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Post by Inwë Lessien » Wed Mar 24, 2004 3:55 am

* I love you so much; but can't you see that this is killing me? Why can't you give up something for once?

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Post by Guest » Wed Mar 24, 2004 11:36 am

Twat.

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Post by nirvana » Thu Mar 25, 2004 4:56 pm

d - stop talking, you piss me off.

b - yeah, i showed you what i wrote to you from this site. wrong reaction asshole. i don't know what i expected you to say, but that definately wasn't it. don't fucking mess with gaelen's head she's fragile and special and she deserves better. she fucking DESERVES BETTER THAN YOU. she's confused and she'll get attached and you'll hurt her and i don't want her hurt. i want her happy, she deserves to be happy. dammit.

b - fuck you for doing that to me. i hate it and i hate you. except i don't hate you i need you and i hate needing you. :cry:
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Post by Hammy » Fri Mar 26, 2004 2:02 am

Jerry- This is all your fucking fault! The fam, they have been enablers, but in the end, you did this. All my tears, all this shit, all the pain and hiding, it's all because of you. I don't even know what to say to you, though now I can't speak and you can't hear me anyway. If there's one more thing I wish I could say to you it's this: Fuck you, Jerry, fuck you. I hate you, for all the things you did to everyone; to me, I just fucking hate you. And I don't miss you, not on fucking bit. I may have been crying at the funeral, but it wasn't for you. If I believed in hell I would hope you fucking burn there.

Louise- How could you be so stupid?! How could you be such a fucking idiot?! How could you stay with him?! I know you loved Jerry, but you had two kids damnit and they were your responsibilty. And he was killing you, too! Yeah, I saw you wasting away. I saw that he wouldn't let you have medicine for the MS, and still you refused to realize that he needed help. He ripped a fucking sink out of a fucking wall and still you stayed. I yell at you some more, and call you a fucking idiot, and ask you how you could have let this happen, but it's a too late for that, isn't it?
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Post by Guest » Fri Mar 26, 2004 10:52 am

Get a life you silly little bitch. Stop whining and whinging and acting the victim. You make mistakes. You are not innocent. You cannot expect to be treated like cut fucking glass for the rest of your life. You want change, you have to be a part of it. Until you can accept you have responsibilities too, until you stop being a selfish, self pitying cow, fuck off and don't make me listen to any more of your pathetic whinging.

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Post by RickTheTwinkie » Sat Mar 27, 2004 1:04 am

Dad - You piss me off so much. You act like I'm a goddamn problem when you're the goddamn problem. You treat everyone like shit and expect them to grin and bear it. News flash. I won't.
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Post by raven » Sat Mar 27, 2004 3:46 am

mom i love you. why isn't that enough?
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Post by Cindy » Sat Mar 27, 2004 3:55 pm

T- i think of you always, but i don't really know you.
i'd love you if you wanted me to. i'm not very good with feelings,
they scare me. wish you well, hope life is fun, i really want to...

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Post by serenity » Sat Mar 27, 2004 9:51 pm

Everyone irl except a few---I fucking hate that you dont believe me!!!! Im not anything you heard...i didnt say that shit and it makes me soooo unbelievably hurt that you would even begin to think that those rumours could even be remotly true!! I guess i dont know any of you like i hoped i did. I dont place blame often at all....because its not right and nothing is ones fault but i wish you all knew that those hurtful words and actions tear me apart inside. It was me alone last night, and it was me who made me lose my days free but it was all of you who started and continued the words behind my back and i wish you wouldn't have. Fuck.
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Post by RoxyRed » Sun Mar 28, 2004 6:41 pm

Ashley: I love you like a sister, and we have had so much fun together and so many good memories. But, where were you when I was in the hospital? Do you even know if I am alive anymore? Is your life to busy to call your sick "best friend"? I know you have helped contribute to my problems, and I think you have your own dependent issues. You could be a better friend by actually talking to me about how I feel and opening up to me. I am sure you hide things.

