20, 2007 9:22 am

i am...
existing

i am not...
sinking under

i feel...
empty

i want...
to see her again

i need...
to try and give a damn

i have...
my own little dream world

i love...
when things just fall into place

i hate...
he better part of society
This is the road that I have created for myself to ride, and now it has come to an END. So now i sit at roads end and stare into the enless distance waitng for a new road to appear before me.

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Post by a shadow in the wind » Sat Apr 21, 2007 11:53 am

i am

inportant to at least one person

i am not

usless
stupid
unwanted
invisible
a coward
a freek
atetion seeking
better of dead

i feel

heart broken
empty
confused

i want

to be happy
to get over her

i need

sombody to want me

i have

the best friends in the world

i love

my best freind
my family
my dog

i hate

how she has made me feel
4 words can explain my life 'i am in love'

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Post by black_23 » Sat Apr 28, 2007 10:53 pm

i am...
nervous, real, crying

i am not...
stupid, that negative

i feel...
scared, alone, overwhemeled

i want...
a hug, someone to look after me, to know it will be ok

i need...
reassurance, sleep

i have...
a b/f who cares, a brave bro

i love...
G, my family,

i hate...
the way i feel, way i seem over serious and hesitant, i hate that bad htings happen to good people

:cry:
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'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath


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Post by steady hands » Sun Apr 29, 2007 12:18 am

i am...
learning.
coping.
trying.

i am not...
a failure.


i feel...
tired.
somewhat indigo.

i want...
to tell you everything.
a hug.
to never have to eat again.

i need...
to eat.
to smoke less.
to sleep.

i have...
things to be thankful for.
the rest of my life to live.

i love...
drinking.
clean socks.


i hate...
insomnia.
knowing i made you cry.

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