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Post by PassingCloud » Mon Mar 01, 2004 7:51 pm

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Post by red umbrellas » Tue Mar 02, 2004 8:22 am

this is a really good idea. well done!

M- fuck off, my life, NOT YOURS. stop trying to control every little move i make and stop WATCHING me. and accept that sometimes i dont want to talk, full stop end of story.

A- you're a good person, but ye gods you annoy me sometimes. give me some space pleace, i need it. i run out of things to say, and as well as that, i dont want to pull you down as well with my moods.
apart from that though, you're a great friend, and thank you

D- dont. come. near. me. i know (well, im pretty sure anyway) you mean well...but it's claustrophobic. i need room, you don't give me enough. you don't have to come up every time i walk past. and you can stop WATCHING me too.

S- if it weren't for you...dunno what i'd do really. sometimes you make me feel so inadequate, and i know it's unintentional, but you're the closest to understanding.

J- YOU FUCKING BITCH. i hate you, i really do. you are just scum, you think you're so fucking great cos you're rich, but you are the nastiest, most manipulative cow i have ever met. i hope you don't ruin any more people, but i'm not holding my breath- you just can't help yourself when it comes to lies and power trips, can you?

S (different one)- you silly fucking idiot. can't you see what she's doing to you? i'm sorry, i'm not coming back when she screws you over, just like she's done to everyone else. i'm surprised you can't see it coming. actually, for your stupidity, maybe you deserve it.

B- I hardly know you and i can already tell you're a tosser. not a good sign.

i think that's all for now- thanks for the outlet!

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Post by ~Claire~ » Tue Mar 02, 2004 5:08 pm

I cant do this anymore. Its just not working. Let me go.

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Post by Twinky » Tue Mar 02, 2004 5:44 pm

Mike- You're freaking me out!!! I kinda wish I never told you about this stuff and now we're working together it kinda makes things worse. I don't know what to do. Please phone me and maybe we can talk like old friends again and now be plagued by this forever!

Lee- For heaven's sake I'm not a child!!! I'm WAY more experienced than you -you've been doing this for 4 years -BIG WOW(!) just because I'm 20 doesn't mean I haven't been doing this job for longer than you!! PLEASE let me do things instead of keeping these young people as YOUR youth! It's unhelpful to them and not great fun for me!!!

Linda -please text me

Justin- I like you
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Post by anji » Thu Mar 04, 2004 9:09 am

M-thank for caring about me... You're a precious friend!

V- fuck you... why do you have to be so shallow? Why do you have to tell me what to do when it's the last thing i need to hear from a retard like you. WHO THE FUCK are you to tell me what I should be thinking about and what not! I don't have the same issues you have why don't get that? Why can't i just cut off our bonds.
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Post by Guest » Thu Mar 04, 2004 12:50 pm

I hate that I feel so unwanted and uncared for, and that I don't feel like I can tell any of you that. Am I not worthy of the fucking support so many other people get? My problems not important? My life not worth worrying about? Lines in my head from old Guns n Roses song... 'you wanna antagaonise me? Antagonise me, motherfucker! Get in the ring, motherfucker, and I'll kick your bitchy little ass!' But they're competing with song I played this morning for the first time in ages... 'every day hurts a little more, every day hurts a little more, and I'll do anything, yes I'll do anything, to belong, to be strong, to say there's nothing wrong...'
If you can't give me what I need I'm out of here. You're hurting me.

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Post by red umbrellas » Fri Mar 05, 2004 6:20 am

J- so you can't get a g/f. I DON'T CARE! i have enough issues of my own to deal with at the moment- and anyway, maybe if you backed off for 5 secs, you'd have more success with people.

M- can't you SEE? i need your help PLEASE. i can't tell you though, i can't tell anyone. God knows, you watch me so much you should realise that things have gone really wrong.

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Post by serenity » Mon Mar 08, 2004 2:30 am

Ben-I'm sorry i lied to you already, but im afraid that if you found out everything about me youd be wierd. But things are already wierd. Maybe i made a mistake. Im sorry i dragged you into this. I cant trust you. Yes i am/was *su* yes those 'cuts' were intentional. I wish i had the strength to tell you, until then just fucking drop it.
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Post by talliah » Mon Mar 08, 2004 4:58 pm

i am jealous of you. i am not jealous of you. i am better than you. i am jealous of you. you have it all. why do you hve it all? i am better and i have fuck all

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Post by dreams » Mon Mar 08, 2004 11:17 pm

C: u r such a dickhead. I am spending hours slaving over this essay trying my best when you know how hard it is and all u can say is how u don't care because ur gonna hand in the work that ur friend did for his degree 3 yrs ago and so u can have a few more nights on the town. Grow up u twat that's cheeting and I HOPE THEY FIND OUT. U know they will chuck u out of uni if they find out and I HOPE THEY DO. U have no right to cheet and lie ur way through university. 'I already know wot grade i'm gonna get' - well fuck u at least my grade will be just that MINE not some made up mark that somebody else got. I really really hate u right now and i never hate anybody but this is working me up so much I don't wanna b ur friend anymore so don't count me as one cos i owe u nothing.

Chris: please reply to me. U know how much i like u and it would b nice if we could just be friends. please please please. Oh and i know next week is gonna b the biggest nightmare on the planet but please don't take the piss out of me i'm gonna be embarrassed enough as it is. Y can't i get u out of my head, y wont u get outta my head and leave me alone?????

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Post by Guest » Tue Mar 09, 2004 5:06 pm

*Take this as a warning, you are seriously pissing me off right now, so get the fuck away from me and stay away.

*As for you... attention whore? Heard that somehere recently, and it really fucking DOES sum you up.

