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Post by treasure » Mon Jun 18, 2007 8:29 am

*sex*
i am so desperate to watch porn at the moment. i don't have a dvd player or the internet at home, so my only option has been to watch a little while at uni. i haven't found any videos i can download so i can't watch at home.
part of the time i feel normal, healthy, sexy and confident. but as far as i know, it's against the rules to watch at uni and i feel guilty and scared i might get found out. i also feel really sad that i don't have a partner.

i'm not sure whether this is an 'issue' or something normal. i'm embarassed about it.
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Post by Callisto » Mon Jun 18, 2007 8:54 am

i love x so much and really want things to work for us.....

but part of me will always love him too....i just hope x is ok with that

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Post by monkey » Mon Jun 18, 2007 8:57 am

I've convinced myself I lke it.

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Post by Stripe » Mon Jun 18, 2007 8:30 pm

I didn't even tell the police everything.
Maybe if I had people would be at less risk now
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Post by Callisto » Wed Jun 20, 2007 8:35 pm

im so confused.

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Post by Mistress » Thu Jun 21, 2007 12:29 am

Carry on ignoring me when I ask for help and I will damned well do it, and bollocks to my promise.
so here's us, on the raggedy edge...

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Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering,
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Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream
before...

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Post by Callisto » Thu Jun 21, 2007 10:27 am

ive started having blanks. and i dont know why.

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Post by marshmallowfluff » Thu Jun 21, 2007 5:49 pm

dancing_shoes wrote:im so confused.
seconds that
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"Dance like no one's watching.
Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening.
And live like it's heaven on earth."

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Post by Callisto » Thu Jun 21, 2007 8:21 pm

i dont know if i can do this.

i dont think i have the strength.

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Post by red umbrellas » Fri Jun 22, 2007 2:31 am

of all the people to have an immature crush on, you're probably one of the most inappropriate for about a gazillion reasons.
i can't believe it's like this.
i know it'll pass....i hope it'll pass.
if not...just....fuuuck this is messy.
why you of all people to fall for?
Unless it's because it's all so stupid and wrong and so i know nothing could happen...
It's all life and fire and lunacy
And excuses and excuses and excuses

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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Jun 22, 2007 5:23 am

I'm not eating normally... barely eating at all.
"The impossible just takes a little longer."
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I'm not here/This isn't happening"
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Post by Stripe » Fri Jun 22, 2007 9:17 am

I feel so very very torn. I can't be everything right now and I am sorry I let you down. Really, but I am even more sorry I will continue to let you down. I can't be enough for you ever.
And I didn't mean to hurt you.
Sorry
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Post by green » Fri Jun 22, 2007 2:23 pm

I'm afraid of you dying.
But some days it feels like you already have.

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Post by monkey » Fri Jun 22, 2007 4:14 pm

im afraid i will wake up in the past

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Post by Scatterbrain » Fri Jun 22, 2007 6:01 pm

melting_snow wrote:
dancing_shoes wrote:im so confused.
seconds that
thirds this!

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Post by Callisto » Fri Jun 22, 2007 7:45 pm

PM's ok

the only time i've ever felt like i was pretty was when guys used to use me for one night stands. at least then i knew i looked good enough for them to give up going home with their mates to fuck me.










im still in love with him even though i love being with her

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Post by Callisto » Sat Jun 23, 2007 9:34 pm

my smiles hide my twice broken heart

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Post by jaded melody » Sat Jun 23, 2007 11:25 pm

i think... i might have Anorexia.

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Post by flipflopfetish » Sun Jun 24, 2007 7:56 am

I want to drag you all down with me.

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Post by xCheerUpFailurex » Sun Jun 24, 2007 7:56 am

I love him so mch. He completes me like no one else. But I'm too afraid of getting hurt to give him my whole heart......
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