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tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by LT » Mon Nov 20, 2006 8:25 pm

I think i like you but i don't know how to tell you

they get on my nerves sometimes all i try and do is help


i wish i was dead more times the i could remember this week, i cut and burnt last night
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by Aly » Mon Nov 20, 2006 8:59 pm

I'm scared that I'll lose you, and I'm scared I won't be able to cope.

I hate that there's nothing I can do.

I hate that you refuse to look after yourself.

I'm already preparing myself for losing you.

Just wish I could protect you. But I know you'd hate that...
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.

If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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Post by VowsOfSadness » Mon Nov 20, 2006 9:06 pm

i'm scared i'll always be used
*Challenges welcome*
I always love a :lpurpstar:

I woke up this morning, I suddenly realized we're all in this together.

Drop by my place & say hi :)
Ask me anything!!!

I'm fully Recovered!
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Post by mephistopheles » Mon Nov 20, 2006 9:13 pm

I don't think there ARE any answers. Which means I'm stuck here. Permanently.
“Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.”
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Post by Aly » Mon Nov 20, 2006 9:54 pm

I wish I could show that there are answers. Always answers.

I want not to be okay. Because then I feel slightly more worthy of kindness. Or rather, not worthy. But...I can understand it more.

Makes it easier to hate myself.
The wind and I, we speak the same, but he don’t hear so well.
Well, you’re gonna have to curse him, well you’re gonna have to yell.
The sky and I, we’ve had our fights and I’m coming round to rain,
Well, if the rain come round and it don’t come out, then I’ll never have to speak again,
I can tick tick tick tick tick tick tick away.

If Heaven is as Heaven does then this is Hell for sure...
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Post by moo-moo » Tue Nov 21, 2006 1:28 am

:cry: i am afraid from myself [size=0] I am afraid that i am not going to be here much longer, i have been getting more depressed on a regular basis
and have been trying to od on pills, secretly hoping that i will die...[/size]
hugs and pms welcome*****
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your bottles almost empty..you know this cant go on, because of you my mind is always racing..
the needles breaking your skin..the scar is sinking in...and know your trip begins..
but its all over for...its all over for you.....you....
when your on the edge and falling off..its all over for you...for you..
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Post by Aly » Tue Nov 21, 2006 6:08 pm

Sometimes the truth gets blurred in my head.

And I remember her differently to how she is...and then it comes out all wrong and I feel stupidly guilty...

Even though I'm the first to tell people feeling guilt is the stupidest thing ever....:-?
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Post by marshmallowfluff » Tue Nov 21, 2006 6:36 pm

everyones leaving me
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Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
And live like it's heaven on earth."
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Post by Spidey » Wed Nov 22, 2006 3:15 am

when she mentioned that someone by the same name had died
i thought it was you
and i was so scared that it was you that died that i signed on my other screenname
i almost cried with relief that it WASN'T you and that you were still alive, and online
we don't talk anymore, but i still care
i am so glad that you are alright and good
there is, in the end, the letting go.
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Post by friarygirl » Wed Nov 22, 2006 3:37 am

I'm not so strong as people think I am... :oops:
Let us think the unthinkable, let us do the undoable.
Let us prepare to grapple with the ineffable itself, and see if we may not eff it after all... Douglas Adams
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:bfly: THE TIME TO TELL SOMEONE YOU CARE IS NOW :bfly:
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Post by HiddenByLies » Wed Nov 22, 2006 6:05 am

i'm scared but confident about this guy. he's nice and funny and caring. i just hope it turns out right and that i don't run away.

pm's okay.
the worlds her stage the people her crew
she looks so happy to me and you
but inside her body are secrets and lies
they're all her own that she hides behind
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her radiant mask her wonderful grace
but inside she's wondering why she's stuck in this place
but into her being she'll fall and remain
until someone frees her it's all just the same
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Post by red umbrellas » Wed Nov 22, 2006 10:23 am

i'm starting to push people away...because i'm scared i'll only get hurt again.
i'm scared
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
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Post by Aly » Wed Nov 22, 2006 7:54 pm

Every day I get more scared about what you're doing to yourself. Im scared Ill lose you.
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Post by angelic212 » Wed Nov 22, 2006 9:28 pm

last night i spend a few hours on pro ed sites,
eventhough i know they make me feel bad

and two days ago i bought laxatives
already took some but not today,
i wasnt honest with my therapist
and i drank a red bull energy drink,,
my therapist doesnt want me to drink that stuff

(pms are okay )
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Post by LT » Wed Nov 22, 2006 11:41 pm

I wish i could get you to see me and to notice the way i feel about you.
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by angelic212 » Thu Nov 23, 2006 1:16 am

i wish my parents would see that im still hurting myself, with my eating disorder, they are completely clueless,
they think im some what recovered, they are wrong. :cry: :cry:


(can any one pm me please??)
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Post by LT » Thu Nov 23, 2006 5:32 pm

Wish you would communicate with me like you do everyone else, i know your hurting and i want to help you so much.
Wish i could make you see that i like you so much and would do anything for you.
I am an architect, they call me a butcher
I am a pioneer, they call me primitive
I am purity, they call me perverted
- Manic street preachers

I find it kinda funny, i find it kinda sad, the dreams in which i'm dying are the best i've ever had - Mad World

Your no good for me, I don't need nobody, don't need noone - The Prodigy

You'll never walk alone

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Post by Aly » Thu Nov 23, 2006 6:21 pm

*Su*
I feel weak for not being able to kill myself...
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Post by Koru » Thu Nov 23, 2006 7:58 pm

I finally told him how much I care about him. He's arranged to spend his leave in a different country to me.

I've lost one of my best friends.

But I don't regret it because I haven't dreamt his funeral since I told him.

At least if he doesn't come back from his next tour he'll know how much I cared for him.

(pm's OK)
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Post by red umbrellas » Fri Nov 24, 2006 1:37 am

i'm feeling just as afraid of being cared about as i am of rejection.

i am afraid for the future.
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses
Hold On To Yourself - Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds

"We paint a picture of a scenario - and then we become afraid of it" - Andrea Fella
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