who are you right now? *lang trigs*

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Priceless » Sat Mar 04, 2006 3:53 am

i am...
intelligent, tired, ego,
i am not...
perfect, thin, beatyfull
i feel...
inadequate
i want...
to be thin
i need...
peace of mind
i have...
pets
i love...
rp
i hate...
myself

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Post by red umbrellas » Wed Mar 08, 2006 9:02 pm

i am...
ill again
tired
trying hard

i am not...
unloved
stupid

i feel...
weak
exhausted
like crying
stressed

i want...
to be told how much i'm loved
to have all this work out of the way
to be healthy again

i need...
love
reassurance
help from my bloody lazy ass lecturer

i have...
friends
family
some nice memories
lovely photos

i love...
my family
my boyfriend

i hate...
my attitude
my fear
my inability to function when i feel ill and low
my tubbiness (which no one else seems to see)
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by ioa » Fri Mar 24, 2006 3:37 am

i am...
generally fake with everyone.
not OK.
a little chubby.
undesirable.
unlovable... people tend to leave me behind.
failing calculus.
on academic probation.

i am not...
obese.
completely worthless.
dumb.
what everyone thinks I am.

i feel...
horrible.
like i want to disappear.


i want...
love. love. love.
someone to love me - and not leave me behind.

i need...
to take care of myself better.
to get an A in calculus (HA!).
to bring up all my grades.
to work harder.

i have...
a sister that loves me.
a cat that depends on me.
lots of scars in well-hidden places.
a personality that few have seen, if any at all.

i love...
my friends - the few I actually have. even though they may not know how much I love them, or give me that love back.
my sister...
my mom...
my kitty....
music - it is my friend always, no matter what.

i hate...
the way my mother doesn't trust me - or think I love her.

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Post by greenybean06 » Fri Mar 24, 2006 2:32 pm

i am...
-A diabetic
-A girl
-A teen looking for the light at the end of the tunnel

i am not...
-A total failure
-A burnout
-An ordinary statistic

i feel...
-Scared
-Cold
-Anger

i want...
-A loving family
-My American Dream
-A cure for diabetes

i need...
-Money
-Insulin
-Help

i have...
-A handful of good friends
-A dependable car
-Almost a life

i love...
-My sister
-My Ex

i hate...
-My parents
Missing: My American Dream...........

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Post by blue-luno-kiwi » Fri Mar 24, 2006 8:40 pm

i am...
-a girl
-a Placebo fan!
-suppose to be stopping si-ing

i am not...
-good looking
-nice to be around when I'm feeling su.
-nasty on purpose
-gonna make it through this evening without si, I know it

i feel...
-depressed
-anxious
-tired
-fed up
-like listening to MCR

i want...
-a hug
-someone to talk to right now
-my parents to understand me
-my friend to come back off holiday

i need...
-a hug
-my razorblade
-and a tissue
-a cup of tea

i have...
-a Placebo hoodie!!!
-a sickly feeling in the back of my throat
-excema on my finger, from drawing too much
-a music lesson tomorrow i haven't practised for

i love...
-art
-music
-Placebo in particular!
-black roses
-watching myself bleed

i hate...
-Arctic Monkeys
-listening to my brother playing Arctic Monkeys on the guitar
-chavs
-other people
-being close to other people
-other people touching me or talking to me
-big crowds
-the human race in general
-life
-the universe
-and everything
An empty house is not a home....
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Post by delicateshadow » Sat Apr 08, 2006 7:52 pm

little girl

36 year old woman

tired and stressed

alone

anxious

wanting to be wanted
In the Dark and the Deep there are truths that can always heal ~ Ken Wilber

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Post by greenybean06 » Sun Apr 09, 2006 2:25 am