Cris: Thank you for finally being the older brother that I always wanted. You have supported me and you came through for me especially when I needed you most. I love you.

Jean-Paul: You need to get your shit together. And, I know you fucking stole Juan's dog-tags. He wore those, and that is the one item of his that I valued with my fucking life! You do not mess with things that are not your's especially my deceased husband's! However, thank you for coming to see me when I was in the hospital.

Mom: We still have a rocky relationship, but it has improved. Thank you for all of your help and support. Thank you for trying to understand me even though "I am the most complex person you have ever known." Just remember that sometimes too much help isn't good either.

Juan: I love you and miss you dearly. I am still trying to make sense of everything, but I guess now I really never can. I do hope to see you when I pass, and if I pass before my parents, you will be the one I come and look for first. Te amo, Te extrano... Descanse en paz.

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Post by Guest » Tue Mar 30, 2004 10:42 am

I love you so much. You are something I never thought I'd find. I don't deserve you, but you tell me I do. Just... thank you, so much, for being in my life.

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Post by jenica h. » Tue Mar 30, 2004 4:06 pm

Christine: Stop playing victim! STOP MAKING ME OUT TO BE CRAZY! NEVER ONCE DID I EVER PHYSICALLY LASH OUT AT YOU! I'M NOT ABUSIVE! I'M NOT DANGEROUS! SO STOP! GET OUT OF MY LIFE!

Amberly: Get gone! You propositioned my boyfriend with YOUR BOYFRIEND in the other room! Now, you broke up with him and HE DOESN'T WANT YOU BACK.

Father: I love you. I miss you. Please, see that one day.
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."


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Post by Guest » Wed Mar 31, 2004 3:30 pm

You stupid bunch of fuckers
I hope you understand soon
I hope you learn what pain is like
I hope you all suffer worse than any of the people you are mocking
If I could watch you squirm and listen to you cry, I'd be happy

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Post by Twitter Mouse » Wed Mar 31, 2004 9:26 pm

Dad- What the fuck? You called my teacher??? To see if I was cutting still?????? Are you that fucking stupid? Why the hell would you call her, when you didn't even know that she knew? And, not that you ever cared to know but looking at my arms woudn't quite help o figure out if I was still cutting, would it? I'm not so stupid to cut my arms when I need to worry about being caught. Plus, why did you ask my teacher, one of the few I get along with so well. You've fucked up my life enough, I dont need you to do any further damage to it. How dare you tell my teacher that I need help? I'M NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUISNESS! You make it out to sound like I'm making a big deal of nothing, but to me it isn't nothing! Little things add up, and eventually enough is enough. Yuo made me look stupid because I was so shocked by the fact that you called her that I could barely say anyhting, I just refuted what you said. Why won't you stay out of my life? It's clear to me that you didn't call her because you cared about me, but because you wanted to get at me, try to get me to talk to you. If you cared and wanted to know how I was doing, let me remind of the little fact that I have a SISTER. You know, the one you see for half the week?? She lives with me the other half, if your puny brain couldn't figure it out. She knows how I'm doing, she tells all kinds of other shit to you, so why not ask her? Why not ask your parents, who you know I saw last weekend? They know I'm doing fine. But no, you have to go through my teachers because that way she'd pity you and think I'm the crazy one and then she'd try to get me to talk to you again. Well fuck you, it didn't work. And tomorrow I'm going down to the councillor's office and seeing what I can do about you calling the school about me. As far as I'm concerned, I have no father. I have a sperm donor who didn't give a shit all my life whether I was alive or dead except that you wanted to control because the only satifaction you get is out of hurting and controlling others. If you didn't give a shit then, why care now? Because you lost someone to boss around, to lie to and to put down so you feel better about yourself? Oh well, I don't have to deal with your shit, and I won't. And joint custody is for the birds. Yeah, go ahead and telll my teacher that you have joint custody, subtle threat, I know. Well, if you want to bring me to court, by all means do it. Just try it. You bring me, and I'll tell the court that I'm not living with you, they can't force me and they won't. You made it sound lik you weren't bringing us to court because "something would happen if I was forced to live there". You're not because the court would say no and you know it, and lawyer in his right mind would tell you that. Also, damn right somehting would happen, I've already disscussed this with my friends. If for some reason I can't live with my mom, I'd either move in with Jenn or Jamie or I'd kill myself. Does that give you some sort of hint as to how much I despise you? I'm no longer suicidal, but I'd kill myself before moving back in with you. Lucky for me if god forbid some situtation does come up, I have a place to live with your brother, he told me that (since I dont want to get my friend's parents in trouble). I hate yu, and I hate that you won't leave me alone. Get out of my life and stay out. Don't make my teacher give me this speech on how I only have one father, well I didn't say it to her, but I'll say it now. I'd rather have no father than have you.
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by Twitter Mouse » Thu Apr 01, 2004 8:05 pm

