Things Left Unsaid *LA*

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Thu Dec 08, 2011 11:47 pm

just so you know, the idea of turning up on sunday scares me shitless.. im so fucking terrified, and you dont have a clue.. i hope you see behind the smile, and realise how much its going to cost me to turn up and be happy and pretend things are still OK..
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by ambivalent red » Fri Dec 09, 2011 3:19 am

I dont know what to tell you. please erase. julio is perfect and the best man for me.
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Post by stripysocks4christ » Sun Dec 11, 2011 10:58 pm

please.. please...please dont do this.. the last time something like this happened i didnt cope, and that memory has haunted me ever since.. i really dont know what i would do should this happen, im panicking at the thought of it.. i cant imagine what it would be like if you went through.. please.. i will beg using whatever means needed.. but please please dont do this..
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"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Licentia Poetica » Tue Dec 13, 2011 10:18 am

here's a thought - fuck you!
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Post by capricorn » Tue Dec 13, 2011 5:55 pm

HAH FUCK OFF.
Grow the fuck up and learn some dignity and decency.
You're a twat.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by capricorn » Wed Dec 14, 2011 4:12 pm

Hey, I have a birthday too ... A little acknowledgement wouldn't go amiss ... :l
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"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
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"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Chey » Wed Dec 14, 2011 10:27 pm

Next time I get a computer I am getting the one **I** want, not the one you at adaptive tech think I should get.


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Post by styled_wrong » Sun Dec 18, 2011 4:07 pm

thats not fucking fair!!! they are good people they dont deserve that!!! how could you let that happen!!!
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Post by capricorn » Sun Dec 18, 2011 11:22 pm

You know its not our fault finding a place for us all to stay is hard.
I'm sorry we haven't got it worked out soon enough for you.
It's not like you weren't terminally disorganised and late for everything and behind and non committal about everything last term, give us a break.
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"Awake and unafraid."
My Chemical Romance


"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey


"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Chey » Mon Dec 19, 2011 4:00 pm

Please stop this unhealthy path your taking. I want to yell and scream at you to stop and look what your doing to yourself but I don't know how to talk to you without you just shutting down and slipping even further.


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Post by knocking » Tue Dec 20, 2011 2:28 am

I'm sorry that I'm such an annoying person. And I know thats its your job to help me with stuff.. But it doesn't make me feel any less guilty for putting my shit onto you.
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they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
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Post by strider 151 » Tue Dec 20, 2011 5:28 pm

im dreading the day when you realise, as i have, that i have nothing left to give. my mind and heart are now really broken, and when you realise how my wild mood swings and crazyness are not just a show for attention, you will run a mile. find someone who is whole and can deal with the strains of life, because this soul has given up.
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by capricorn » Thu Dec 22, 2011 12:47 am

What were you thinking?
Do you give a damn?
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"Awake and unafraid."
My Chemical Romance


"I am haunted by humans."
The Book Thief


"Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I've got a war in my mind."
Lana Del Rey


"It's always darkest just before the dawn. So stay awake with me. Let's prove them wrong."
Rise Against

"I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
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Post by Birdie » Thu Dec 22, 2011 1:59 am

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Post by knocking » Sun Dec 25, 2011 12:51 am

I wish that you wouldn't play these games with me, can't you see that its hurting me..
Knocking grants you the POWER to achieve all of your greatest dreams!!

"Kindness is often mistaken for softness and let me tell you,
friends, that is a mistake you don't want to make.
Kind people are not born that way, they do not stumble into it,
kind people are forged in fire and darkness and imploding stars,
they have steel cores. Throw a punch and you're going to break your hand.
Kind people are kind because they know firsthand that life isn't."

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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by stripysocks4christ » Mon Dec 26, 2011 11:06 pm

please be nice tomorrow.. please, just be nice to me, for once dont embarras me, dont humiliate me, dont put me down.. and dont trash talk my family.. sure, i dont like my rents, but dont complain about the way they brought me up, it isnt their fault.. you know nothing about me, so please just dont say anything.. be nice, be friendly, help me have a nice time.. and dont fuck things up like you normally do.. :L
"Love does not make the world go round... It’s what makes the ride worth while"
"Good friends lift you up when your wings forget to fly"

"Let Go and Let God"
"God will never let us fall without a plan on how to save us"
"For I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength" – Philippians 4:13

"I only lied so I didn't have to see the tears of disappointment in your eyes"
"I don't want the world to see me, cos I don't think that they'd understand..."


xx Kitti xx


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Post by broken123 » Wed Dec 28, 2011 8:12 pm

fuck you. i know your thin, i know you both count calleries, cant u just stop trigging me. i know that you have no idea whats going on but you have no idea how difficult it is for me to listen to it.
But we must keep fighting, because all is never fully lost. There is always something worth fighting for, if we look hard enough.

Can I start again?

I just wish i could love myself, maybe then it wont matter that you never did...


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Post by styled_wrong » Sun Jan 01, 2012 9:44 pm

thats not fair, im there for u all the blummin time but the one time i ask for help where are u?
scars are tattoos with better stories
it's hard to answer the question whats wrong, when nothing is 'right'
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by Kaleb » Thu Jan 05, 2012 11:00 pm

No 'M' I'm not better!!!
No I'm not happier now than I was.
I just got better at hiding it - especially from you!!!!
I still spend almost everyday wishing I was 17 again, just to be back in that time, before everything got this rubbish.
So why don't you just but out and stop acting like you understand!!
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Re: Things Left Unsaid *LA*

Post by desperateforgrace » Thu Jan 05, 2012 11:23 pm

I am afraid of you. I can't be afraid of you. I am afraid that you will find out that i am on here, read my place, and kick me out of the church. I couldn't bear that. I can't bear it. I am sorry for the shit i say about you sometimes. You really are a good person, at least compared to other people in my life. I don't want to hurt her or your family. But now I want to keep my distance. I can't visit you for now anymore. I think it would be safer that way. That way I dont' hurt you, and you can't hurt me. I am sorry I am like this. I think *they* made me like this by hurting me, and now i can't trust you. I'm sorry. I really should....you know.
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