*You're useless at your job, and you know everyone knows it. So don't try to make me look bad to cover your crap- for one thing, I could bury you in seconds because I ACTUALLY KNOW WHAT I'M DOING.

*I love you. You make me feel right. Can't wait to see you tonight baby.

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Post by Agape in Apathy » Wed Mar 10, 2004 2:15 am

I'm still waiting for an answer. I'm still waiting to know. And I always will be, but I want you to let me go and do it. Would it hurt anything?
is it you i want or just the notion of your heart to wrap around
so i can find my way around
safe to say from here you're getting closer now
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Post by roseblum15 » Wed Mar 10, 2004 3:01 am

M - What can I do to be friends with you again? I thought telling you about my SI would help me and that you would be supportive. But I guess not you are just selfish. You say to me "Why should I waste my time when you arn't willing to get help." WTF is that, do you not see that I have been doing better lately. I have been SI free for 2 months and its because of you. But i guess you won't see me as succeeding until I get professional help. Well guess what, I'm not going to do that right now. So you know what, I'm just going to say get over yourself, I asked for help and you ignored me, so FU.

D - Why don't you talk to me anymore? It wasn't me, and I have nothing against you. Why can't we still be friends.

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Post by nirvana » Wed Mar 10, 2004 3:30 am

.ben. i hate you. i miss you.

.julia. as cute as you think it was, it pissed me off so much that on my birthday card you wrote "i love your wrists. please don't hurt yourself." perfectly good way to ruin my birthday. you did that on my valentine's card too. if all you're going to do is check up on me and do wrist checks, don't bother talking to me at all.

.chanania. i can't fucking do the damn lab. i was gone two weeks. it was due yesterday and i'm sorry. i'm going to fail. i don't want to fail. he'll hurt me. i tried so hard i really did.

.everyone. i'm sorry. i hate myself and i'm sorry for everything.

i'm finally crying. i'm glad.
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Post by talliah » Wed Mar 10, 2004 3:04 pm

hey C. thanks for doing that. you saved my arse today. i tried really hard to get things sorted, but i usually fuck them up, i wish i could explain to you why, about being depressed, about self harming, so that you wouldn't just think that i'm lazy or rude or a procrastinator. but even though you don't know the truth, you were happy to lie for me and help me out today. i felt really guilty about bunking this one, but talking to you made me feel ok again. just hearing your voice, the way you always know the right thing to say, how sweet you were about it, how understanding and how you didn't have a go at me. it was so nice of you, and now you have to lie for me and sit in there on your own, and i'm not even worth it, but you did it anyway.
i want to tell you how much i like you to, how much you mean to me. i want to open right up to you, but i'm too scared of rejection.
so i'll leave it at thankyou for today and just for being you.
oh and thank you because the last, god knows how many times i've posted on this thread it's been cause someone irl has angered or upset me. it feels so great to be able to do a thankyou post for someone who is so wonderful and has made my day! :blush:

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Post by silverfox848 » Wed Mar 10, 2004 10:01 pm

Mom- I'm sorry for yelling at you so much, I don't know where the anger comes from.
Dad- I wish I could tell you whats really going on in my life, I love you so much.
WA- I'm sorry i broke my promis and cut again, and didn't try and call you.
El- I Love you as more then a sister.
Men- Stop seeing me as a fucking sex object, see me as a person, and just cause I'm bixual dosn't mean that all i want is sex
S (ex bf) I acsept your aplogy for what you did to me, but can't imagen ever feeling safe around you.
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Post by now_or_never » Thu Mar 11, 2004 2:59 am

mum- get off youre arse and stop trying to make a bad situation worse!! get your act together, you have to at least try to provide good home!!! i know youre depressed but stop beingso selffish!

dad-would it kill you to call your daughter once a fucking month? i wish like crazy i didnt love you but youre my dad and i really do miss you

cody- when i talk to you, you make everything all better and i wish that i could be honest with you and not have an act to make it seem like everythings ok..

sam-you may annoy the fuck out of me about matt and chink but hell youre my best friend and the only person i can be truthful with.. i love you like a sister and i dont say it but i hope were always best friends

chad- i miss you so much somedays it hurts my chest and i cant breathe, but youre with jill now and i know we'll never even speak again. i only pretend not to notice you in the hallways and the dirty looks dont mean anything

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Post by dave232 » Thu Mar 11, 2004 2:17 pm

Corinne - I know I don't look very girly and I've got a girlfriend but you didn't need to tell the whole fucking lecture theatre that in your fucking opinion I'm not a proper woman. Who gives a fuck what you think? Apart from you and me and I'm trying to sort my fucking screwed up life/mind out when it's mostly been screwed up by inconsiderate, narrow minded little bitches like you. Get yourself a life of your own, oh yeah I forgot that you think you have a life when all you do is dress the same as your friends even though you're too fat to get away with it and follow "cute" doctors around...why don't you leave medical school and join a singles club because you're only here to get a man? You stupid fucking cow. YOu think you're so pretty, but actually you're personality makes you one of the ugliest people I've ever met.
Your comments about me not being a proper woman really hurt, especially the first one. I know I'm not a proper woman and I fucking hate myself for it. It's only recently I've even started to feel vaguely comfortable with being me so don't ruin it for me now. Bitch.
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Post by C_Tyrdrop » Sat Mar 13, 2004 9:37 pm

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Hey Jude,
Don't make it bad.
Take a sad song
And make it better.
Remember,
To let her into your heart,
Then you can start,
To make it better.

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Post by Twitter Mouse » Sat Mar 13, 2004 11:24 pm

Dad- Fuck you. I wish you would disappear!
And it's hey babe, with your guardian eyes so blue,
Hey my baby, don't you know our love is true,
I've been so far from here,
Far from your loving arms,
Now I'm back again, and babe it's gonna work out fine.

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