Mom- I wish I could tell you, I can't take being alone, it's too hard. Please help me. I wish you were here.
Miss L- You're wrong, I'm sorry that I can't prove myself right, but you're wrong. He's good at convincing people, he had me convinced for years. He's not a perfet loving person as he may have seemed on the phone. I can't stop you from liking or pitying him, but please do not try to get me to do the same.
Mrs. L- You're so cool, thanks for looking into that stuff for me and for talking to Mrs. S
Ken- Sorry for being bitchy, why do you always think I'm mad at you? I haven't been mad at you yet! You're really great, and I'm sorry Jenn doesn't like you, you're just too peppy around her.
Ginny- Stupid play practices! :evil:
Dad- Once again, you suck.
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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Post by sassy koala » Sat Apr 03, 2004 6:37 pm

IT'S MY FUCKING MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Post by WickedWitchElphie » Sat Apr 03, 2004 9:40 pm

I'm screaming for you to hold me. I'm absolutely DESPERATE. Just for you to touch me in a loving way. I can't take hugs anymore because I want more. Why can't you see?
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I'm through accepting limits
'Cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But 'til I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost...

How can someone like you love someone like me?
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Post by jenica h. » Sun Apr 04, 2004 5:40 pm

Lauren: That was the LAST time I trust you! You said your mother punched you, you said you wanted out! I raced around to do what ever I could! And it comes down to the fact, SHE DIDN'T HIT YOU AT ALL! YOU ATTENTION SEEKING WH*RE!
"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
Only I will remain."


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Post by the winding trail » Mon Apr 05, 2004 4:08 pm

A - Respect? What is this thing you call respect anyway? You said you respect me because I have a high IQ but you're not sure if I'm a nice person! Well I'm not sure I want your respect now! You fought with N so now you're trying to break us up? A little obvious don't you think? You're totally convinced that you can read everyone in your little crystal ball, but you have no idea what goes on in my mind. You say I have a ridiculously low EQ but you don't even know that I can see right through you. You don't want to be a cliche do you? And I know that you're jealous of me, but you don't have to try and trigger my anorexia. 'Your hip bones are so prominent'...what is your problem girl? Telling me that the 'ideal' Hong Kong girl weighs **lbs when you know I weigh more than that and have lots of eating issues. Is it because *you're* not the perfect weight that you want to hurt me like that? I'm not going to carry on being a sounding board for you...and stop trying to break me and N up...
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Post by WickedWitchElphie » Tue Apr 06, 2004 9:22 pm

Seriously, this needs to be talked about. But I don't even have the figurative balls to say anything to your face about it. Do you love me because I'm me, or do you love me because of what I've been doing for you? Lately I feel like I'm just your fuck buddy and I'm just conviently there when you want someone to be physically intimate with. I feel like whatever we had is just going the deeper into this relationship we get. Is it?
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I'm through accepting limits
'Cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But 'til I try I'll never know
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost...

How can someone like you love someone like me?
*I :heart: KP*
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