Kinda proud of myself!

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Kinda proud of myself!

Post by wondercheese » Fri May 14, 2004 5:44 pm

I'm not really sure what happend last night, I remember that I really wanted to SI. Then there is a large blank period (I tend to blackout when I'm really triggered). Ususally when that happens, i wake up covered in SI marks, but this morning, I woke up covered in red marker! NO SI, just marker! Unfortunately, it was permanent marker, and I don't have any alcohol to get it off, so I'm at school covered in marker, but that's better than what I could be covered in!!!! I'm excited about it, it means something in there wants to quit besides just me! I'll wash it off in the lab after classes, there's plenty of alcohol up there, it is nasty lab grade stuff, but it will get marker off. This will be the first time that I blacked out wanting to SI and didn't SI! I hope that it happens like this more often now. I'll have to get a supply of non-permanent red markers!

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Post by Shortie Blonde » Fri May 14, 2004 8:16 pm

that's kinda cool.

One time I wanted to cut and I wrote on my wrist with a green sharpie...the sharpie gave me a "natural" high by sinking into my skin...:( (it's edge cuz it wasn't on purpose)...and I got green stuff all over my security animal.
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Post by nirvana » Sun May 16, 2004 2:07 am

congrats! :D glad you just drew on yourself instead of cut. hope you're able to do that again.

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Post by plantt » Mon May 17, 2004 12:12 am

good for you! :grnstar:
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Post by xPaintTheStarsx » Mon May 17, 2004 2:23 pm

Congrats! You should be proud, thats a great step :)
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Post by Laura » Mon May 17, 2004 2:45 pm

That's great! :grnteeth:

I've done that sometimes - my marker does wash off mostly, but I do feel kind of silly standing in the shower like that :olol:

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Post by lost down here » Wed Jun 02, 2004 11:02 pm

aww good im glad for you hun, so proud of you!!!!!!!!!! keep it up!!!!
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