Thought I'd give this a try too

i am...
A Warrior
An Angry Teen
Capable of taking hold of my life and destiny

i am not...
Going to give in again
Another statistic
A goth

i feel...
Anger
Pride
Alone
Powerful

i want...
to tell everyone the truth
to not want to hurt myself any more
to be a strong person
to deal with my emotions
to be 'normal'
to be able to be in a relationship
to not have to lie
to be accepted

i need...
love
acceptance
hugs
friends
family
comfort
music
challenges

i have...
loving friends
a wonderful family
a great house
depression
a new cut
old scars
pain
shame
embarrassment
ambitions
goals


i love...
my family
my friends
books
playing guitar
working out
feeling strong
learning
feeling like I belong
understanding things
being accepted
making others happy
being happy
pushing myself to my limits

i hate...
not being able to control how I feel
not being able to reject my depressed identity
feeling trapped
feeling awkward
being judged
letting others down
making others feel badly
not being able to do what I love because I'm depressed
losing sight of my goals
being unsucessful
my parents
Missing: My American Dream...........

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Post by delicateshadow » Sun Apr 09, 2006 3:38 pm

I am..

a survivor
alone
a wild woman
learning to survive

I am not..

going to hurt anyone
crazy
ugly
unloved
always in the wrong

I feel...

tired
strained
lost
anxious
scared

I want...

to be heard
to not be disturbed
to be loved
to look better, to feel better
to be and feel safe

I need...

to not be alone
food
water
acceptance
safety
to be understood
love

I have...

a job
parents
depression and anxiety
possibly PTSD/a dissociative disorder
an honours degree
teaching experience
compassion
imagination
integrity
intelligence
defence/coping mechanisms

I love...

rest
peace
feeling loved and nurtured
nature
cats
understanding more deeply

I hate...

being treated like I don't exist or matter
mental illness stigmas
'space invaders' on public transport
bullying
medication side effects
feeling trapped
In the Dark and the Deep there are truths that can always heal ~ Ken Wilber

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Post by Callisto » Sat Apr 15, 2006 1:58 pm

I am..

shy
fat
alone
scared of hurting others
trying
stuck right now

I am not...

strong
beautiful
a good gf
good with people
ok
worthwhile

I feel...

scared
lonely
empty
sad
left behind
like a freak

I want...

to not be me anymore
to be thin
to be less selfish
for someone to tell me that its ok for me to be me and mean it
someone who knows when to just not say anything at all

I need...

to become motivated again
to work on improving myself
sleep
to talk less
to not give in so easily to temptation

I have...

a boyfriend I don't deserve
a vague idea of what I want to do in life
a desire to help everyone else
a place to live at university next year
too many shoes
low self esteem
too many questions for anyone to answer

I love...

my boyfriend
helping people
quiet
being able to hide from people
my degree course

I hate....

myself
the way I look
my personality
racism
prejudice
crowds
public speaking

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Post by black_23 » Sat Apr 15, 2006 11:13 pm

I am..

me
nice
caring
sane (honest)

I am not..

worthless
selfish
mad
horrible

I feel...

scared
nervous
sad
powerless

I want...

to have someone love me
to know what b/f thinks
to trust
to have someone understand
a hug

I need...

my mum
a smile
someone to keep me safe

I have...

a kinda safe place
my imagination


I love...

my music
writing
the occasional hugs irl

I hate...

feeling invisible
talking to myself
being me
my past
sometimes my present
seeing O sad
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Post by _peaches_ » Wed Apr 19, 2006 3:31 am

I am..

*a girl with fluffy hair
*tired of being me
*shy
*goofy
*a daydreamer
*secretly competetive

I am not...

*fun in the mornings
*going to quit smoking anytime soon
*perfect
*shallow
*sporty


I feel...

*like having icecream
*hopeful
*nervous
*tired


I want...

*a fluffy pillow
*to be more outgoing
*to love me
*to be able to tell my mom i forgive her


I need...

*sleep
*to be more decisive
*new shoes
*love


I have...

*icecream!
*friends
*a boyfriend
*the best job ever

I love...

*my family
*my boyfriend
*my friends
*good books
*walking by the sea at night
*chocolade

I hate....

*me sometimes
*pressure
*injustice
*being late
"I scream in silence for salvation and bleed for hope of a brighter tomorrow." -Endthisday.

