last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

swanfaerie · Post by **swanfaerie** » Mon Mar 08, 2004 8:23 am

cuz i decided that:

it would disappoint so many people (me included)

i'm tired of making excuses

i'd go play games and see if i could change my buses

if other people love me, maybe i should start loving myself

i started cleaning an UGH corner of my room

i'm too tired

part of my growth process is actually feeling emotions

if i got my blood sugar up i would feel better

Melisand · Post by **Melisand** » Wed Mar 10, 2004 3:27 pm

My cat jumped on my lap.

They remind me what love is.

Sparrow · Post by **Sparrow** » Wed Mar 10, 2004 8:03 pm

Sometimes I give into the urge,,sometimes I don't. Last time instead
of reaching for my blade I just dragged my fingernail down the entire
length of my arm,,,for that time it was good enough and in the end I was glad I didn't cut afterall.

8586 · Post by **8586** » Thu Mar 11, 2004 4:43 am

Because I have soccer conditioning now, and I have to wear shorts, and I am already in a panic if I think my shorts are too short and you can see scars, and cutting more obvious marks red marks, would make me even more scared and I don't need that right now.

Whew, I said that. I don't need it right now.

hollow cry · Post by **hollow cry** » Thu Mar 11, 2004 6:18 am

because i cried till i fell asleep~has anyone else ever hurt themselves in their sleep? i didnt mean to so does that count i didnt kno till the nxt morning and as i dnt drink alchol it wasnt that

WickedWitchElphie · Post by **WickedWitchElphie** » Fri Mar 12, 2004 12:27 am

Because...
*It would hurt myself and I would regret it later
*I would break my boyfriend's heart. Again. And I'm sick of doing that.

shootingstar · Post by **shootingstar** » Fri Mar 12, 2004 7:25 am

because when i overcome the urge to cut myself i feel stronger. i beat down the desire instead of beating up myself.

silverfox848 · Post by **silverfox848** » Fri Mar 12, 2004 7:58 am

Because I love my boyfriend, so I went and did a half hour of kickboxing inseted

limestone · Post by **limestone** » Fri Mar 12, 2004 11:33 pm

cried. and the time before that kept repeating to myself how I was only in the kitchen getting a drink and nothing more.

internettie · Post by **internettie** » Fri Mar 12, 2004 11:46 pm

I promised I wouldn't...

killjoy · Post by **killjoy** » Sun Mar 14, 2004 4:36 am

I didn't do it because i'm reading this post...

And because i had to put makeup on my arm for the first time in my life today....I think that this is the most awful thing i had to do...I hate how i have to lie to the whole world ...Anyway i'm safe for now but i don't know for how long...i guess i'll keep reading the post till i'll get over my urges..

Boogie Man · Post by **Boogie Man** » Sun Mar 14, 2004 5:02 am

caus i was too stoned to stand up

i could hardly make it to bed let alone cut myself.

peace

Abbsy1213 · Post by **Abbsy1213** » Sun Mar 14, 2004 2:32 pm

I wanted to last week Thursday really really bad...but I didn't because I had already gone 8 days without it. Plus I have a doctors appointment this week...and there's gonna be no hiding anything I've done....

limestone · Post by **limestone** » Sun Mar 14, 2004 11:44 pm

watched tv instead.

Nicksy · Post by **Nicksy** » Mon Mar 15, 2004 12:16 pm

I called my best friend and he talked to me about randm crap for 2 and half hours to keep my mind off it.

Pixie
x

limestone · Post by **limestone** » Mon Mar 15, 2004 6:30 pm

found a colouring book and felt pens: 20 minutes and everything was ok again.

pretty · Post by **pretty** » Mon Mar 15, 2004 6:33 pm

Designed a si free badge for my next milestone.

P!nk · Post by **P!nk** » Mon Mar 15, 2004 7:53 pm

I took my Benzo's and fell asleep and there was the added pressure of having to tell my therapist.

Setmefree · Post by **Setmefree** » Mon Mar 15, 2004 8:31 pm

last time i wanted to cut, or burn, I just called up my best friend and forced her to tell me about the time we had that fight we had and then we went out for ice cream later and had the most heart-to-heart- talk that i felt bound us together. Sometimes i play video games too because I'll be -playing hitman and all i'm thinking is how I'm going to get past this guard and steal the statue...lol. But sometimes there's so much pain, like when boyfriends break up with me for the same reason every time,

that I have to cut, or burn. Sometimes it feels too much to bear, and then it's just like, when the blood runs, the tears dry up. I don't mean to write so much but I've never really felt like I could relate or talk about any of this.
It's cool you guys listen.

shootingstar · Post by **shootingstar** » Tue Mar 16, 2004 4:42 am

i didn't because i listened to the song "i'm moving on" by rascal flatts over and over for about an hour...it helps me remember that i can stop doing this and move on...there is a life out there without si waiting for me whenever i decide to take the steps to stop

**jen**

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