last time i wanted to si, i didn't because.......

StillSearching · Post by **StillSearching** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 3:44 am

Why I didn't give into the urge:
I referred to my "List of Resources" which is a list my boyfriend and I made together of what to do when I feel the urge. I finished doing the things on the list and then I didn't have the urge anymore. I highly recommend posting such a list in a couple obvoius places. I have one above my computer monitor, one on my bathroom mirror, one on my nightstand, and one above my piano. Good luck!

rainy day · Post by **rainy day** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 3:59 am

last time i wanted to si i didn't because instead i talked to my boyfriend and realised how much we love each other and it gave me the stength not to

always · Post by **always** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 5:30 am

the last few times i've wanted to si i didn't... the reason why is because of my boyfriend- we talked thigns over a few times and really found out how much and what we meant to each other... he wants me to stop and i promised him i wouldn't si anymore and if i felt like "exploding" [cutting] that i'd call him and we'd talk about things- and i'm going to adhere to that- he means everything to me and to know that someone actually cares about who i am and what happens to me is enough to try to get me to stop...
-take care
~always

serenity · Post by **serenity** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 7:44 am

The last time i wanted to si i didnt because it was dark so i ran to the field while it was thundering and i screamed, and then looked up at the sky for awhile.

Muriel_Heslop · Post by **Muriel_Heslop** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 2:17 pm

You might laugh at this but there have been quite a few times I have wanted to SI but haven't purely because I can't be bothered, too idle to actually get my stuff out and by the time I actually think I might move I don't need to do it any more..... I guess it is as good a reason as any

Inner Child · Post by **Inner Child** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 2:48 pm

listened to some music full blast in my headphones to have a good cry & then i watched all my southpark boxsets to have a laugh..

Ana xXx

angelwithapintglass · Post by **angelwithapintglass** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 2:55 pm

the last time i wanted to SI and didnt, i talked to my closest friend and asked them to tell me things that always made me feel more worthy.

x

Dungeon_Lilly · Post by **Dungeon_Lilly** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 3:21 pm

The last times I wanted to SI I wrote down a ton of stuff even though it was messed up I just kept writing.
I went out with a friend instead of going home.
I thought about my bf

PaperDoll · Post by **PaperDoll** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 6:05 pm

I have to go to a ball at the end of the month and I stupidly chose a sleeveless dress

swanfaerie · Post by **swanfaerie** » Sun Jan 25, 2004 6:39 pm

i didn't simply because i decided the emotional wounds i was feeling were bad enough for the moment. and i didn't want to guilt out the other person or "beat myself up" later for letting it get to me.

always · Post by **always** » Mon Jan 26, 2004 4:12 am

PaperDoll wrote:I have to go to a ball at the end of the month and I stupidly chose a sleeveless dress

i chose a speghetti strap for prom last year... make up can help cover it if you play around with it and see what works... i wish i would have had a reason to stop before i ever started...

add on: when i can't reach my boyfriend [he's at work or out...], i draw or write to express what i feel...
sorry forgot to put it in original post...

moojo · Post by **moojo** » Tue Jan 27, 2004 7:33 am

i hugged my sweet lil dog and finally fell asleep

itsernie · Post by **itsernie** » Tue Jan 27, 2004 9:09 am

i want so Si now but I cut too deep last night and am scared to cut right now. Also this message board, it's giving me something to do insead of SI, so thank you BUS.

nirvana · Post by **nirvana** » Tue Jan 27, 2004 9:26 pm

last night i wanted to cut. i had the razor out and everything. instead i put away the razor and cried. i normally can't do that. i don't even remember how long i cried for, but it was a while. then i listened to quiet music and fell asleep...

megamonica · Post by **megamonica** » Fri Jan 30, 2004 6:51 pm

The last time I wanted to hurt myself, I remembered something that my Dad told me...

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My Dad is a recovering alcoholic, and during one of my really tough times this past fall when I craved SI, he told me that actions are a loud proclamation of a person's beliefs. Every time I drag that blade across my skin, I'm shouting to the world that God isn't good enough. So even though I feel like I can't live without SI sometimes, the truth is that I can't live without God.

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I know it sounds cheesy and sappy, but sometimes a promise is the only thing that keeps me from SI.

lonely · Post by **lonely** » Sun Feb 01, 2004 1:23 am

last time i really wanted to si, i didnt because i distracted myself w/ preparations for si (there are certain conditions i like to be under) - and i ended up showering for a ridiculous amount of time and then cleaning my room and falling asleep. ha. it was kinda weird.

saffie · Post by **saffie** » Sun Feb 01, 2004 3:15 pm

i didn't want to hurt/disappoint/worry my best friend.
i don't want to have the guilt of it hanging over me when i go back to school.
i don't have any blades anymore.

so i found this forum and posted on it instead.

serenity · Post by **serenity** » Mon Feb 02, 2004 5:31 am

I didnt because i came on here and poked ducky and then she tickled me and i wet my pants

(dont worry pope8586 gave me new ones

) now im all about the beaver poop.
I didnt because i drank alot or caffiene 'cause

Lastly, I couldnt find my blade...I guess thats the main reason.

Licentia Poetica · Post by **Licentia Poetica** » Mon Feb 02, 2004 6:20 am

...Because I gave my blades to my counsellor

, because k h and I are both going to get better, because I found out someone likes me

and because *takes deep breath* ... I knew that 20 mins later I would hate myself for it.

xanemicroyaltyx · Post by **xanemicroyaltyx** » Mon Feb 02, 2004 9:22 am

i wrote really long letters to everyone i knew the address of

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