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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by southsider » Thu Nov 08, 2007 7:19 am

I would really like to write you an email about all the stuff that's been going on in my life because I know you'd understand.

However, I don't want to intrude.

I wish you could open up to me.

I miss you.
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Post by HakunaMatata » Thu Nov 08, 2007 1:15 pm

I love you.

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Post by caged bird » Thu Nov 08, 2007 1:52 pm

i want to tell you but i son't know why, idon't know what it would achieve (alther than to risk things changing between us) but, i dunno i guess i need you to know how bad i was. at the same time i kinda hope you don't call, i don't know what i'm supposed to say
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Post by shannon88 » Thu Nov 08, 2007 3:19 pm

go back to your husband he treats you so well.. something you admitted... he loves you and the kids
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Post by fadingbutterfly » Thu Nov 08, 2007 3:29 pm

I know you wrote it months ago, that you were attracted to guys, when you told me you weren't. I know you want me but I'm still scared and I have that comment in my head everyday that you are wanting them and not me. I know I'm being paranoid, but please reassure me that it's not true and it's just my mind?

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Post by HakunaMatata » Thu Nov 08, 2007 4:06 pm

M: I need you right now. And it's hurting me that you're hurting but I'm hurting too much myself to be of any use.
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I just wish there was some-one to talk to now, about anything, to keep me distracted from how ill I feel.


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Post by The_Little_Kid » Fri Nov 09, 2007 12:35 am

Jy's die beste vriend wat ek nog ooit gehad het, en ek wens dat ek nie nodig gehad het om geheime te hou teen oor jou nie. Ek hoop ons sal altyd vriende bly want jy's baie belangrik vir my. Ek sal altyd daar wees vir jou as ek kan.

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Post by shannon88 » Fri Nov 09, 2007 2:26 am

wow your being a douche bag
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Nov 09, 2007 4:02 am

why do you pester me constantly and insist on bying my friendship. I do not like you. I do not like your personality. Did it ever occur to you that maby I dont want you as a friend? Stop trying to get close to me then get pissy if i ignore you. I dont like you. Go away!

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Post by southsider » Fri Nov 09, 2007 7:23 am

I fucking hate you for doing what you did and planting the seed of self-doubt in my head. Fuck you. All these years later. Fuck you.
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Post by P. S. » Fri Nov 09, 2007 9:42 am

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After all these years, I can't get you out. I can't think of you without remembering what you did, and I can't sleep at night. I remember how good you were, you were the best older brother in the world- and you were the only person who could cheer me up. I always tell myself it wasn't your fault, that you were sick, and maybe you couldn't help yourself. The therapist said that no one does it just because of OCD. Just what I needed, you know? Another seed of doubt. Another reason to be confused about what happened, and why it happened. I don't know why you would have wanted to do anything like that to your little sister. Sometimes I'm so angry at you, for hurting me like that, but I still love you. I still love you.

I have no one to talk to anymore. And I can't stop remembering. The spring you left I was so numb, I didn't know what to do, and he was so angry with me. I'm sorry I let it come out. I'm sorry I couldn't forget about it. I'm sorry that now you can't come home, that now you wait for your life to get back on track, but god damnit you're NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO GOT HURT. You know, when I was younger I used to cry at night because I was so scared, I used to rock back and forth, block up the door with laundry baskets and cover myself with quilts to try and stay safe. And now I find my life on hold, I can't remember how to care, how to want to get up in the morning. And I can't help but blame you.

I can't help but think you took something away from me. I'm sorry you ruined it. And I'm sorry, because you're my brother, and I'm supposed to be there for you. But you were supposed to be there for me.

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Post by DecemberLivy » Fri Nov 09, 2007 10:19 am

L: I can't express how much I pity you. Not only are you a liar but a hypocrite too. What gives you the right to pick people up and drop them whenever it suits you? You have no respect for anyones feelings. I can't believe you'd have the nerve to tell such lies about me behind my back, to my friends. Did you really not think it wouldn't get back to me? You are a sad, sad little girl and if I'm perfectly honest, a waste of space. You just can't handle the fact that S liked me, not you, so you go about bitch about me stealing him. Get over yourself, the universe does not revolve around you and your stupid opinions.

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Post by Callisto » Fri Nov 09, 2007 1:32 pm

today was supposed to be better and it isn't.

im crumbling.

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Post by shannon88 » Fri Nov 09, 2007 3:06 pm

....i love you
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Post by Callisto » Fri Nov 09, 2007 4:33 pm

J - please please leave me alone and stop asking me how i am/if im getting on with things ok. i just want you to leave me alone. so please go away now.

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Post by shannon88 » Fri Nov 09, 2007 5:21 pm

a- stop calling me all the time im married now and moved on just cause you broke up with your g/f doesnt mean ill get amnesia
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Post by cariad » Fri Nov 09, 2007 8:33 pm

Just a little bit more.
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Post by Chey Kizoxie » Fri Nov 09, 2007 9:08 pm

Thank you L* for your kind words and encouragement. I wish there were more educators like you. You dont know how good what you said made me feel. I just wish I knew how to say thankyou when thankyou seems so inaddiquit.

Chey

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Post by shannon88 » Sat Nov 10, 2007 12:58 am

i dont feel about it..
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Post by pelagic » Sat Nov 10, 2007 8:28 am

you make me feel so fucking alone and worthless, i fucking hate how you are treating me right now and how you are pushing me lower than fucking before. AND STAY AWAY FROM MY FUCKING FRIEND, FUCK OFF, FUCK YOU, DONT YOU DARE SAY THAT SHIT TO HER AGAIN. YOU ARE NOBODY, YOU ARE NO ONE TO ME AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO MAKE HER FEEL SO SMALL, AND MAKE HER FEEL SO..LARGE. FUCK YOU. FUCK FUCK FUCK YOU!!!


and im so stressed out because of you that i cant fix my siggy because i feel like im going to fucking cry FUCK!


and i dont want to go back to where i was before...


and i swear to your god that you must hate me, and yet you always call me and always invite me over and always say how fun it was last time, why do you do this? ar eyou lying to me, mocking me, or do you truly enjoy my company? whatever the reason...thank you, without you i would not be two weeks SI-Free.

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