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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Sat Dec 23, 2006 7:09 pm

My dream is coming true, but I'm scared that it WILL all work out.

~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )

"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead

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Post by wilson » Sun Dec 24, 2006 2:44 am

i am not immortal. i can die. i want to punish myself for what i have done to the people around me. and i constantly do. one day i will die. and i will punishmyself. im not afraid to die. im afraid to live my life like this. sorry.

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Post by poet with probs » Sun Dec 24, 2006 2:55 am

i honistly dont think that i can make it withought him
i tried to cover it up like nothing ever hapend but it kinda mae me relize that i nead to deal with it
i dont know how to grive

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Post by Seeshellz » Sun Dec 24, 2006 3:29 am

I don't think I will ever be able to be employed again and I am scared
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by HiddenByLies » Sun Dec 24, 2006 8:52 am

i wish she would stop getting drunk. she truly doesn't realize that it affects everyone around her, especially her family...
the worlds her stage the people her crew
she looks so happy to me and you
but inside her body are secrets and lies
they're all her own that she hides behind
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her radiant mask her wonderful grace
but inside she's wondering why she's stuck in this place
but into her being she'll fall and remain
until someone frees her it's all just the same
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Post by finding neverland » Sun Dec 24, 2006 4:21 pm

I wish this would end how I want it to so I stop feeling so vulnerable and open to emotional hurt.

I want to be seen by guys as more than a mate.
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Post by Spidey » Sun Dec 24, 2006 7:53 pm

the more this continues, the more set in my ways i become.

it's not going to work out.

now we just have to find an acceptable way to end it.

i'm sorry, man. i wish this would have worked.

but i know what i am not. at least, though, you have made me more certain.

a man is not what i want as a partner.
there is, in the end, the letting go.
-marya hornbacher

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Post by Seeshellz » Mon Dec 25, 2006 2:52 am

I think I am scared to go on my trip and that's the real reason I am procrastinating packing.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by ComfortablyNumb » Mon Dec 25, 2006 8:39 am

*PM's fine*

I can't tell you guys this, because I love you all too much for it.

I just want to be left alone with my green tea, and my comforter, just leave me the fuck alone. For a little while, I'll be alright, I just need to re-evaluate.

Please?

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Post by Seeshellz » Mon Dec 25, 2006 4:20 pm

I have a relative that looks so dumpy in her bath robe when we go to visit and she puts on an act that's she's something and all, but my goodness, that bathrobe! It looks so ratty, does she realize that?

Just needed to say that, cause I can't say it anywhere else.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Tue Dec 26, 2006 12:06 am

dont like your new hairstyle.
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Post by flipflopfetish » Thu Dec 28, 2006 9:38 pm

I read your place. I cannot express how much better it made me feel because I'm not trying to stop either.

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Post by gin and kerosene » Fri Dec 29, 2006 5:44 am



everything is exactly like it was last year only now I know that the meds dont work and my T is gone. I dont see much point in pretending like im ok so I dont. The people around me mean nothing. The word lonely isnt strong enough to match my insides. Oh if you only knew how hard I tried for the past year...It doesnt mean much now. Not because I dont want it to, or think it does. But because that is reality. "The world is a cold place sweetie so get a jacket". I havent felt alive in so long so wouldnt it make sense that I'd rather be dead.
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Post by Hisforever » Fri Dec 29, 2006 7:14 am

I say "I love you" all the time to you - but I don't really mean it.

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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Dec 29, 2006 7:48 am

I think I want to be an archealogist or work in a museum. You would hate that idea even more than me being just a history major...

~Megan
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
- HCJ (1/9/25- 2/26/08 )

"That there, that's not me/I go where I please/I walk through walls/I float down the Liffey
I'm not here/This isn't happening"
- "How to Disappear Completely" Radiohead

Place: Want to live and breathe/I want to be part of the human race
PBH: Back to the basics

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Post by Callisto » Sat Dec 30, 2006 12:58 pm

getting better feels like im moving further and further away from myself and from being human...and that scares me.

*pm's ok*

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Post by Licentia Poetica » Sun Dec 31, 2006 1:58 pm

4 minutes of 2006 to go..

Half of me wants to desperately hold onto every moment of 2006 that I spent depressed, not wanting to live, terrified of 2007, another year of possibly more struggling :(

The other half of me is happy such a year is FINALLY over, and wondering if 2007 will be a little better than the last few have been..

But :( I'm not counting on it.

*sighs*

pm's fine. I guess.
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Post by Seeshellz » Sun Dec 31, 2006 6:09 pm

I'm using my mental illness as an excuse of why I can't go over to dinner at my Mom and Dad's. They are having my Brother's family there, I guess it does have to do with my mental illness, my anxiety, panic, phobic disorder goes full blown when I have dinner with them all.
"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by Seeshellz » Sun Dec 31, 2006 6:18 pm

My stalker came to visit me today. I talked to him really nice like my therapist said, telling him no I don't want to be his friend, no it wouldn't work, etc...being really nice, even though I was so scared! I hope this is the last time he comes. My therapist thinks this will do it.

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"If you learn from your suffering,

and really come to understand the lesson you were taught,

you might be able to help someone else who's now

in the phase you may have just completed.

Maybe that's what it's all about after all..."

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Post by black_23 » Sun Dec 31, 2006 9:39 pm

I feel like I want to rebel against it all, if you try controlling me and making me disappear I will hit out against it all. It least si makes me feel real.
'Art washes away from the soul the dust of everyday life' Picasso

'IS THERE NO WAY OUT OF THE MIND?' Sylvia Plath


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