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deleted double post .... sorry
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Post by Hisforever » Tue Apr 25, 2006 7:25 am

i am...
*lonely
*tired
*sad
*urgey
*scared

i am not...
*brave
*able
*smart
*perfect
*loved
*adequate
*acceptable

i feel...
*anxious
*pathetic

i want...
*to be happy
*to be thin
*to be loved
*to make my parents proud
*to be safe

i need...
*someone
*friends
*another coping mechanism

i have...
*a wonderful puppy
*faith though wavering at times

i love...
*my puppy
*my family
*Church

i hate...
*me

Hisforever ><>

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Post by ~*Yas*~ » Wed Apr 26, 2006 2:33 pm

i am...
...a woman, not a child, the way some people treat me
...a good person
...heartbroken
...beautiful in every single way
...a bitch when i'm in a bad mood
...intelligent
...universal

i am not...
...a stupid cow (quote from my ex)
...a bitch when i'm in a good mood
...ignorant
...crazy
...a toy, like so many men seem to think

i feel...
...lonely
...happy when the sun is shining
...sad, comes and goes
...a bit weird sometimes

i want...
...to find myself
...to be happy with who i am
...to find love one day
...to travel around the world
...to go sky-diving

i need...
...a lot of affection
...a friend
...understanding
...a sigarette, just ran out :(
...a user's guide for myself... can't seem to figure out which screw is loose...

i have...
...two cats ( Tequila & Baileys :D )
...low self-esteem
...3 months of therapy left before i have to step back into the real world... :roll:

i love...
...K..., damn him for making me love him so much
...photography
...my family
...my cats
...myself, sometimes

i hate...
...myself more than i love myself
...K..., for not having the balls to follow his own feelings
...rainy days
...fake, backstabbing, talking-behind-your-back, hypocrit people
...that i SI

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Post by balletomane » Fri May 12, 2006 12:39 pm

i am...
smart
tired
confused/scared/uncertain

i am not...
bad
worthless
inherently lazy, disorganized, stupid

i feel...
anxious
paralyzed by fear

i want...
a sense of certainty
routine
order
to know what will happen

i need...
help
a dose of courage
a routine
order

i have...
books
a sister
friends
a place to take classes for the summer

i love...
reading
math
mornings
quiet

i hate...
frenzy
uncertainty
self-doubt
nervousness

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Post by septemberstorm11 » Fri May 12, 2006 4:14 pm

i am...alive
i am not...a bad person
i feel...sad and stupid
i want...to be happy
i need...a razorblade
i have...a family that loves me
i love...music
i hate...myself, SI

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Post by Catylyx » Fri May 12, 2006 5:42 pm

I am..

strong
wise
smart
unsure
sad
hurting
scared
excited
cold

I am not...

okay
stable


I feel...

fat
empty
like i'm losing what sanity is left
calm
scared
guilty
afraid


I want...

to believe again
help
a way out
no more tears
to cry
good health

I need...

help
hope
faith
warmth
love
good health

I have...

too many thoughts
too many scars
a lot of stories
faith
pain
an ED
crumbling mind


I love...

him
them
her
my art
my battle wounds
my stories
my faith


I hate....

me
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Fri May 12, 2006 8:49 pm

i am SARAH. I am how i used to be. I'm a happy. I like me :blush:
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Post by little pixie dust » Sun May 14, 2006 6:33 pm

i am...

Weird
Hyper
Exhausted

i am not...
clever
confident

i feel...
Confused

i want...
Salt and Vinger crisps..random eh

i need...
sleep

i have...
Nothing to do

i love...
my family and friends and the weekends

i hate...

school.

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Post by strmdncr » Thu May 18, 2006 4:05 am

i am...
no longer know

i am not...
selfish, bad, insensitive, stupid, lazy, uncaring

i feel...
lost, confused, uncertain, inner turmoil, despair, anger, hurt, sad, defeated, abandoned, used

i want...
to be able to figure out who I am separate from everybody, to be able to see myself as being at least as important as everyone else I care for/about

i need...
love, security, strength, peace

i have...
family that loves me, a husband who loves me, friends, a disturbing inability to give up on myself, lots of animals

i love...
my family, my animals, my husband

i hate...
many aspects of who I am now, people who pretend to listen[/b]
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