last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

tips on how to cope: dealing with your feelings, dealing with the consequences of self-harm in your life. share your ideas and maybe pick up some new skills, too. you don't have to want to stop to learn something new here.

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Post by kazeldya » Fri Jun 11, 2004 5:57 pm

Dolly's Nightmare wrote:i went to look at the pictures section on [another site - Ime] and was horrified.... i became scared i might end up gashing myself like that.
I clicked on the link... those are scary... do a lot of people on here SI like that? A lot of those are so extreme.
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Post by Inner Child » Sun Jun 13, 2004 11:26 am

because i wanted to keep my time free & i want to stay free..

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Post by swanfaerie » Mon Jun 14, 2004 7:41 am

cuz my mother's manipulativeness isn't worth me cutting or burning. and if she pulls that garbage on my kids, i need to be present to stop her and support them...not locked in the bathroom!!
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Post by amyfairy » Mon Jun 14, 2004 11:07 pm

As i'm hurting enough, as are those around me.



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Post by Bridget0688 » Tue Jun 15, 2004 6:54 pm

I wanted to sleep in my room last night.
http://busmail.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=68296 <-----My place, replies are welcome!!
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Post by elo3000 » Tue Jun 15, 2004 7:35 pm

I went and slept in a graveyard that is next to my friends house dont ask me why but it helped :o

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Post by anunseenhavoc » Wed Jun 16, 2004 5:27 am

last time i wanted to slit and didnt i talked to friends and listened to music, the reason i didnt is because i didnt want to lose my best friend and i knew i'd reget it later on
-courtnee-

"So now you're back on your feet again
Now you're back to compete with men
Now you're back and it took some time
To get from misery to prime
Now you're back here to change the world
Now you're back and I say "Go girl"
Now you're back and you'll do just fine
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Post by tenar » Fri Jun 18, 2004 10:42 am

it isn't what i want anymore, really. i may desire it and wish for it but i know it will neither make me feel better or solve anything and will leave me feeling worse.

i curled up in bed with some LOUD music instead.
We live in a beautiful world...
There’s nothing here to run from,
Cause everybody here’s got somebody to lean on
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Post by beck » Mon Jun 21, 2004 6:30 am

I squeezed tennis balls until it hurt. And I read bus postings to remind myself why I want to stop.

I didn't want to disappoint my therapist either. When he says he's proud of me, he actually cries. I've never believed anyone else when they've said it, but I believe him. It makes my day.

And I'm tired of wearing long-sleeved shirts. My last cut is almost healed and I'm really looking forward to wearing t-shirts again.

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Post by swanfaerie » Tue Jun 22, 2004 6:11 am

cuz i'm getting a tattoo on wednesday and i told myself if i si, then i can't get my tatt.
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Post by tenar » Tue Jun 22, 2004 9:23 am

cos i am NOT going to self harm over a bad training session. that is taking obsession with sport way to far.
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Post by sam_girl » Tue Jun 22, 2004 11:11 am

i thought of the sadness in my boyfriends eyes when he finds out ive SIed again. also the thought of lying to my mum if she asks if i hav SIed and the fear of having to talk about it to anyone.

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Post by doll » Tue Jun 22, 2004 11:35 pm

i woke up ! I had a really bad cutting dream and woke up. It felt so real. I told someone later about it, but she said i should dream about those things. (she knew I was trying not to cut)

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Post by lostangel » Wed Jun 23, 2004 3:21 pm

I tired to hold out but getting to me now. I try talking to guys and working on the book i'm writing. write what you feel down and give it to some that you trust more than anythig. may be they can help through the rough pacthes. :angelic: 8) :lol: :tongue: :wink: :-? :Fade-color :help:
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Post by ~*Star*~ » Wed Jun 23, 2004 3:37 pm

I physically couldn't. There was some force stopping me from it even though I wanted to :-?
"I was down, I fell, I fell so fast
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Post by anunseenhavoc » Wed Jun 23, 2004 8:48 pm

i wrote some poems...


:1_year_si_free: on july 2nd! but--> (with 4 slips...does that still count?)
-courtnee-

"So now you're back on your feet again
Now you're back to compete with men
Now you're back and it took some time
To get from misery to prime
Now you're back here to change the world
Now you're back and I say "Go girl"
Now you're back and you'll do just fine
'cause after rainy days the sun will shine"-MILLENCOLIN




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Post by alegria » Mon Jun 28, 2004 6:30 am

i promised my friend i wouldn't while i was staying with him.
Deliver me, out of my sadness.
Deliver me, from all of the madness.
Deliver me, courage to guide me.
Deliver me, strength from inside me.

All of my life i've been in hiding...

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Post by amyfairy » Mon Jun 28, 2004 10:30 am

I went and ate something :roll: :oops: :oops:

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Post by Chloroform*Perfume » Mon Jun 28, 2004 10:43 am

I promised my mom I could go a day.
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Post by nirvana » Tue Jun 29, 2004 2:36 am

i don't want to lose my days. :oops:
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